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mulletiesville

Profoundly normal. Profoundly ordinary.

Jun 27, 2008 02:28

I should learn to (go to) sleep.

I didn't want to write, and I don't want to write but I'm going to because the urge to write something has been brooding inside me ( Read more... )

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shoresoftripoli June 27 2008, 17:10:31 UTC

This reminds me a lot of the thought process I went through before I joined the military, and your thoughts on your future and wanting to be able to provoide for your (future) family sound exactly like the rationale I've been using lately for not going AWOL. There isn't a day that goes by where I don't wonder what my friends at home are doing while I'm up here doing this...thing. I can definitely relate to being kept up at night thinking about all the "what-ifs" and wondering what you'll be missing out on when you're gone.

It sounds to me like your head and heart are in the right place relative to your own values, and in my eyes that's what's most important.

pratelikesoatml June 27 2008, 17:51:46 UTC

It'll work out and it will be for the best. Like you started out with, the occasional fights lately...thats not what you need. You don't need to get yourself in any more trouble or any trouble at all. Especially with the life you want to lead. We are all excited to see you. Hurry!

hey xcagefighterx June 28 2008, 04:10:31 UTC

Doc Holliday: What do you want Wyatt?

Wyatt Earp: Just to live a normal life.

Doc Holliday: There is no normal life, Wyatt, there's just life, ya live it.

Wyatt Earp: I don't know how.

Doc Holliday: Sure ya do, say goodbye to me, go grab that spirited actress and make her your own. Take that spirit from her and don't look back. Live every second, live right on through to the end. Live Wyatt, live for me. Wyatt, if you were ever my friend... if ya ever had even the slightest of feelin' for me, leave now, leave now... please.

Wyatt Earp: Thanks for always being there, Doc.

twystedpixie June 30 2008, 17:34:01 UTC

I was pointed in this direction by Myra, naturally. I can understand the apprehension here. I sometimes think that's the hardest challenge of being intelligent and an idealist--any avenue that even remotely hints at a "normal", usual life makes you die a little inside, to think you'll just become another cog in the machine. Heh, it's why I'm forever a rolling stone; I'm always worried if I settle in one place long enough, I'll get stuck. I want to do huge things, help the world in some big way, make a resounding, reverberating impact with my words. But I've been quietly thinking lately that maybe I've been going about this all wrong. Maybe endless chaos isn't the answer, but perhaps I need a bit of stability first, to gain a jumping-off point to make my change upon the world. It's awfully hard to jump and spread your wings when you're constantly in the act of falling and spinning around. And I'm realizing that my interesting, will-o'-th'-wisp, nomadic life has ever been that: A series of random acts of falling. So perhaps it's time to ( ... )