I Never Thought I Would - 12
Yunho | Jaejoong
Chaptered
Summary:
Kim JaeJoong and Jung YunHo was forced to marry each other for the sake of their families business..
It was not hard for Jaejoong to agree because he secretly love YunHo since High school but for Yunho - it was the opposite.. He hated Jaejoong for he was gay. The fact that Yunho was straight and has a girlfriend..
Yunho did things that Jaejoong tolerated at first, but when Yunho crossed the line; he immediately demanded for a divorce. Yunho agreed in one condition - no one will know it except the two of them..
They separated ways and lived the life they want but after two years, they have to meet again..
What will happen to them?
Twelve
The moon glowed brightly that night in the dark sky and cold wind constantly blew outside a manor in the far end of Seoul where loud shouts of anger and weak pleads can be heard..
“how many times do i have to tell you to never work inside this room!? Can’t you understand that!?”.. the older man shouted at the smaller man that is sitting on the edge of the bed in front of him, thin frame shaking with fear.
“i-i d-didn’t work here, those pictures just fell from my folders, believe Yun -“.. he said but stopped when a hard slap landed on his left cheek for the second time that night. His body shook even more and the tears he kept on holding on started to fall from his doe like eyes. He cupped his burning cheeks as he looked down on his lap.
“don’t you dare answer me like that you fag! Do you think i’m an idiot to believe you!?”.. he shouted again and grabbed on the smaller man’s raven hair and titled it hard, forcing the other to look at him. The taller man leaned closer to him, right hand pressed against the bed for balance as their face were just inches apart..
“you’ll never learn do you Jaejoong?”.. he hissed dangerously that made the feminine looking man widened his eyes with fear.
“Y-Yunho p-please i d-didn’t me - “.. he pleaded again but his words were left unheard when Yunho claimed his lips to a fierce and violent kiss, its strong, big hand that is grasping his hair earlier was now on his nape holding him in a firm hold while pushing him to lay on the bed. Jaejoong kept pushing the other on its chest, he didn’t want this, he didn’t want that nightmare to happen again. The older man pulled away from that kiss and grabbed both of the younger man’s wrist and pinned it above his head as he straddled him and leaned close to the crying man.
He started to kiss, suck and bit on the pale, smooth skin until he tasted copper inside his mouth; he continued with his action on every new patch of skin he sees while forcefully undressing the man underneath him, ignoring its cries and pleads, and last thing Jaejoong can remember is the pain when Yunho forced himself onto him, how he felt his body ripped into two and how those dark brown orbs looked at with him hate and disgust.
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Jaejoong unexpectedly sat up in his bed, forehead covered with sweat, breathing ragged and shallow as his body shook with fear; his grip on his dark blue duvet tightened until his knuckles turned white. He dreamt of it again, the dream that he can never share to anyone and definitely not to Yunho.
It had been two months since they went back to Seoul and Yunho did nothing but to be kind and caring towards him; giving him everything he wants, watching horror movies with him every Friday nights even if he is tired from work and most of all, the older man never force him to sleep with the same bed as he is. Jaejoong could clearly remember how Yunho forced his self to smile when he said that he will sleep on his own room..
The moment Jaejoong stepped inside their house, he smiled upon seeing the familiar place, it didn’t change even a bit and he well knew that Yunho kept it that way..
“Baby can you please move, you’re blocking the way and mind you, your bags are the heavy ones”.. he heard the older man said and he move aside, chuckling as he did. He watched how the taller man carried all the bags and with his both hands and brought it upstairs then he stopped half way and tuned his head to look at the younger man.
“what is it?”.. Jaejoong asked, walking towards the stairs.
The other smiled sheepishly at him.. “y-your bags, where will i put them?”.. he stuttered then waited for the younger man to answer..
Jaejoong bit his lip, feeling anxious with his answer.. “can we sleep -”.. he started but he felt like a lump got stuck inside his throat so he stopped..
“Separately?”.. Yunho asked, finishing the sentence for him. the smaller man reluctantly nodded his head and he regret doing so when he saw the hurt in the older man’s orbs despite the fact that he was smiling widely at him.
“okay. I’ll just put my bags inside my room first”.. he said the last time before he continued to walk upstairs, leaving the other that is following his retreating back with his gaze..
Since then Jaejoong gave his best to show Yunho that he is not scared at him like what the older man always think.. he initiate body contacts like simple hugs, kiss on the cheeks or forehead and holding into the older man’s hands; with those contacts the smaller man felt happy when older man will smile at him lovingly and said ‘i love you’ every day.. Those contacts never changed until a certain incident made Yunho lose his temper..
