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[Sitting in his living room on the couch, waiting patiently to see if Yuu plans to show up or not. One cigarette hangs between his lips, the window nearby him cracked open to vent the smoke.]
[Shows up at the exact time - must be punctual, after all - and knocks on the door a couple times before opening it. Despite the window venting the smoke, her nose still crinkles. Ugh.]
[When she comes in he puts out the cigarette and stands up.] ... Yuu.
Kanda. [Scowls slightly and closes the door behind her. She lingers in the doorway and crosses her arms.] I'm here. What?
We need to talk. [Motions to the couch.] Sit.
Hn. I don't know what you could possibly want to talk about. [Gives him a long look, then the couch. Really, she's about to decline, tell him she'd rather stand; but she decides against it and carefully moves to sit down. Keeps her arms crossed, though.] What?
The child. [Straight to the point. Sits across from her in the chair.] ... What do you plan to do?
Tch. [God dammit. Jaw tightens, but she refuses to break his gaze.] ... I'm looking for someone to take it.
[A hard stare.] Knowing perfectly well I am willing to take it.
[Matching it. Honey, you're not going to win this staring contest.] You're willing to turn it something it's not meant to be. I'm not going to allow that.
She won't be my apprentice, Yuu. She will be my daughter. [Oh but he certainly try.] She'll become whoever she wants to be.
[It's a valiant effort.] How can you expect to be a father to someone when you're not even going to keep your own fucking name?
I'm already going out of my way to at least try to be a good father! [Scowls] And I do have a name; Lavi.
But is that your real name, Rabbit? [Folding herself even tighter.] It deserves stability. A place to call home.... traveling around like some kind of gypsy can't provide that.
It is now, Yuu. [Inhales.] ... Home is where the heart is. I grew up that way and gramps... gramps was like family to me. [Shifts in his chair.] And what's wrong with gypsies? She can see things she might never get to see, countries, cities, people...
And yet not one goddamn place to call home. [Eyes narrow. She knows it's a feeble argument, but damn if she isn't sticking with it. Stubborn thing that she is.] You're not taking it.
Her home would be with me, Yuu. Isn't there where she belongs? With her family? [Nngh, suddenly he moves off the chair and right next to her.] Yuu... Please don't do this to me. [He speaks quietly, pleadingly.]
No. [Simple, to the point, no explanations. Though she doesn't like that pleading tone, mister! Still refusing to break his gaze, though, even when he's sitting right next to her.] Absolutely not.
She's just as mine as she is yours, Yuu. I deserve a say in this.
[Have a long, long, long stare. Are you looking close enough? There's a flicker of something in her eyes. Doubt. She doesn't want to give it up as much as she wants to look like she does. Just how obvious is that?]
[Oh he did.] Yuu...
Lavi. [Won't back down, nope. Still glaring. What?]
... Do you want to give it up?
I can't be a mother, and you fucking know it.
Says who?
[Burning holes into your skull.] It doesn't fucking matter. I can't. I won't put the thing through it.
What do you plan on doing now that the war is over? Setlle down? Give it a home? [Touches her hand.] I've seen you with the boy... Alma. You wouldn't put her through anything.
[Her fingers twitch under the touch.] That's none of your business... [Might sound slightly... off. She doesn't like this line of questioning because she doesn't have the answer.] Even if I was... that still means you wouldn't keep it.
At least I know it'd be in good hands. Someone that I can trust will bring it up right. [Holds her hands tightly.] That's all that matters to me.
[Frowning at him.] What makes you so certain that who I'm going to pick won't do the same?
Because no one can be her mother like I know you would be.
... [Just looking away. There's no use trying to even pretend like she doesn't want it, is there?]
[Nope. Takes her chin and turns in back to him. Whispers.] Yuu.
[Lets him take her chin, and lets him turn her back to him, though she's still glaring.] What, fucking rabbit?
[Just gives her a soft look.] Let me be apart of our child's life.
[Resolve. Breaking. Fast.] ... how would I even know you're going to be, when your "job" won't allow it?
[Rubs his thumb over her lower lip.] It's different now that I'm Bookman. I make the rules.
