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[muh_is_god]

well i feel like shit. i have not felt this fucking gutted in so long. I tried so hard to be as normal as possible tonight when all i wanted to do was get up and give her a hug and a kiss. I didnt want it to be awkward. I knew it would be but at least i made a fucking effort. I feel like i have just been dismissed, like i dont even matter. Being

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[bcz17]

Did you bollocks want to hug her at all. She tried, and you know she did, and you once again just told to to go away. How dare you treat her with such disrespect when she went with you to talk and tried to do whatever she could

[muh_is_god]

I did want to hug her. I asked her not to touch me because i didnt want to cry and i knew i would if she showed compassion after i finished her. Thats why i didnt get up and hug her at the beginning of the night

[bcz17]

I advise you to start being honest. So fuck if you're going to look stupid, because you look stupid already. Just tell the truth. You also need to tell Leigh the one and true real reason why you left her. But i mean, you're obviously going to need time to think about what that could be, cos if there was a real reason, it should have been given to her at the time. You can't go messing people about

[plenniferr]

You seemed perfectly fine the night you dumped her, so I find it hard to believe that you're hurting right now. Why should we have sympathy for you when you were the one who ended it because... hmm. I've heard a few different reasons... 'I'm sick of her', 'we have nothing in common'.. It took you quite a while to realise that, didn't it?
You know what? I think there's a lot more to you than what you're letting on. I've always been wary, but I know now from the way you treat people you're nothing but a bitch and a liar.
I was shocked at Becky's response actually, because it's probably the first time she's stood up to you.
I'm fucking furious! How dare you make us out to be the shittest friends on the planet? We've been nothing but nice to you.
OH and this is nothing to do with Leigh, before you go bullying her.. It's your problem.

Cut the crap. Come clean, or you're on your own.
Actually, too late..

[muh_is_god]

I did lie. They wernt the reasons that i split up with her. I made them up because i thought they would be easier to explain and because i felt like if i tried to tell people the real reason then i would be laughed at and told to grow up. Its probably what i should do but to me its one hell of a big reason.

I wasnt trying to make you out to be the shittiest friends on the planet. I felt like just about all of you suddenly hated me last night and i was gutted. No one seemed bothered when i left and i felt like shit because of it. It may have seemed like nothing to you at the time but i was drunk and upset and i was actually scared to get goodbye hugs. I know you have been nothing but nice to me. Last night i was confused as to why you wernt being so nice then.

Yeah, you are right. It is my problem. Im not going to blame Leigh. If i had been honest and trusted you all to understand from the start then this wouldnt have happened.

[plenniferr]

Thanks, you just proved everyone and their dog right. You obviously think very little of us if you thought you'd get laughed at and told to 'grow up'.. If you were honest from the start things wouldn't be like this.
I'm glad you felt shit, to be honest. We had good reasons to act the way we did last night and it was exactly what you deserved. I just wish we had've been a little more harsh.

[muh_is_god]

well it would seem ridiculous to everyone. Even i think its ridiculous and its how i feel. even if i wrote it down or thought about how i would explain it, it just felt stupid and i could never find the courage to tell anyone.

[muh_is_god]

I know. I do appreciate the fact that you talked to me and tried to calm me down. I know its my fault and i know that i dont deserve any sympathy. I have been unbelievebly selfish. I can see that now. I want to put this right but all i could do would be to tell the truth and apologise. And it doesnt seem like anyone wants to hear it.

[plenniferr]

Well I'd certainly like the truth. All of it.

[muh_is_god]

then i will tell you. but i would rather tell everyone. all at once. then you can all tell me how ridiculous and pathetic i have been to my face so that everyone knows where they stand. i would rather tell everyone how big and how bad a liar i am to their faces.

[_happylife_]

Emily all you ever do is talk down to people and its not right, For a fact i dont know weather to belive anytihng that comes out of your mouth, you dont really give a shit about any one but yourself, your only really happy when you get what you want.

[g0ffxcore_dyke_]

TBH, I agree with every single last comment people have said on here.
You've been selfish, lied and upset every single last person here and it's not fair. I know I haven't been friends with you lot for all that long but I can see, every single last person in the group is amazing, they've all been there through so much and I really think that you don't deserve them and they certainly don't deserve all this! Everyone is deserved a serious apology and to be told exactly what you've done from the time you started hanging out with them because you've told this one lie and I think we're all are now questioning what you've said ever. People are going to find it so hard to believe anything you ever say again so you're going to have to work hard if you want a chance of any of this lot to talk to you again. You said that 'you'd be worried that we'd laugh at you' etc. and to me, that certainly does show that you just think everyone that was your friend are just pieces of shit basically. Sort it out Emily.

LOL.