8 More days till Flipside! 7 days 9 hours till i leave this city for Flipside! WOOHOO ( Read more... )

Life! To feel life again, as it can be, as it should be! LIVING! I'm high on it. Found it again. Will not let it go again! LIFE!!!!!!!!!

Can't say I'm too ecstatic about being back, either. I...hmm...I felt a lot of things when I was on my way/just back. That I was going to do a lot of things. And now that I'm even starting to get back into normal life, I'm seeing them fade...And I haven't even left my house yet, much less gone to work, or seen people...This is depressing. I start ( Read more... )

I am quite excited! I should be leaving on a road trip on Wednesday, sometime. By myself. Wherever I wish to go, whatever I wish to do. For 1.5 weeks. !!!!!!! As of right now, I'm vaguely planning on heading to Arizona and New Mexico. There are several things I want to see/experience there. Also, there's a really nice national park WAY west Texas, ( Read more... )

things are just fucked up. that simple. fucked up. and i'm fucked up. both in the fact that i'm drunk right now, and that mind is fucked up pretty thoroughly anyway ( Read more... )

actually, i haven't posted here or anywhere in a while ( Read more... )

2 days! Happyhappyhappy!

must focus on this...can't allow myself to focus on anything else yet....

2 DAYS!

Do I dare be hopeful? I really need to play my cards right ( Read more... )

I don't want to be numb again. I don't want to be a robot again. Too much pain.... My defense against pain: numbness. It's been a problem before, and I've learned to control it. But the pain is getting to be too much...I feel it creeping up on me. And I don't want to be that way again. I was a machine for too long....I'm done with it. I just want ( Read more... )

I still know nothing. Just hanging in limbo...Very hard to not lose all hope ( Read more... )