We Don't Need to Whisper (Stargate Atlantis fic)
I.
We’re always racing against the countdown, which someday won’t stop poised at one.
Any day could be our last. Roll the dice and see where you land, and don’t forget that sometimes one step forward is really two back.
Don’t bother with the directions; they never did us much good.
Break the rules if you must (can), but don’t break my heart.
II.
If it’s sink or swim, I’ll need a moment to consider my options.
If it’s fight or flight, I’m not going anywhere, even if I could.
But sometimes, John, you really ought to run.
I don’t want someday to be today.
(i don’t like making the hard decisions but i do it anyway)
We’re all one step away from goodbye.
III.
Rules and secrets and if we’re waiting on hope it’s too late for us all.
If we’re waiting on faith then we’re already damned.
If you’re waiting for love, you should know that some rules I can’t break even for you.
Don’t look at me with trust.
My name on your lips and I turn away.
IV.
(everyone has secrets. we’re no better at hiding them)
Will they believe us when the walls come crashing down?
Will they trust us like they must?
My hand in yours as I roll the dice but you must let me go.
This is my turn, John.
Wait for yours.
V.
The sand is slipping away, and we can’t contain it.
Are we doing the right thing?
Are we being brave or foolish?
(i can only promise not to falter)
Is this where we run or where we fight?
Is this where the game is lost?
You haven’t left me.
You never left me.
“Someday” is the nightmare we have to live with.
Tonight is worth the risk.
Finis
