What have you most regretted losing?
Simon Lehane had a small gravestone on the edge of the cemetery just outside of the city. Jam Pony made it possible for Faith to make it through the necessary checkpoints to go and pay a brother she'd never known her final respects. She stood over his grave for a few moments, wind blowing long dark hair away from her face as she wondered about what might have been. After some time passed she bent down and gently laid a folded up piece of lined paper against the corner of his tombstone before turning around and walking away.
Simon,
I never got the chance to know you. I didn't even know about you until some random guy showed up to hand me your birth certificate. He wasn't really trying to help me or anything, he was just trying to get me to help him with a little vengeance. I dunno if letting Alec go was the right move or not. After all, he did kill you and I don't even think he feels that bad about it. He's all wrapped up around that Rachel girl, you know? It's like you were just a footnote in that whole mess. I couldn't get myself to do it though, I'm just not a killer anymore. I hope wherever you're chillin' now, you can forgive me.
The birth certificate says you're sixteen years younger than I am which means you were born right around the time that I went to prison. I'm sure before you died you figured out that sort of runs in the family, since our old man's been in all sorts of trouble. You have a different mom than I do so maybe that's where the smarts come from cause the way I hear tell you were a piano teacher which means you probably have to be a little smart. I don't know much about the piano but if you were teaching you must have been real good. It's kinda cool to know that at least one person in the family wasn't a total fuck up. Really wish that I could've gotten the chance to meet you, to know you. You got the raw end of the deal here and it just doesn't seem fair.
All that time and I thought I was alone. Mom was dead and well, our dad was a useless piece of shit. I had you somewhere and even though you're dead now it makes me think the past wasn't as empty as I used to think it was. I didn't know you but you're like this one little piece of our dad that was good, which means that maybe I have some of that too. Hey, everybody's gotta have something to hold onto.
Rest in peace, Simon. The rest of the world might have forgotten my little brother, but I never will.
Love,
Your big sister
Muse: Faith Lehane
Fandom: BtVS/Ats
Word Count: 491