REPOSTING: I'm home
I'm home
Title: I'm home
Author: mumuja
Pairing: OnKey
Genre: Angst, Romance
Rating: pg-13
Summary: Death is just a path.
Disclaimer: Only own plot.
Warning: uhhh... very sad.
A/N: OMG! i wasn't even planning to write a drabble!! HECK! i wasn't even planning on updating something soon, but i just read this gorgeous fic, and i was somehow inspired by it. I fell in love with the song right away, and the loneliness that melody portrays it's just...breathtaking. PPL DON'T HATE ME OKAY! hate my muse : l i know this drabble pretty much sucks, cause it was written in two hours LOL xD but i couldn't help myself.. inspiration comes in the weirdest ways. Still haven't replied to all the comments i own, but i will! i just been really busy this days!! : l *sighs* but i will really appreciate it if you comment?? even if it's just to brick me!! >< be gentle okay?? first angst i've written after soo much fluff! xDD The song is called No cars go by Maxence Cyrin &hearts.
Do you believe in fairytales?
I walked slowly into the wild; branches scratching my bare arms while leaving soft scars on the way. My fingers touched the almost forgotten memories, sliding effortlessly through the thick bushes. All those times we used to run through this forest, a childhood hobby that neither of us seemed to dislike even through the pass of time, seemed so far away...forgotten.
The image of your smile fills my soul, tugging my insides softly as I touch the rotting bark of the fallen trees with my cold fingertips, pushing myself deeper into the woods. Three years seems like an eternity, and three years of coping is just a lifetime of loneliness. Cancer creeps under your skin, surprising you at the moment you least expect it to, and you can’t help but hate it when it takes your beloved one away.
Sighing into the air, I stared at the rays of sunlight piercing through the massive dark green blur, and your face appears before me, mocking my false reality.
“I miss you baby…” I swear I heard a soft echoed laughter, and somehow I knew you were here, standing right beside me while holding my hand. Courage surrounds me, and the golden ring glistening on my left hand started weighting on me, strengthening me while I followed the muddied path to you. Do you remember Jinki? When we walked through this muddied path not long ago? I do. Your playful grin never seemed to waver, even when I had refused stubbornly to walk into the woods so late at night.
Don’t you trust me?
Even though your body had suffered severe chemotherapy in those four months, your beauty never stopped taking my breath away… not even on the day your heart stopped beating for me. The small question through me off for a while, but as second nature, my hand found its way to yours, just like my heart had many years ago. Childhood friends, teenage lovers; it didn’t matter at what time we were in our lives, I never doubted to trust you. My eyes scanned the darkened shapes with wariness that night, but I trusted myself completely onto you, letting you tug me weakly towards our place.
I trust you.
You turned around then, smiling softly as your eyes disappeared into that small line that seemed to hide your emotions all the time. Your hand suddenly pulled mine up, and just like the day I fell in love with you, a kiss was placed ever so softly on my pulse, making my lips gasp and my heart smile.
My legs started running suddenly, feet leaving soft hushes in the wind as I let the forgotten path take me to our lake… to our promise. Memories seemed more vivid now, more fresh, and the small pulse point on my wrist started throbbing with the burning kiss laid upon it years ago. So many times I walked down this path…most of the time with you, and I could feel the painful memories of the times I ran through this road, crying out your name and screaming for you to come back, flipping my heart.
I could smell the sweet water in the air; I could smell you in the air, as I’ve been smelling your vanilla scent for as long as I remember. Rays of sunlight were long gone now, leaving a chilling loneliness behind that was carried soulfully by the wind. I wonder what kind of magical moments we would be living if you were still alive right now; happily living our married life to the fullest I guess.
“I’m here Jinki…I’m home…”
The lake was just as beautiful as I remembered it; sparkles and fireflies dancing everywhere under the young moon. I took a deep breath, warming my insides with your scent mingled with the sweetness of lilacs. My dark hair tangled itself in the air, just as my coat flapped against my skin, letting the cold in.
I’m scared… I feel like something is watching us..
I laughed out loud, my eyes brimming with tears as I clearly recall the way your eyes had rolled in amusement at my whining. You wrapped your arms around me though, placing soft kissed against my hair like chasing my fears away.
You have nothing to be afraid of… the moon is the only one gazing down on us.
