soo, i'm back...
i hate my fucking sisters. both of them. sheit.
so the weekend with geoffrey and his family was stupendous. i absolutely love every single one of them and enjoyed their company very much. i think it's just geoff's mommy that makes me a tad bit nervous, but otherwise i feel extremely comfortable around them.
we left my house at about 8 in the morning on saturday and drove down about 5 and a half hours to canyon lake, which is near the riverside vicinity. that place is soo fucking marvelous it's crazy. damn all them rich folk. it would be absolutely fabulous to be able to live that way. i met his grandma and there was family gathering talk type of deal. geoff got bored so we went out on a walk so i could go sight seeing and we ended up in some really gay exercise park, which i still don't comprehend as to why that should even be considered a park. who knows. it's them rich folk i tell ya. dude, everyone had huge lifted trucks and shit down there. there were even massive amounts of lifted suped up golf carts. funny shit. anyways we walked back to his grandmammy's house and went to his uncle daniel's to meet up with the rest of the family there. i love how both houses were laid out. i'm in love with his uncle daniel's house, but i love his grandmammy's backyard. we had dinner at his uncle daniel's and i got to sit eloquently in the big people's table and i even got some wine to wash down my dinner. i don't like wine though, so i gave his grandpappy my glass. dinner was delicious and dessert was great. everyone started talking about past events and it was interesting listening to all the stories. geoffrey's grandpappy slightly bald paul is so silly. he's one cool dude. i met geoff's cousins anna and nicholas and they are soo cute. i love anna, she's such a great intellectual and very pretty gal. i spent most of my time talking and playing with her. nick got annoying very quickly, but seeing that i was new to the situation, i didn't mind it much. saturday was laid back and just time for everyone to gather and speak amongst themselves. it was nice meeting everybody.
sunday, geoff, his daddy, his three uncles, nicholas, and i went out to canyon lake and went on the boat at like 6 in the morning. everyone took a turn at water skiiing and geoff, nick, and i just watched on the boat. i would have loved to watch geoff wake board, but there wasn't one available and nick wanted to knee board, but there was lack of that also. i myself just can't do shit so that was my excuse. after everyone got turns at water skiing, which was interesting to watch adults do, his uncle daniel took us on a tour of the houses on the lake. boy, was i fucking jealous at all them rich bastards. i saw sooo many beautiful houses like 3-5 stories high. ahh, how lovely it must be to live so extravagantly. after the boat ride, we had breakfast at his grandma's and everyone got ready for his grandma's bday/memorial day party to be filled with many senior citizens. geoff and i just sat around all day entertaining nick and anna and finding things to occupy ourselves. the party was funny. it was amusing watching the elderly prance about the place and even more fun getting anna to do things like ask old ladies if they knew any dinosaurs or if they'd rode one before. she's so cute.
later in the shindig i had a sudden change of moods and for some reason became very angry at something so little and pathetic and began to cry. i made geoff upset because i didn't want to seem retarded for crying over nothing, but it was better that he knew i guess since i know it would have killed him to know that something i wasn't telling him was bothering me. i told him, i cried, we had a talk at the park, and we worked things out i think. after that talk, i just learned to really appreciate him more because he seriously puts up with so much of my shit. i don't know know why he stays sometimes. i guess i was upset because i was soo used to something that little things can bother me so much that i totally blow it out of proportion. i'm just sick and tired of people telling me things and not doing it because that's just the way it's been my whole life. i trust people too easily and always find myself hurt in the end. i'm learning to deal with that aspect of my life though. when we returned to the house, geoff's little sister thought i we went to get high since my eyes were red, but i told her what happened so that she didn't say anything of that sort to the parentals.
i had to sleep at geoff's grandmammy shirley's while he sept at his uncle daniel's. old peoples are so funny. they are so cute and just amusing. some scottish lad fell back on his chair and by golly he could have broken a hip. another old lady had gingantic glasses on and kept falling asleep on the table. it was silly. that's when geoff and his little sisters tricked anna into doing schemes for them. after that i wacthed the kiddo's play tag. i got up monday morning at 7 i think and we all headed out to his uncle daniel's to pick geoff up and say goodbye to everyone. it sucked leaving anna because i became so attached to her. i want my daughter to be a lot like her.
