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[murmurmaid]

im trying too hard to be strong and overcome shit instead of dealing with shit. tody i cried so much my eyes are swollen and i have a headache. sometimes my life is crappy. stop trying to fix everything and breathe. i need some fucking friends. im going to make some. im realy stressed out, can you tell? you want details? ok. kris doesnt

Comments

[chellala]

This reminds me alot of myself. I'm just as lost if not more too. It's hard to reverse the things that happened in your childhood cause thats when you are most impressionable. I haven't known you for long and I don't know you that well, but from what I do know I know I love you. You are the sister i've always wanted. I look up to you because of how beautiful you are inside. I hate that you are feeling so horrible and I want you to know that i'll always be here for you.

And another thing, these people that judge you, if they are your friends then i'm sorry to say but they are being horrible friends. You dont need to be judged or put down, you need a shoulder to cry on and encouragement. I hope things get better babe. <33333333

[murmurmaid]

thank you chell bell for being understanding. i love you <3

GOOD

[dread_oh_dreads]

I know you probably hate me, but in a way, THIS is what I wanted to hear from you. Not because it's uplifting to me or anything, but because I know it needed to come out. Call it one of my delusions, but I felt as if it was...my purpose[?] to push you to the breaking point so you could realize that. Sadistic of me? Maybe, not in a pleasurable way...but in a way like through suffering, I'd make you realize that. You said once we're alot alike, and I know what it's like to be trying to cover up your pain to seem stronger to whoever.

I feel alot better towards you now that your barrier isn't up...before it was the blatantly fake Murmur but now it's YOU. Now any hostility I have is ...gone.

I could say alot more, but I won't, because I've said enough in the past. I'll post more once I hear a response from you- depending on your tone, I'll decide to say what I wanted to say..

Re: GOOD

[murmurmaid]

oh great, dreads doesnt hate me anymore

Re: GOOD

[dread_oh_dreads]

Hey, that's quite alright.
Stay strong.

Latah

Re: GOOD

[3b226ia]

lol wow you have never needed to go away more than at this moment :\

Thanks for finally putting me on your list: Better late than never.

[qp4]

You have to fix it on your own, but I'm sure you know that. I'd suggest you stop doing drugs for a while. It seems to me that your life, despite a few upsides, is pretty much close to the bottom, but you're in a haze from the weed and the cough medicine and whatever else you do, and you can't quite see the rocks just beneath you. And sometimes you have to hit that bottom before you can rise back up.

Or I may just be talkind out of my ass.

Re: Thanks for finally putting me on your list: Better late than never.

[murmurmaid]

and now you, im irritated at another thig i just had to respond to so dont take me too seriouslt when i say yeah, your kind of talking out of your ass

EEEK Advice!

[mamma_miller]

*ducks*

*speaks from behind a handy bush*

First, thank you for saying such nice things about me! I don't mean to make you jealous. *hugs*
It looks like this whole internetKatiebash was a big AFGO. Doncha just hate that? Instead of getting all bitter and defensive we get to learn and grow. As much as I apreciates AFGOs I also really hate them.

Ok, my advice from here (right or wrong) would be that you do NOT need some friends right now (umm, well not that friends are bad, they just don't seem to be the most important focus right now)
I think it would be very helpful to you right now to start finding and nourishing your goddess of the hearth.
I don't really know how to explain this in type when you are not here in front of me. There are so many ways to take it wrong or... well you know.

*peeks out from the bush to see if Katie is taking this advice well or seeing it as critisism*

Re: EEEK Advice!

[dread_oh_dreads]

WOW you're Cola's mom??
You've commented on an entry of mine before, and I never knew where you came from...until now!

He has an awesome mama.

Re: EEEK Advice!

[tarias]

lol, you didn't know that? it cracked me up when you told me that my opinion wasnt valid because i was an internet person and then turned around and started chatting it up with my mom. she is awesome and has the best advice, but shes twice the internet person i am to you.

lol whatever though. im glad you noticed how cool my mom is.

Re: EEEK Advice!

[murmurmaid]

lol you are right mama miller. i dont know what an afgo is but your right about the friends part. ive just been thinking about that today. i need to learn how to be alone and ok with myself without someone else. i need time to reflect. its like im in a constant state of amazement at the world with no time to reflect on it and turn it into something i can look back on and remember. sometimes i need to just sit and chill

Reply I recieved..

[dread_oh_dreads]

Wow, Its amazing that you have the same motive towards murmur/katie. I feel the same way about hurting her to create a change, its what she needs. Anyways, hey your soul is strong, keep shedding light

Just liked to share that with you.
Have a good life,
and a lovely [lack of] afterlife.

I'm going to go drink guaf now.

Re: Reply I recieved..

[murmurmaid]

hi your a loser. stop replying to my journal.

Re: Reply I recieved..

[mamma_miller]

What is really amazing is that you seem to feel that it is your responsibility to change Katie.
Who are you that you have miraculously been given charge of Katie's life and growth? How did you come upon this terrible responsibility, and does it weigh heavily on your shoulders? Does it truly make your soul strong to hurt another in order to affect the changes that you wish to see in this person?

and a lovely [lack of] afterlife

Does this comment indicate that you do not believe that there is an afterlife, or that you do not believe that there will be an afterlife for one particular individual because you do not like them or are angry with them?
I feel sorry for you either way. The first for having no hope, the second for believing you have a power stronger than God's

Oh, and yes, I am Cola's biomom. Thank you for thinking I am awsome.

Re: Reply I recieved..

[tarias]

Making people stronger is a good goal, but the ideal way to do that would be through like... love and compassion and stuff. You're just tearing someone down because you're bitter and then hiding the anger in your disgusting down to earth hippy chick image so nobody can call you on it. Get off the internet.