I wrapped my arms around me, wanting to feel your warmth one last time. I miss the feeling of security, the feeling of belonging; cause there wasn’t and never will be a place as comforting as your arms. My feet started moving, dazedly taking me towards the crystal like water glistening with silver freckles. The rocks underneath my boots rumbled one against the other, rolling with my sluggish steps.
Key… I want you forever and more… I want a lifetime with you.
Would you be willing to spend your lifetime with me?
I bit my lip, sobbing as the best moment of my life replayed itself in my mind, lulling me to remember the over boarding happiness experienced that day. The way those words slipped effortlessly from your lips, taking my breath away as a small golden ring found its way to my eyes. The way you twirled me around in the air that night still makes me feel love drunk, and the kisses you mouthed on my lips still linger on my chapped skin. I promised to be yours for forever that night, until the day your heart stopped beating…and even though we were never able to fulfill that promise, in my heart, I’m still yours. Cancer took you away before I could walk down the aisle into your arms, into your love, and after all this years, I still hate how easily a disease was able to take you physically away from me.
Finally I was at the edge of the lake, dark waters daring me to submerge myself in them. Once again, your face appeared before me; a mere reflection in the liquid substance I was itching to dive my body into. I fell down then, wanting the reflection of your essence to surround me, to drown me. Coldness sank deep under my skin, turning my pale complexion to a translucent point. I was numbed out, enveloped by you, and as the soft waves took me to the center of the lake, I couldn’t fight my way back to the shore…to safeness.
“The moon is beautiful tonight Jinki…”
You were my moon child, enjoying with hidden magic the night. There was something about the way the moon seemed to mystically bath everything with its light that brought joy to Jinki. Our dates had been always reserved to the night, specifically to this particular place. This lake, that seemed to be taken out from a fairytale, was our secret universe, just meant for us to appreciate. At day, it seemed just like a natural lake, nothing special lurking under the water, but at night…everything sprung to life. Every firefly, every fallen leaf, every blow of the wind seemed to have a history, a secret, and I was gonna be grateful for the rest of my life for being able to hear all of those stories with Jinki by my side.
In seconds, I was floating in the middle of the deserted lake, staring absentmindedly the huge full moon above me. Soft tears still cascaded down my eyes, and the rush of memories kept blinding my mind, all memories of him. All this years I’ve been living an empty life… a life that was meant to be lived with my reason to breath, but now the idea of living seemed pointless. I’ve planned this day with joy, eager to meet you once again.
“I’m coming back to you.”
Afterlife was something I’ve never believed in, but as I let all the oxygen out of my lungs, allowing my body to sink into the frozen waters, I started thinking that there had to be an afterlife. There had to be something more than this, cause all my paths lead to you, and I’m sure this one was gonna surely reunite me with you.
The reflection of the moon underwater was the most beautiful one, slightly blurred out and shapeless. Light shone weakly on my face, bathing me one last time. I could feel the pressure pulling me down into the darkness, towards you. The feeling of arms around me jolted my senses, and I could only gasp as a soft cheek pressed itself against mine from behind. Ever so softly, a kiss was placed on my soaked cheek, and the strong scent of vanilla filled my blocked nostrils. I knew my eyes were still pouring tears, and I gently placed my hands on top of the ghostly ones embracing me.
Do you believe in fairytales Key?
I smiled, my eyes unfocusing and gazing dizzily at blackened spots on the water. Fairytales were always such fascinating stories to Jinki, making me frown as the imaginary reality was deeply forged into his heart. He always thought there was magic in the world, hidden from the non believers, and he never failed to ask me if I believed in the sweet happily ever after. He never stopped believing in them, not even when I expressed my negativeness towards them over and over again…
The moment his eyes sparkled while laying on that hospital bed, I knew fairytales were real. I knew there had to be a happy ending, that someday I was gonna find my way to you, and as I held your hand while listening to your last breath, I promised myself I was gonna believe until the end.
I do Jinki…I do.
Unconsciousness started slipping through every pore, and I could only smile weakly at the soft chuckle that was murmured over my ear. I gripped the hands around my waist tightly, feeling the foreign engagement ring under my fingertips while bubbles dripped from my lips, and for a minute I was afraid…afraid of living an eternity without you, but I started seeing a light; small at first, but blinding in seconds. Vanilla and lilacs imprinted their scent around me, and I let my last breath out, all my fear slipping away with the kiss that grazed my cheek at last.
This path leads to you… death leads to you.
I’m home Jinki…after all this time…I’m home.
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->Originally posted on ignyte_passion !!
