insomnia. . . i cannot sleep my body is tired but my mind isn't. as i lay in my bed trying unsucessfully to sleep my mind races. i think about my new job which i have to be up at nine am for tomorrow, it scares me i don't want to be stuck at the oakland house alone, what if i have to change diapers, what happens if i can't drive the 15 seater ( Read more... )

I am now officially a working girl once again! The idea of having money to pay off my debts and support myself makes me giddy. I can't remmeber the last time I was able to do that, and Megan has been my sugar mamma for way too long it's time for me to pay her back. Megan you are amazing (but you knew that, or least you should know that ( Read more... )

hair cuts for everyone ( Read more... )

grrr argh. . . . .i want a job even if it's a shitty one. I just need the income.

I am forever going to be unemployed. I will be living on the streets, holding out my coffee cup for change so I can buy my booze. But I don't drink coffee?

I heart arts and crafts!!

Today is a good day! Last night around 11 I decided to go driving it was warm out and I had a huge task for the next day, I needed to think. After that drive I finally felt internal peace for the first time in god I don't how long, long enough for me not to remember. Then I drove to EL this morning for an appt. My appt went well, my meds were ( Read more... )

until now everything was undecided. . . .

Okay kids I wanna tell you a story about a dog named Baker! Baker is an SPCA dog who has been in their system for quite some time now. For those of you who don't know what the SPCA is it's an organization that saves cat's and dog's from being put down by the pound. Baker is a terrier mix, with shaggy black hair, and has these adorable brown ( Read more... )

I have been living in this bubble of naivety for so long ( Read more... )