Comments | mulesaregood: i also just posted this on my iam page, but whatever

mulesaregood

i also just posted this on my iam page, but whatever

Aug 20, 2005 15:36

"Imagine if you suddenly learned that the people, the places, the moments most important to you were not gone, not dead, but worse, had never been. What kind of hell would that be ( Read more... )

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butterymufkin August 20 2005, 22:29:30 UTC

I ♥ you Scooter.

You have to tell your psychiatrist, Scott. You can't let this get worse, because you don't know if it's going to increase gradually, or just come and smack you in the face at full force.
You need to do what's best for you, and that's keep yourself well. And you can't do that by keeping things from someone who can help you.

mulesaregood August 21 2005, 04:38:18 UTC

i really just dont want to worry people with this, and i know if my mom finds out about it she'll have a nervous breakdown...and if i tell my pyschiatrist he'll just give me more meds which will make it so i dont have any ambition to do anything as oppossed to now when i have a slight amount, and the reason thats so bad is because of these meds

butterymufkin August 21 2005, 04:52:28 UTC

You have to put yourself first on this one. I know what it's like to have a mom that freaks out over every mental problem when it gets worse (not trying to compare to you, just... yeah, you get it)... but eventually I had to say fuck it or I would have been dead, no doubt. (again, not comparing!)

What I *DO* understand is your med situation. Even if I didn't have agoraphobia, the fucking meds I'm on for bipolar leave me just sitting here staring blankly pretty much. So whenever it worsens, the last thing I want is to have them increased.

But you really have to do what has to be done... I understand WHY you don't want to... but you have to weight the good, the bad, and the ugly, and I know you don't want it to get ugly.

I can't begin to imagine what you're feeling right now. It must be scary as hell. ♥

kavita_e August 21 2005, 05:47:28 UTC

reading this made me think of something... i'll talk to you on iam...

mulesaregood August 21 2005, 18:01:16 UTC

Rikki- its hard, i dont know, it seems like everyone but me thinks i should talk to my psychiatrist about it, i was hoping at least one person would agree with me, but at least you know what im talking about about not wanting meds increased

Lacey- done and done...and i mean done

kavita_e August 21 2005, 19:55:21 UTC

done eh?

mulesaregood August 22 2005, 18:11:07 UTC

yes, d-o-n-e...done!