yeah i have gone through the same thing. First of all don't get fucked up to try to hind any feelings that will start another problem. I know how hard it is, especially since my best friend took her own life. At his wake or funeral try to cry everything out there, it worked for me, i was in stock for 3 months( my friend didn't kill herself in the u.s. so i didn't go to either but her father had a memorial for her.) It was the hardest thing in the world to me to actually let go of my friend but you have to. After a year of her being gone I still missed her and i still do. As time go's by you'll realize more and more why your friend did it. It took me 3 years to realize and over thinking to why my friend did. I now know why and it's shitty. another thing is to not think it as he left you, he left his other friends, his family also. try to put your feelings into artwork,mediation or working out. I hope this helps you feel somewhat better.
I am so sorry for everything you are having to deal with, on top of the passing of your best friend... my heart goes out to you and you are in my thoughts. Mass quantities of positive vibes to you, love... I've only had acquaintances leave me thus far, so I can't offer any advice, other than I agree with above commenter... It sounds dumb, but I lost a dog that was my animal equivalent, that was back in very dark days, and I got fucked up constantly, got shit fronted, hustled, you know the drill. But I totally lost it when I couldn't get any more. It's like all the feelings I sh ould have been working thru were coming back 10-fold... I understand some stuff does help you think things out, but the sooner you deal with it, the sooner you move on. (I know you know that, but I still have to tell that to myself). I'm always here if you need anything... I still make it to KC quite often, and sometimes a stranger is the best way to get perspective into something. Namaste
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I've only had acquaintances leave me thus far, so I can't offer any advice, other than I agree with above commenter... It sounds dumb, but I lost a dog that was my animal equivalent, that was back in very dark days, and I got fucked up constantly, got shit fronted, hustled, you know the drill. But I totally lost it when I couldn't get any more. It's like all the feelings I sh ould have been working thru were coming back 10-fold...
I understand some stuff does help you think things out, but the sooner you deal with it, the sooner you move on. (I know you know that, but I still have to tell that to myself).
I'm always here if you need anything... I still make it to KC quite often, and sometimes a stranger is the best way to get perspective into something.
Namaste
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