->Original entry here
Title: I'm home
Author: mumuja
Pairing: OnKey
Genre: Angst, Romance
Rating: pg-13
Summary: Death is just a path.
Disclaimer: Only own plot.
Warning: uhhh... very sad.
A/N: OMG! i wasn't even planning to write a drabble!! HECK! i wasn't even planning on updating something soon, but i just read this gorgeous fic, and i was somehow inspired by it. I fell in love with the song right away, and the loneliness that melody portrays it's just...breathtaking. PPL DON'T HATE ME OKAY! hate my muse : l i know this drabble pretty much sucks, cause it was written in two hours LOL xD but i couldn't help myself.. inspiration comes in the weirdest ways. Still haven't replied to all the comments i own, but i will! i just been really busy this days!! : l *sighs* but i will really appreciate it if you comment?? even if it's just to brick me!! >< be gentle okay?? first angst i've written after soo much fluff! xDD The song is called No cars go by Maxence Cyrin &hearts.
Do you believe in fairytales?
I walked slowly into the wild; branches scratching my bare arms while leaving soft scars on the way. My fingers touched the almost forgotten memories, sliding effortlessly through the thick bushes. All those times we used to run through this forest, a childhood hobby that neither of us seemed to dislike even through the pass of time, seemed so far away...forgotten.
The image of your smile fills my soul, tugging my insides softly as I touch the rotting bark of the fallen trees with my cold fingertips, pushing myself deeper into the woods. Three years seems like an eternity, and three years of coping is just a lifetime of loneliness. Cancer creeps under your skin, surprising you at the moment you least expect it to, and you can’t help but hate it when it takes your beloved one away.
Sighing into the air, I stared at the rays of sunlight piercing through the massive dark green blur, and your face appears before me, mocking my false reality.
“I miss you baby…” I swear I heard a soft echoed laughter, and somehow I knew you were here, standing right beside me while holding my hand. Courage surrounds me, and the golden ring glistening on my left hand started weighting on me, strengthening me while I followed the muddied path to you. Do you remember Jinki? When we walked through this muddied path not long ago? I do. Your playful grin never seemed to waver, even when I had refused stubbornly to walk into the woods so late at night.
Don’t you trust me?
Even though your body had suffered severe chemotherapy in those four months, your beauty never stopped taking my breath away… not even on the day your heart stopped beating for me. The small question through me off for a while, but as second nature, my hand found its way to yours, just like my heart had many years ago. Childhood friends, teenage lovers; it didn’t matter at what time we were in our lives, I never doubted to trust you. My eyes scanned the darkened shapes with wariness that night, but I trusted myself completely onto you, letting you tug me weakly towards our place.
I trust you.
You turned around then, smiling softly as your eyes disappeared into that small line that seemed to hide your emotions all the time. Your hand suddenly pulled mine up, and just like the day I fell in love with you, a kiss was placed ever so softly on my pulse, making my lips gasp and my heart smile.
My legs started running suddenly, feet leaving soft hushes in the wind as I let the forgotten path take me to our lake… to our promise. Memories seemed more vivid now, more fresh, and the small pulse point on my wrist started throbbing with the burning kiss laid upon it years ago. So many times I walked down this path…most of the time with you, and I could feel the painful memories of the times I ran through this road, crying out your name and screaming for you to come back, flipping my heart.
I could smell the sweet water in the air; I could smell you in the air, as I’ve been smelling your vanilla scent for as long as I remember. Rays of sunlight were long gone now, leaving a chilling loneliness behind that was carried soulfully by the wind. I wonder what kind of magical moments we would be living if you were still alive right now; happily living our married life to the fullest I guess.
“I’m here Jinki…I’m home…”
The lake was just as beautiful as I remembered it; sparkles and fireflies dancing everywhere under the young moon. I took a deep breath, warming my insides with your scent mingled with the sweetness of lilacs. My dark hair tangled itself in the air, just as my coat flapped against my skin, letting the cold in.
I’m scared… I feel like something is watching us..
I laughed out loud, my eyes brimming with tears as I clearly recall the way your eyes had rolled in amusement at my whining. You wrapped your arms around me though, placing soft kissed against my hair like chasing my fears away.
You have nothing to be afraid of… the moon is the only one gazing down on us.