the drive home wasn't as boring as the drive up there. mostly because geoff stayed awake longer and we had fun doing stupid things. i ate soo much within those three days. i am bulky now. oh but it was all worth it for it was damn delicious food.
now i am back to turlock after the nice weekend at canyon lake and it suck fatty ass ballsacks. it's so hot here compared to down south, which i still cannot fathom why. i totally loved his family, every single one of them and i felt welcomed. i'm glad i came with him and i got to experience many new things. that place is so beautiful, i'd like to go back sometime and learn to wakeboard or something pertaining to water since i am not one with the water.
returning to turlock is not at all something i was looking forward to since i have two really inconsiderate bitches living at home with me. kristie and carolyn are always so rude and quite frankly scare the shit out of me. that's why i don't like to speak in my family. i like to keep to myself and because of that i always get accused of doing drugs, which i honestly don't do. it was nice returning to the couch and mike's house, but i hate the weather here compared to socal. school doesn't help either.
i don't know why lately my head has been drifting back to the past. it's like i'm on a constant restraint to forget something, but it returns to me at night and i dream about it. i scared geoff last night by having a lucid dream about this someone. it's like i'm not supposed to forget or something. i don't know why he keeps reoccuring in my mind. i know for sure that i don't have feelings for anyone but geoff, so i'm not sure why this is happening. it may just be that the upcoming summer is a reminder of all the times we had last year and boy were most of those times great. hmm....what am i to do.
geoffrey got another tattoo today. i wish my scanner worked so i can scan all the pictures i got newly developed. phooie. i wonder if brando will allow me to keep his drumset at my house. highly doubtful, but it's a try since fucking chris's set isn't going to be at my house anytime soon.
so much homework, so little time. a bientot.
so the weekend with geoffrey and his family was stupendous. i absolutely love every single one of them and enjoyed their company very much. i think it's just geoff's mommy that makes me a tad bit nervous, but otherwise i feel extremely comfortable around them.
we left my house at about 8 in the morning on saturday and drove down about 5 and a half hours to canyon lake, which is near the riverside vicinity. that place is soo fucking marvelous it's crazy. damn all them rich folk. it would be absolutely fabulous to be able to live that way. i met his grandma and there was family gathering talk type of deal. geoff got bored so we went out on a walk so i could go sight seeing and we ended up in some really gay exercise park, which i still don't comprehend as to why that should even be considered a park. who knows. it's them rich folk i tell ya. dude, everyone had huge lifted trucks and shit down there. there were even massive amounts of lifted suped up golf carts. funny shit. anyways we walked back to his grandmammy's house and went to his uncle daniel's to meet up with the rest of the family there. i love how both houses were laid out. i'm in love with his uncle daniel's house, but i love his grandmammy's backyard. we had dinner at his uncle daniel's and i got to sit eloquently in the big people's table and i even got some wine to wash down my dinner. i don't like wine though, so i gave his grandpappy my glass. dinner was delicious and dessert was great. everyone started talking about past events and it was interesting listening to all the stories. geoffrey's grandpappy slightly bald paul is so silly. he's one cool dude. i met geoff's cousins anna and nicholas and they are soo cute. i love anna, she's such a great intellectual and very pretty gal. i spent most of my time talking and playing with her. nick got annoying very quickly, but seeing that i was new to the situation, i didn't mind it much. saturday was laid back and just time for everyone to gather and speak amongst themselves. it was nice meeting everybody.