[Swallows thickly. Wanted to chase after his thumb. Know how to strum her like a harp, no?] ... we talked about this. You don't... we're not... [Together. That's what we agreed on.]
Things happen, Yuu. People change. [He leans in closer, noses near touching. That thumb is still there.]
I don't... [Exhales a little, trying to remain focused on his eye. Tease. You tease.] You don't... it was a mistake, and you know it.
I don't think it was a complete mistake. [Touches noses.]
[Instinctively tilts her head to the side a little, almost reaching for a kiss but refraining.] At least one of us doesn't.
You don't think it was either, do you? [Just whispering now, lips brushing over hers.]
[Inhales sharply, this time. She's sure that he can hear the way her heart fluttered at that. It's just like before, back in the Order...] Not... worth the consequence.
Are you so sure, Yuu? [Noses. Oh, he can hear it.]
... what are you trying to do? [To me...? Voice comes out in a bit of a lull.]
What does it look like? [Looks her in the eye.]
You're trying to complicate things. [Brow furrows. Sorry, she's staring at those lips.] Things were easier when you weren't fucking here.
I care about you. I care about you and her.
And it's complicating... everything. [Brings a hand up to touch her fingertips to his hair.]
You're not stopping me... [Can has light kiss now?]
No. I'm not. [Please. Closes her eyes at that, fingers curling in his hair.]
[And that's all he has to say on the matter. Lifts up a hand to run it in her hair, the hand on hers snaking around her waist, pulling her closer.]
[That was intentional, wasn't it? Running his fingers through her hair makes her tilt her head, makes the kiss a little more firm. She resists slightly against being pulled closer, but eventually lets him. Have an arm slinking around the waist?]
[Perhaps :3 That arm is nice, it tells him he doesn't have to back down. Nips her lower lip.]
[It receives a very soft sound from her, and her fingers curl around the back of his shirt. No, we really shouldn't do this again. Tilts her head up, trying to break the kiss.]
[Nnno. Keeps the kiss going, hand rubbing her side.]
[Pulls back a little more, though it's half-hearted. You're going to make her cave, aren't you?]
[Yes, he is. Keeping her close still, lips trailing down her jawline now to her neck.]
[The fingers around the back of his shirt tighten a little. She starts leaning back into the couch, partly to pull away some more, and mostly to pull him along with her.]
[And pulled along he is, hand resting on the nap of her neck, kneading the flesh there. The hand on her side rubs against her hip.]
[She shifts a little against his hand on her hip, tilting back in for another kiss. There, you have one. In earnest. Happy now?] ... you keep coming back.
[Goes back in for another kiss as well.] ... I suppose I do.
[They're probably getting more feverish, almost desperate. Not that she'd ever want to admit that.] Stupid rabbit.
[Despite the temperature rising he still manages to be careful of her stomach. Is she wearing a dress?] Mhm?
[At the current moment, her stomach is the last thing she's thinking about. And she's definitely wearing a dress, they've been rather comfortable to wear, in the last few months. Have a nip on the jawline.] Stupid, stupid rabbit.
[Undergarments as well? Because he's pushing up that dress now, fingers slipping underneath.] Heh~.
[Wriggling out of them~ and tugging at his shirt. Off. Now.] Stop laughing.
[Mhm, panties on the floor? And the shirt is gone now. Nice abs he's got there, don't you think? Fingers brushing against her thigh, still kissing her, speaking in between breaths.] You're beautiful. You know that?
[Yes, please. And yes, they are incredible. Arches into it, gnawing on her bottom lip to hold back on another light sound. Moaning, she's never been one for it. Too crude and embarrassing. Thumbing at the button on his trousers.] Hardly. Stop trying to flatter me.
You know I mean it. [Noses her some, trailing his lips back down her throat, nipping at the flesh.]
[Gets a pleasant wave of goosebumps out of her. Tucks one knee up along his side, shifting a little uncomfortably. Oh, okay. Now the tummy is getting in the way. Have an aggravated scowl.] Not here.
Mhm... Alright. [Suddenly he shifts, moving his arms under both her legs and lifting her up, bridal style. If her added weight is an issue he doesn't show it, carrying her to his bedroom against his chest.]
