[FANFIC] Heart's Memory - Five
Yunho | Jaejoong
Summary: Inside his head, Yunho did forget about him and what they have, but inside his heart, Jaejoong doubts.
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Five
The first ring of the school bell was heard as he alighted from the black Audi that he borrowed from his father. He walked to the direction where his first period of the day would be held as he ignored the stare and whispers of few students around him, silently thankful that it had lowered down compared to past two weeks when he came back to the university after the accident.
Two weeks of endless gossips about him and Kim. Yunho admits that he was indeed surprised by mixed reactions of the students when he announced personally that they were not together, never had and never will, he said to them. Few only knew that he currently have amnesia, so they confuse him. The way the students said that they pity Jaejoong, that Jaejoong was a slut so he deserved being left and some asked him if he found a new one that's why he broke up with the pale skinned student. Yunho answered none, even Yoochun remained silent throughout the whole time and he looked at Yunho like he did something bad, and the latter can't even put a finger to what the problem was; and as if he wasn't really part of what is happening around him.
the tall, sun-kissed skin student shook his head to clear his mind as he neared the auditorium. He reach for the door knob when a pale, slim hand reached for it at the same time, making Yunho hold the hand instead and as fast as he held them, the other student retracted it that same second as if he was burn or hurt at the short contact and he left without a word as he use the back door of the room instead. The tall student could only stare at the back of the retreating one that's wearing an overly large black, hello kitty hooded pull over, gray skinny jeans and a black converse sneakers. He sees him often for the past weeks but never he knew what his name was nor what he looked like but he know that the shorter student's scent makes his stomach churn with an unknown feeling inside him.
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an hour when the class started, Yunho felt that the time was so damn slow. He stopped flirting back to the girl sitting beside him as he closed his accounting book, pressed his forehead onto his table and was about to close his eyes when:
"i do not tolerate laziness inside my class Mr. Jung. it has been more than 2 weeks after your accident and i'm fully aware that you're able to go back to your normal activities at this time. Out!". he heard his professor shouted but he didn't lift his head even a bit nor pay attention to him, he remained on his position until he heard approaching steps that hakted in front of his seat, and Yunho wanted to scold himself why he chose to seat at the front.
"leave or i'll drag you out myself Mr. Ju-".
"No thank you. I could leave on my own, Mr. Shim". Yunho cut his professor off - the professor that he hates, as he lifted his head and stared back at the fiercing, angry gaze of the instructor that was only few years older than him.
Shim Changmin, youngest instructor in their university, smart, a math genius other's say, very strict and Yunho hates him the most. the student knew something other's don't, that the professor they admired so much is fucking his own student.
Yunho smirked at the thought as he stood up and about to pass his professor when the latter gripped his arm, halting his steps.
"what are you smirking at?". the taller for an inch instructor asked lowly, annoyance lacing his voice as he stared at the student in front of him. 'how he wanted to punch and ruined that face'. Changmin thought.
"none of your business". Yunho hissed, yanking his arm from the other's vice like grip that tightened even more at his answer.
He stared back at the other's dark brown orbs that's showing an undeniable feeling of anger and hate towards him. He knows it, how? simple. For Kim Jaejoong was being linked to him, the same student that his oh-so-genius-but-immoral-and-sick professor is fucking. He yanked his arm for the second time, feeling disgusted to be neared at the older man when he suddenly stood froze on his spot when the taller man said;
"you should have died that day than hurting him by loosing your fucking memory". and he was pushed outside the auditorium.
Yunho have no idea how long he had been standing at the empty hallway as words of his professor echoed inside his head.
"who is he hurting?". he asked to no one.
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Changmin closed the door of the room as he pushed Yunho outside. He couldn't turn to look at his students especially to the one that was seated at the farthest back corner of the auditorium. He felt ashamed for loosing his temper ealier but who wouldn't, when you see how your younger brother stares longingly at the man he loves that was flirting non-stop to some cheap cheerleader that was sitting beside him. He also knew that he shouldn't have said those words, but he can't help it anymore. Jaejoong was hurting too much and it kills him to see him cry and call Yunho's name every night, watch him hope that he will be remembered, and he can't do anything but hug and reassured him that yes, Yunho would remember him but when?.
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the thin, more fragile looking student entered Changmin's room after the end of school hours. The latter heaved a sigh as he turned his office chair and looked at his younger brother, mentally smiling as he noticed that he was not hiding under the hood of his sweat shirt anymore, showing his now blonde hair.
the younger man's face was cold and blank and his older brother could only stare at him, not knowing what to say. Jaejoong didn't talk to him after their class and even refrained from eating lunch with him, in which Chagmin knew that he skipped his meal again, like he always do when he thought that no one was looking at him when he throw his food at the trash.
"i hate you". he heard him whisper and Changmin could only watch how those never ending tears started to fall from his brother's doe-like eyes, slowly flowing from his porcelain but more paler cheeks.
the older man stood up, unable to watch his brother cry even more. "Please Jae, i didn't me -".
"do you hate him that much?! i know that you didn't like him hyung but he can't even remember you why do you have to do that to him!?". he asked, anger evident on his voice as he waited for his brother to answer.
"i don't hate him Jae but its annoying to see him flirt with that girl while you watch him longingly, hoping it was you he was talking to. i can 't be -".
"let him do whatever he wants! he can't remember a part of his life and don't you dare use me as an excuse that i'm hurti -".
and Changmin had enough with what he just heard, he slam his fist onto his table that abruptly stop his brother's sentence.
"let him do things that i know would hurt you? then what? you'd cry at night calling for him, starve yourself until he remembers you. if Yunho is allowed to hurt you then i am too!". he shouted as he walked towards the shorter man and stop in front of him.
a part of the young professor's mind says that he should stop what he was going to say, but Changmin had enough and he was so angry to stop his next words;
"you want to continue hurting, then listen. Yunho would never remember you. i lied every night when i said he will. So stop hoping Jaejoong, even if you die today he will never care because he can't remember you, he had no idea that he loves you and the soon you accept that he's permanently gone in your li -". and he suddenly stop, anger turned into pity as he watched Jaejoong cover his both ears with his hand, eyes shut closed yet his tears never seemed to cease as he shook his head and mumbled; "no, he'll remember me" all over again.
and Changmin hugged him tight, whispering apologies when Jaejoong started to push him away and called Yunho's name;
both unaware that the owner of the name heard it.
TBC
authors.note: yay! and here's my promise. now you know why Yunho hated Jaejoong. :3
so i'll be dead for a week or two to finish the theory that i'm making and study for my exams. i'm not sure if i could update within that time but i'll do my best. /pinky promise.
thannk you in advance for everyone who would read this. <3 do tell me what you think okay? :)