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Basically, I'm sitting here staring at her screen name and hoping that a message will pop up saying 'Hey,' 'I miss you,' '--,' or 'guess what I did today?' But night after night, it's nothing. My heart skips whenever she returns from idle, and I can't help but double take whenever I hear anything similar to her sn. It's tough. And I think to myself, 'I bet that if I keep checking her profile, or keep her name eternally highlighted, she'll know that I'm thinking about her.' I can't even call her (I don't have her new number.). And facebook? I'm surprised we're still friends. So, I wait for that little yellow memo to disappear. Gah, it's so pathetic. But honestly? I really feel like I can't take that first step again.