The sickness keeps you coming back.
[Shows up at the exact time - must be punctual, after all - and knocks on the door a couple times before opening it. Despite the window venting the smoke, her nose still crinkles. Ugh.]
[When she comes in he puts out the cigarette and stands up.] ... Yuu.
Kanda. [Scowls slightly and closes the door behind her. She lingers in the doorway and crosses her arms.] I'm here. What?
We need to talk. [Motions to the couch.] Sit.
Hn. I don't know what you could possibly want to talk about. [Gives him a long look, then the couch. Really, she's about to decline, tell him she'd rather stand; but she decides against it and carefully moves to sit down. Keeps her arms crossed, though.] What?
The child. [Straight to the point. Sits across from her in the chair.] ... What do you plan to do?
Tch. [God dammit. Jaw tightens, but she refuses to break his gaze.] ... I'm looking for someone to take it.
[A hard stare.] Knowing perfectly well I am willing to take it.
[Matching it. Honey, you're not going to win this staring contest.] You're willing to turn it something it's not meant to be. I'm not going to allow that.
She won't be my apprentice, Yuu. She will be my daughter. [Oh but he certainly try.] She'll become whoever she wants to be.
[It's a valiant effort.] How can you expect to be a father to someone when you're not even going to keep your own fucking name?
I'm already going out of my way to at least try to be a good father! [Scowls] And I do have a name; Lavi.
But is that your real name, Rabbit? [Folding herself even tighter.] It deserves stability. A place to call home.... traveling around like some kind of gypsy can't provide that.
It is now, Yuu. [Inhales.] ... Home is where the heart is. I grew up that way and gramps... gramps was like family to me. [Shifts in his chair.] And what's wrong with gypsies? She can see things she might never get to see, countries, cities, people...
And yet not one goddamn place to call home. [Eyes narrow. She knows it's a feeble argument, but damn if she isn't sticking with it. Stubborn thing that she is.] You're not taking it.
Her home would be with me, Yuu. Isn't there where she belongs? With her family? [Nngh, suddenly he moves off the chair and right next to her.] Yuu... Please don't do this to me. [He speaks quietly, pleadingly.]
No. [Simple, to the point, no explanations. Though she doesn't like that pleading tone, mister! Still refusing to break his gaze, though, even when he's sitting right next to her.] Absolutely not.
She's just as mine as she is yours, Yuu. I deserve a say in this.
[Have a long, long, long stare. Are you looking close enough? There's a flicker of something in her eyes. Doubt. She doesn't want to give it up as much as she wants to look like she does. Just how obvious is that?]
[Oh he did.] Yuu...
Lavi. [Won't back down, nope. Still glaring. What?]
... Do you want to give it up?
I can't be a mother, and you fucking know it.
Says who?
[Burning holes into your skull.] It doesn't fucking matter. I can't. I won't put the thing through it.
What do you plan on doing now that the war is over? Setlle down? Give it a home? [Touches her hand.] I've seen you with the boy... Alma. You wouldn't put her through anything.
[Her fingers twitch under the touch.] That's none of your business... [Might sound slightly... off. She doesn't like this line of questioning because she doesn't have the answer.] Even if I was... that still means you wouldn't keep it.
At least I know it'd be in good hands. Someone that I can trust will bring it up right. [Holds her hands tightly.] That's all that matters to me.
[Frowning at him.] What makes you so certain that who I'm going to pick won't do the same?
Because no one can be her mother like I know you would be.
... [Just looking away. There's no use trying to even pretend like she doesn't want it, is there?]
[Nope. Takes her chin and turns in back to him. Whispers.] Yuu.
[Lets him take her chin, and lets him turn her back to him, though she's still glaring.] What, fucking rabbit?
[Just gives her a soft look.] Let me be apart of our child's life.
[Resolve. Breaking. Fast.] ... how would I even know you're going to be, when your "job" won't allow it?
[Rubs his thumb over her lower lip.] It's different now that I'm Bookman. I make the rules.
[Swallows thickly. Wanted to chase after his thumb. Know how to strum her like a harp, no?] ... we talked about this. You don't... we're not... [Together. That's what we agreed on.]
