Life moves on. . .Looking for a job is a pain in my ass and I despise rejection. Although I have learned to accept it. Megan Turpel has decided that she will kidnap me and take me to New York with her for break. . . .It shall be fun, and I cannot wait!!! I do love a good roadtrip, and with Megan they are the best ( Read more... )

Things are going well. . . .teaching my sister to drive. Quite the difficult job, but I am having fun. My birthday is soon and I will officially be a senior citizen. . . 22. God I am OLD.

Valentines is such a horrid holiday. I mean yeah I don't have a boyfriend but still whether I had one or not the whole idea behind it is ridiculous, and I don't really understand it. It is the one holiday that can truly make a person feel lonely. Although I am not lonely I am sitting here surrounded by three lovely cats, Leo, Kai, and Punk. Cat ( Read more... )

I want to scream very loud at the top of a very tall building. I wanna scream for about fifteen minutes. I have this feeling, this annoying mood, these unstopable thoughts. They just sit and fester. People tell me it will get better, you need to keep busy to stop these thoughts and these moods. God if only that worked. I have been hanging out ( Read more... )

I want to scream very loud at the top of a very tall building. I wanna scream for about fifteen minutes. I have this feeling, this annoying mood, these unstopable thoughts. They just sit and fester. People tell me it will get better, you need to keep busy to stop these thoughts and these moods. God if only that worked. I have been hanging out ( Read more... )

Everything sucks. Ten minutes back on campus and I already felt horrible even though I knew that in an hour I would be going home, I was just packing up my stuff. I wish I knew why being on campus in my dorm makes me feel so dark and horrid. The feelings are so bad that words don't even correctly express what I am feeling. So I pack up very ( Read more... )

Everything at home is normal. . . I am doing okay. I am coming up to East Lansing for a few hours today, psych appointments. I was hoping to stay for the weekend and see all my friends but my grandpa died yesterday and I have funeral stuff to go to.

I love my friends so much and you all have no idea how much your support means to me.

So I have made the decision and I have had the talks except with my father which will be the hardest ( Read more... )

*sigh. . . .I need to make a decision and I can't bring myself to make it. This is huge. . .I could lose a lot. . .I will have to confess and be completely open. . .I don't know if I can. Then I worry if I will make the right decision. The wrong decision could ruin me completely ( Read more... )