give
40 questions about 2005.
1) Was 2005 a good year for you?
above average
2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
probably during the summer, maybe with inga at the river some time?
no moment really stands out, there have been so many good times
3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?
in september when i felt so out of control
4) Where were you when 2005 began?
in a gay bar in downtown davenport watching my girlfriend dance
5) Who were you with?
christina, bryce, sarah smith, and the random davenport gay people
6) Where will you be when 2005 ends?
roughly the same; davenport with inga, but hopefully minus me feeling weird standing in a bar because i can't dance
7) Who will you be with when 2005 ends?
christina kelly
8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2005?
i don't think i had one
9) Do you have a new years resolution for 2006?
become ambidextrious, acquire a more extensive vocabulary, lose 5 pounds (just 5!), have claire (or someone equally mind blowing on the dance floor) teach me like the bare minimum moves
10) Did you fall in love in 2005?
i guess in a sense...i kept falling in love with the same person because we both grew and are different people this year than the last year
11) If yes, with who?
you know...my lover
12) If yes, do they know?
i certainly hope so
13) Are you still with them?
with but not physically, currently with
14) You regret it?
oh no no
15) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005?
probably a couple times...haha, let's not do that in 2006 sugar lips
16) Did you make any new friends in 2005?
i rediscovered my connection with myself as the only one i can truly count on
and i became closer to lauren #2 (i mean you don't have to agree, it just feels that way to me)
and toward the end of the year it felt like i had my Christina back because we have been really goofy these last couple months
17) Who are your favorite new friends?
george, elaine, jerry, kramer
18) What was your favorite month of 2005?
oh gosh...i don't know...maybe march?
19) Did you travel outside of the US in 2005?
not exactly...no.
20) How many different states have you traveled in 2005?
illinois, missouri...wow that's lame
21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005?
my grandpa left me
and i cut emotional ties to a few people as an act of self preservation
and the fool i am, i miss most of you...but you have significant others, hipsterier friends, booze, more diverse friends...people who listen to obscure bands and say cute things
i just wanted you to be happy, so if you are, i'll adjust
22) Did you miss anybody in the past year?
lost friends, grandpa, grandma, mr PIG when i was at school, inga when we were apart, my family, etc..
23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2005?
maybe Love Actually
24) What was your favorite song from 2005?
Stolen Away On 55th & 3rd by dave matthews band or amen omen by ben harper
25) What was your favorite record from 2005?
according to iTunes, rent original broadway soundtrack
26) How many concerts did you see in 2005?
ani difranco, guster, motion city, spill canvas
27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005?
are you kidding me with this?
ani fucking d
28) Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2005?
no way jose
29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2005?
personal max; i smoked weed for the first time this year and then one more time just to make sure a couple weeks after
30) How many people did you sleep with in 2005?
1
31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
oh sure
33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005?
any lie that was told to me hurts, but especially when it came from someone very very close
34) Did you treat anyone badly in 2005?
yes
35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2005?
i guess
36) How much money did you spend in 2005?
i don't want to know, my iBook alone is worth $1600
37) What was your proudest moment of 2005?
getting into nursing school, being at my grandpa's funeral
38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005?
oh god, i'm still pretty embarrassed all the time
39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005?
time when my grandpa was alive
40) What are your plans for 2006?
to be better at live
the L word makes me bitter
i don't like sharing
I'm so stupid
I miss inga
another thing that makes me bitter is that her brother has been dating this girl for 4 months and she's already so integrated into their family
and inga and i have been together for a year and almost a half and i'm still taboo
and that he said to her "it seems like i never see you without lauren" when...she never sees him without her
blahhhh
i'm bitter, yes
she has been welcomed into a family i presumed to be unwelcoming to all
and christina is still a part of that family
life is tricky i think
can i be hot like bette?
can i have nice abs?
can i be tan without cancer?
i need to get better grades next semester, if i think about how i did this semester for more than a split second it hurts my chest and i can't breathe
:(
oh god
i miss one little detail....sweet jesus but i decided to keep this one public
because i'm desperate
and i am foolish
and i think the people who have left me miss me sometimes and read this
and want back, and will be better
what's going on?
marvin?
gaye?
NOT ME!
orrrrr
sleepy time
tomorrow i work old navy 8:45 to 3:30 then arc 4-10
busy day, busy girl...ha.
Lolita