After a pill and copious amounts of alcohol last night, I thought it would be a great idea to try G. Then again, after a pill and copious amounts of alcohol almost everything feels like a good idea
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I think I get you. No doubt someone will tell you you were an idiot to do it. But I think I can appreciate that feeling. Sometimes you have to take a risk just to stand in that place for a moment. If it goes wrong you're screwed, but if not you're better for it. Even if it doesn't feel great.
I guess it's a little bit of a psychological adrenaline rush. Extending the boundaries of personal endurance. Some people go bungee jumping or base diving. Some people get themselves into life-threatening situations. I guess that either way it's about getting the most out of life and living it to the full.
Though I wouldn't argue with anyone who called me an idiot to do it ^^
when i met you, i thought "wow. there is an interesting boy"
now, i just feel nothing. i don't even feel sorry for you. you are smart enough to make your decisions.
you want to know why i stopped talking to you? read every post you've written about what you've been doing with your life, since. there is your answer.
stupid people don't deserve friends.
you have no excuse.
piggy backing sadness on the back of nathans death is not just in bad taste, but it is abhorrent.
you cried because your body is starting to realise you've ruined your life and it will be left behind for as long as it takes for you to kill yourself. which may very well be a long time.
if there is any part of the old tom left. spend some time with him. he might be able to give you some good advice.
it *also* seems that you STILL find Tom interesting. Otherwise you wouldn't keep reading his LiveJournal. I'm sure he'd say the same thing (albeit far better articulated) had he been online when you posted this.
I'm sorry that you feel the need to project your own drug-related insecurities onto others. I understand you have reason to be distrustful of such things, but wonder whether negative experiences may affect your judgement (although it may well be argued that drugs are affecting mine, haha.) I am sad that Nathan is gone, but that has nothing to do with my drug use. You say that I piggyback sadness to events as though I were taking drugs as a form of escapism. It isn't, it's a form of discovery and self-awareness
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You can 'live life' without being a prostitute who takes drugs. Even if you did want to experience the life of a drug taking prostitute. You've done it now. Move on.
Correction: I cared once. I don't now. I was checking to see if you'd pulled yourself together, of if you were still on some disgusting crusade to destroy yourself. I did a google search for Forget Eden and your live journal came up, because you had mentioned the band in one of your posts. That was the extent of how I stumbled across it. I have more important things to do, than read your daily blabberings.
Drugs kill people. Ask Nathan, oh wait, you can't, because he's DEAD.
And you are just plane selfish, for not respecting him enough to learn from his mistakes.
"The world's largest cork tree yields enough cork at each harvest to seal 100,000 bottles of wine. You are three times more likely to be killed by a flying champagne cork than you are to be killed by the bite of a venomous spider."
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Don't be a stranger. We should chat sometime.
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Sorry, I'm babbling (again??)
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I guess it's a little bit of a psychological adrenaline rush. Extending the boundaries of personal endurance. Some people go bungee jumping or base diving. Some people get themselves into life-threatening situations. I guess that either way it's about getting the most out of life and living it to the full.
Though I wouldn't argue with anyone who called me an idiot to do it ^^
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Only *you* could make one of the few illicit substances on this [not so] green earth I refuse to touch actually sound appealing, almost enticing.
A true writer. LOL
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*hugs*
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when i met you, i thought "wow. there is an interesting boy"
now, i just feel nothing. i don't even feel sorry for you. you are smart enough to make your decisions.
you want to know why i stopped talking to you? read every post you've written about what you've been doing with your life, since. there is your answer.
stupid people don't deserve friends.
you have no excuse.
piggy backing sadness on the back of nathans death is not just in bad taste, but it is abhorrent.
you cried because your body is starting to realise you've ruined your life and it will be left behind for as long as it takes for you to kill yourself. which may very well be a long time.
if there is any part of the old tom left. spend some time with him. he might be able to give you some good advice.
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it *also* seems that you STILL find Tom interesting. Otherwise you wouldn't keep reading his LiveJournal. I'm sure he'd say the same thing (albeit far better articulated) had he been online when you posted this.
You're silly.
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Correction: I cared once. I don't now. I was checking to see if you'd pulled yourself together, of if you were still on some disgusting crusade to destroy yourself. I did a google search for Forget Eden and your live journal came up, because you had mentioned the band in one of your posts. That was the extent of how I stumbled across it. I have more important things to do, than read your daily blabberings.
Drugs kill people. Ask Nathan, oh wait, you can't, because he's DEAD.
And you are just plane selfish, for not respecting him enough to learn from his mistakes.
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"The world's largest cork tree yields enough cork at each harvest to seal 100,000 bottles of wine.
You are three times more likely to be killed by a flying champagne cork than you are to be killed by the bite of a venomous spider."
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