sunday, geoff, his daddy, his three uncles, nicholas, and i went out to canyon lake and went on the boat at like 6 in the morning. everyone took a turn at water skiiing and geoff, nick, and i just watched on the boat. i would have loved to watch geoff wake board, but there wasn't one available and nick wanted to knee board, but there was lack of that also. i myself just can't do shit so that was my excuse. after everyone got turns at water skiing, which was interesting to watch adults do, his uncle daniel took us on a tour of the houses on the lake. boy, was i fucking jealous at all them rich bastards. i saw sooo many beautiful houses like 3-5 stories high. ahh, how lovely it must be to live so extravagantly. after the boat ride, we had breakfast at his grandma's and everyone got ready for his grandma's bday/memorial day party to be filled with many senior citizens. geoff and i just sat around all day entertaining nick and anna and finding things to occupy ourselves. the party was funny. it was amusing watching the elderly prance about the place and even more fun getting anna to do things like ask old ladies if they knew any dinosaurs or if they'd rode one before. she's so cute.
later in the shindig i had a sudden change of moods and for some reason became very angry at something so little and pathetic and began to cry. i made geoff upset because i didn't want to seem retarded for crying over nothing, but it was better that he knew i guess since i know it would have killed him to know that something i wasn't telling him was bothering me. i told him, i cried, we had a talk at the park, and we worked things out i think. after that talk, i just learned to really appreciate him more because he seriously puts up with so much of my shit. i don't know know why he stays sometimes. i guess i was upset because i was soo used to something that little things can bother me so much that i totally blow it out of proportion. i'm just sick and tired of people telling me things and not doing it because that's just the way it's been my whole life. i trust people too easily and always find myself hurt in the end. i'm learning to deal with that aspect of my life though. when we returned to the house, geoff's little sister thought i we went to get high since my eyes were red, but i told her what happened so that she didn't say anything of that sort to the parentals.
i had to sleep at geoff's grandmammy shirley's while he sept at his uncle daniel's. old peoples are so funny. they are so cute and just amusing. some scottish lad fell back on his chair and by golly he could have broken a hip. another old lady had gingantic glasses on and kept falling asleep on the table. it was silly. that's when geoff and his little sisters tricked anna into doing schemes for them. after that i wacthed the kiddo's play tag. i got up monday morning at 7 i think and we all headed out to his uncle daniel's to pick geoff up and say goodbye to everyone. it sucked leaving anna because i became so attached to her. i want my daughter to be a lot like her.
the drive home wasn't as boring as the drive up there. mostly because geoff stayed awake longer and we had fun doing stupid things. i ate soo much within those three days. i am bulky now. oh but it was all worth it for it was damn delicious food.
now i am back to turlock after the nice weekend at canyon lake and it suck fatty ass ballsacks. it's so hot here compared to down south, which i still cannot fathom why. i totally loved his family, every single one of them and i felt welcomed. i'm glad i came with him and i got to experience many new things. that place is so beautiful, i'd like to go back sometime and learn to wakeboard or something pertaining to water since i am not one with the water.
returning to turlock is not at all something i was looking forward to since i have two really inconsiderate bitches living at home with me. kristie and carolyn are always so rude and quite frankly scare the shit out of me. that's why i don't like to speak in my family. i like to keep to myself and because of that i always get accused of doing drugs, which i honestly don't do. it was nice returning to the couch and mike's house, but i hate the weather here compared to socal. school doesn't help either.
i don't know why lately my head has been drifting back to the past. it's like i'm on a constant restraint to forget something, but it returns to me at night and i dream about it. i scared geoff last night by having a lucid dream about this someone. it's like i'm not supposed to forget or something. i don't know why he keeps reoccuring in my mind. i know for sure that i don't have feelings for anyone but geoff, so i'm not sure why this is happening. it may just be that the upcoming summer is a reminder of all the times we had last year and boy were most of those times great. hmm....what am i to do.
geoffrey got another tattoo today. i wish my scanner worked so i can scan all the pictures i got newly developed. phooie. i wonder if brando will allow me to keep his drumset at my house. highly doubtful, but it's a try since fucking chris's set isn't going to be at my house anytime soon.
so much homework, so little time. a bientot.