I wrapped my arms around me, wanting to feel your warmth one last time. I miss the feeling of security, the feeling of belonging; cause there wasn’t and never will be a place as comforting as your arms. My feet started moving, dazedly taking me towards the crystal like water glistening with silver freckles. The rocks underneath my boots rumbled one against the other, rolling with my sluggish steps.
Key… I want you forever and more… I want a lifetime with you.
Would you be willing to spend your lifetime with me?
I bit my lip, sobbing as the best moment of my life replayed itself in my mind, lulling me to remember the over boarding happiness experienced that day. The way those words slipped effortlessly from your lips, taking my breath away as a small golden ring found its way to my eyes. The way you twirled me around in the air that night still makes me feel love drunk, and the kisses you mouthed on my lips still linger on my chapped skin. I promised to be yours for forever that night, until the day your heart stopped beating…and even though we were never able to fulfill that promise, in my heart, I’m still yours. Cancer took you away before I could walk down the aisle into your arms, into your love, and after all this years, I still hate how easily a disease was able to take you physically away from me.
Finally I was at the edge of the lake, dark waters daring me to submerge myself in them. Once again, your face appeared before me; a mere reflection in the liquid substance I was itching to dive my body into. I fell down then, wanting the reflection of your essence to surround me, to drown me. Coldness sank deep under my skin, turning my pale complexion to a translucent point. I was numbed out, enveloped by you, and as the soft waves took me to the center of the lake, I couldn’t fight my way back to the shore…to safeness.
“The moon is beautiful tonight Jinki…”
You were my moon child, enjoying with hidden magic the night. There was something about the way the moon seemed to mystically bath everything with its light that brought joy to Jinki. Our dates had been always reserved to the night, specifically to this particular place. This lake, that seemed to be taken out from a fairytale, was our secret universe, just meant for us to appreciate. At day, it seemed just like a natural lake, nothing special lurking under the water, but at night…everything sprung to life. Every firefly, every fallen leaf, every blow of the wind seemed to have a history, a secret, and I was gonna be grateful for the rest of my life for being able to hear all of those stories with Jinki by my side.
In seconds, I was floating in the middle of the deserted lake, staring absentmindedly the huge full moon above me. Soft tears still cascaded down my eyes, and the rush of memories kept blinding my mind, all memories of him. All this years I’ve been living an empty life… a life that was meant to be lived with my reason to breath, but now the idea of living seemed pointless. I’ve planned this day with joy, eager to meet you once again.
“I’m coming back to you.”
Afterlife was something I’ve never believed in, but as I let all the oxygen out of my lungs, allowing my body to sink into the frozen waters, I started thinking that there had to be an afterlife. There had to be something more than this, cause all my paths lead to you, and I’m sure this one was gonna surely reunite me with you.
The reflection of the moon underwater was the most beautiful one, slightly blurred out and shapeless. Light shone weakly on my face, bathing me one last time. I could feel the pressure pulling me down into the darkness, towards you. The feeling of arms around me jolted my senses, and I could only gasp as a soft cheek pressed itself against mine from behind. Ever so softly, a kiss was placed on my soaked cheek, and the strong scent of vanilla filled my blocked nostrils. I knew my eyes were still pouring tears, and I gently placed my hands on top of the ghostly ones embracing me.
Do you believe in fairytales Key?
I smiled, my eyes unfocusing and gazing dizzily at blackened spots on the water. Fairytales were always such fascinating stories to Jinki, making me frown as the imaginary reality was deeply forged into his heart. He always thought there was magic in the world, hidden from the non believers, and he never failed to ask me if I believed in the sweet happily ever after. He never stopped believing in them, not even when I expressed my negativeness towards them over and over again…
The moment his eyes sparkled while laying on that hospital bed, I knew fairytales were real. I knew there had to be a happy ending, that someday I was gonna find my way to you, and as I held your hand while listening to your last breath, I promised myself I was gonna believe until the end.
I do Jinki…I do.
Unconsciousness started slipping through every pore, and I could only smile weakly at the soft chuckle that was murmured over my ear. I gripped the hands around my waist tightly, feeling the foreign engagement ring under my fingertips while bubbles dripped from my lips, and for a minute I was afraid…afraid of living an eternity without you, but I started seeing a light; small at first, but blinding in seconds. Vanilla and lilacs imprinted their scent around me, and I let my last breath out, all my fear slipping away with the kiss that grazed my cheek at last.
This path leads to you… death leads to you.
I’m home Jinki…after all this time…I’m home.
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->Originally posted on ignyte_passion !!
->Original entry here