Things happen, Yuu. People change. [He leans in closer, noses near touching. That thumb is still there.]
I don't... [Exhales a little, trying to remain focused on his eye. Tease. You tease.] You don't... it was a mistake, and you know it.
I don't think it was a complete mistake. [Touches noses.]
[Instinctively tilts her head to the side a little, almost reaching for a kiss but refraining.] At least one of us doesn't.
You don't think it was either, do you? [Just whispering now, lips brushing over hers.]
[Inhales sharply, this time. She's sure that he can hear the way her heart fluttered at that. It's just like before, back in the Order...] Not... worth the consequence.
Are you so sure, Yuu? [Noses. Oh, he can hear it.]
... what are you trying to do? [To me...? Voice comes out in a bit of a lull.]
What does it look like? [Looks her in the eye.]
You're trying to complicate things. [Brow furrows. Sorry, she's staring at those lips.] Things were easier when you weren't fucking here.
I care about you. I care about you and her.
And it's complicating... everything. [Brings a hand up to touch her fingertips to his hair.]
You're not stopping me... [Can has light kiss now?]
No. I'm not. [Please. Closes her eyes at that, fingers curling in his hair.]
[And that's all he has to say on the matter. Lifts up a hand to run it in her hair, the hand on hers snaking around her waist, pulling her closer.]
[That was intentional, wasn't it? Running his fingers through her hair makes her tilt her head, makes the kiss a little more firm. She resists slightly against being pulled closer, but eventually lets him. Have an arm slinking around the waist?]
[Perhaps :3 That arm is nice, it tells him he doesn't have to back down. Nips her lower lip.]
[It receives a very soft sound from her, and her fingers curl around the back of his shirt. No, we really shouldn't do this again. Tilts her head up, trying to break the kiss.]
[Nnno. Keeps the kiss going, hand rubbing her side.]
[Pulls back a little more, though it's half-hearted. You're going to make her cave, aren't you?]
[Yes, he is. Keeping her close still, lips trailing down her jawline now to her neck.]
[The fingers around the back of his shirt tighten a little. She starts leaning back into the couch, partly to pull away some more, and mostly to pull him along with her.]
[And pulled along he is, hand resting on the nap of her neck, kneading the flesh there. The hand on her side rubs against her hip.]
[She shifts a little against his hand on her hip, tilting back in for another kiss. There, you have one. In earnest. Happy now?] ... you keep coming back.
[Goes back in for another kiss as well.] ... I suppose I do.
[They're probably getting more feverish, almost desperate. Not that she'd ever want to admit that.] Stupid rabbit.
[Despite the temperature rising he still manages to be careful of her stomach. Is she wearing a dress?] Mhm?
[At the current moment, her stomach is the last thing she's thinking about. And she's definitely wearing a dress, they've been rather comfortable to wear, in the last few months. Have a nip on the jawline.] Stupid, stupid rabbit.
[Undergarments as well? Because he's pushing up that dress now, fingers slipping underneath.] Heh~.
[Wriggling out of them~ and tugging at his shirt. Off. Now.] Stop laughing.
[Mhm, panties on the floor? And the shirt is gone now. Nice abs he's got there, don't you think? Fingers brushing against her thigh, still kissing her, speaking in between breaths.] You're beautiful. You know that?
[Yes, please. And yes, they are incredible. Arches into it, gnawing on her bottom lip to hold back on another light sound. Moaning, she's never been one for it. Too crude and embarrassing. Thumbing at the button on his trousers.] Hardly. Stop trying to flatter me.
You know I mean it. [Noses her some, trailing his lips back down her throat, nipping at the flesh.]
[Gets a pleasant wave of goosebumps out of her. Tucks one knee up along his side, shifting a little uncomfortably. Oh, okay. Now the tummy is getting in the way. Have an aggravated scowl.] Not here.
Mhm... Alright. [Suddenly he shifts, moving his arms under both her legs and lifting her up, bridal style. If her added weight is an issue he doesn't show it, carrying her to his bedroom against his chest.]
The sickness keeps you coming back.