Did you know that Mitsubishi manufactures mandarin oranges too?
You make me come
You make me complete
You make me completely miserable
Today, Deuce pointed out to me that I'll be gone in less than 10 days. Although I should be excited beyond belief to go to Taiwan for a month by myself, the truth is I am frightened to the bone and almost in angst for what I'll be missing out on and what I could have been a part of: job opportunities, training, school registration, getting my proofs, sending Tim to Ferris, a Brhlik wedding I was personally invited to, getting ahead with college apps, delayed ACT retaking, cans at Bosch (no matter how much I hate them), working on the DVD with Chad, sending Colleen to Grand Valley... *sigh*
My worst fear at the beginning of the summer was letting my time in Michigan pass without being somewhat productive (in my head, that's making money or completing a huge project). Now, my worst fear is that I'm going to get back from Taiwan and have not done anything except what I've been doing all summer: eating and sleeping. I get back two days before school starts too.
It's ironic that I love working and fundraising and all that stuff that has to do with money, but ultimately, I hate asking people for money for myself even if it's just asking someone to pay borrowed money back. I hate asking people close to me for money, and most of all, my family. It bothers me more than anything that I can't pay for all the necessities I've always taken care of anymore - my JCC membership, gas, some groceries, clothes, trips, my cell phone bill... I know I'm only 16 and it's not that bad that I don't have a job but I can honestly say that not being able to pay my own way or work my own way through the summer is one of the worst feelings I've had in awhile.
It's so messed up - I was afraid I wouldn't find anything to do this summer to fill in for working time but I've found things to do and people to meet up with and I don't have the money to do those things. What a vicious cycle I have become.
Today, Deuce, the fabulous chef he is, and myself made breakfast and dinner just for the heck of it in my kitchen. I have a lot to learn from that boy and am humbled by his knowledge of food and kitchen appliances. Breaded chicken? Bread everything!
Tonight, Dusan, Gabe, Stephanie, Andy, and Jason came over and we played pokerrr :) In one round, Gabe went all in, I called, he had a 6 pair, I had a 7 pair, and then the flop included the other two 6's. Ohhh man, I was devastated! Then another round included Deuce and myself betting huge, ending up with both of our hands as pocket queens, and splitting the pot. My favorite round was when Andy had pocket queens, I had pocket 3's, and I ended up beating him with a full house. Intense intense!
Went canoeing on Friday, and what a good time I had ;) It was a goregous time, wonderful company, a good workout, warm weather, and an unforgetful, memorable day. That's one thing crossed of my summer to do list...
Got my senior pictures done on Monday, and I can't wait to get my proofs back! Unfortunately they come two days after I leave and I won't be able to see them until I get back. But I'll be sure to bring 'em around so you guys can all see them!
Ran into Somie at Target on Tuesday! My asian mob boss seems to be doing well :) Spent some time with Cat last week, spent some time with Enoch while he was back from Chicago, finally spent some time with Jay after training... Still gotta pick up that sushi date with the Coldstone Asian Mafia girls!
You make me complete
You make me completely miserable
Today, Deuce pointed out to me that I'll be gone in less than 10 days. Although I should be excited beyond belief to go to Taiwan for a month by myself, the truth is I am frightened to the bone and almost in angst for what I'll be missing out on and what I could have been a part of: job opportunities, training, school registration, getting my proofs, sending Tim to Ferris, a Brhlik wedding I was personally invited to, getting ahead with college apps, delayed ACT retaking, cans at Bosch (no matter how much I hate them), working on the DVD with Chad, sending Colleen to Grand Valley... *sigh*
My worst fear at the beginning of the summer was letting my time in Michigan pass without being somewhat productive (in my head, that's making money or completing a huge project). Now, my worst fear is that I'm going to get back from Taiwan and have not done anything except what I've been doing all summer: eating and sleeping. I get back two days before school starts too.
It's ironic that I love working and fundraising and all that stuff that has to do with money, but ultimately, I hate asking people for money for myself even if it's just asking someone to pay borrowed money back. I hate asking people close to me for money, and most of all, my family. It bothers me more than anything that I can't pay for all the necessities I've always taken care of anymore - my JCC membership, gas, some groceries, clothes, trips, my cell phone bill... I know I'm only 16 and it's not that bad that I don't have a job but I can honestly say that not being able to pay my own way or work my own way through the summer is one of the worst feelings I've had in awhile.
It's so messed up - I was afraid I wouldn't find anything to do this summer to fill in for working time but I've found things to do and people to meet up with and I don't have the money to do those things. What a vicious cycle I have become.
Today, Deuce, the fabulous chef he is, and myself made breakfast and dinner just for the heck of it in my kitchen. I have a lot to learn from that boy and am humbled by his knowledge of food and kitchen appliances. Breaded chicken? Bread everything!
Tonight, Dusan, Gabe, Stephanie, Andy, and Jason came over and we played pokerrr :) In one round, Gabe went all in, I called, he had a 6 pair, I had a 7 pair, and then the flop included the other two 6's. Ohhh man, I was devastated! Then another round included Deuce and myself betting huge, ending up with both of our hands as pocket queens, and splitting the pot. My favorite round was when Andy had pocket queens, I had pocket 3's, and I ended up beating him with a full house. Intense intense!
Went canoeing on Friday, and what a good time I had ;) It was a goregous time, wonderful company, a good workout, warm weather, and an unforgetful, memorable day. That's one thing crossed of my summer to do list...
Got my senior pictures done on Monday, and I can't wait to get my proofs back! Unfortunately they come two days after I leave and I won't be able to see them until I get back. But I'll be sure to bring 'em around so you guys can all see them!
Ran into Somie at Target on Tuesday! My asian mob boss seems to be doing well :) Spent some time with Cat last week, spent some time with Enoch while he was back from Chicago, finally spent some time with Jay after training... Still gotta pick up that sushi date with the Coldstone Asian Mafia girls!