The beautiful male was sitting on the round table were his family are assigned to sit. They were in a ball were all rich and well-known business man are invited including their family. The ball was hosted by the Choi family, a long time business partner of Jaejoong’s family so he has no excuse for not attending. He looked around, searching for Yunho who left to get them some drinks; he didn’t notice that someone already sat on his husband’s seat beside him.
“you look like an angel with your white suit Jae”.. the newcomer whispered in his hear and the beautiful man shuddered as he distant himself to the other man.
“thank you Seung Hyun but that seat it taken”.. he said as politely as he can, smiling gently at the other..
“who? I don’t see anyone accompanying you”.. the guy named Seung Hyun replied, hands already caressing the younger man’s thigh.
Jaejoong hastily stood up but Seung Hyun grabbed his wrist and pulled him closer, making their body touch and that is when Yunho arrived and saw everything. He took a deep breath as he placed the two glasses of wine onto the table, how he wanted to strangle and punch the son of Mr. Choi who talked to him with non-sense things that made him left his wife for too long.
“Seung Hyun-shi”.. he called and the said man turned to look at him, right hand still holding on to Jaejoong’s thin wrist.
“Yunho-shi”.. he replied with a nod and was about to look at the smaller man again but what Yunho said made him released his hold on the now red and aching wrist..
“y-you two are married?”.. he asked but none of the two answered as Yunho held his wife in his hand and pulled him to the bathroom.
Jaejoong kept looking down as his ex-husband guide him somewhere. The two went inside the bathroom then Yunho locked the door. He stared at the smaller man that is standing still in front of him and he remembered how that guy stood so close to the man he loves. Blinded by anger, the taller man pulled the other and pinned him on the bathroom door. Jaejoong groaned in pain but he mustered all his courage to look at Yunho straight in the eye, he knew he is angry and he believes that the taller man will not do anything to hurt him again..
They met each other’s gaze before the older man claimed his lips to a searing kiss, hands unbuttoning the smaller man’s white polo as the latter held on to his husband’s blazer tightly, returning his kisses with the same vigour..
Yunho left Jaejoong’s lips and started to kiss him on the neck, collar bone and suck on an area only to stop when the smaller man tugged on him hard on his blazer, winning his attention. He looked at the other with his eyes that shows lust and jealousy, his jaw tightened with anger but Jaejoong ignored it, he cupped his face with his both hands and pecked on his lips repeatedly until they were kissing each other, passionately.
“you’re mine Jaejoong”.. Yunho said between kisses, hands wrapped around the other’s thin waist and he pulled him closer to his body..
“i’m yours, all yours Yunho”.. Jaejoong replied, hands buried into the older man’s hair gripping it tightly as he angled his head to deepen their kiss even more. he wants to prove to Yunho that he is no longer scared of him but the latter pulled away from their connection and pressed its forehead against his..
“i know i scared you earlier, Jae. I’m sorry i got jealous with that bastard. I’m really sorry”.. he said and buried his face on the crook of the younger man’s neck that is playing with the locks of his dark brown hair..
“i know you will not hurt me”.. he replied as he hugged Yunho tightly. His feelings for the older man had long drowned the fear and distrust he felt before, all he can feel now was love, the love that needs to be expressed until Yunho would believe him cause what his heart said, his body acts the opposite..
That party incident was the last intimate contact they did and Yunho remained distant towards Jaejoong in showing his affection and love. The latter didn’t complain for he knew he wasn’t ready though his trust for the older man is already there. He forced himself to forget everything about the past and he was slowly succeeding when he dreamt of that nightmare again, it was so vivid that Jaejoong can feel his body shook with fear and pain; and that same nightmare kept on returning, and tonight is the fourth time it happened...
The paled skin man, held his chest as he had difficulty on breathing. He kicked the blanket away from him then he struggled to stand up with his weakened knees, he accidently knocked down the lampshade placed above the bedside table but he didn’t care, he felt suffocated and he needed air. He opened the veranda door and his knees felt even weaker making him slid on the cold floor, his left shoulder leaning on the frame door of the veranda. Cold wind blew that made his thin, fragile looking body shiver but he didn’t care, because his chest is hurting inside him now that even his tears that kept on falling continuously can’t help to lessen it even a little. That dream scared him so much; he feared that it will happen again. The hate and disgust in the eyes of the man he love so much made him want to not believe with Yunho’s words of love towards him. he was so tired that he want this all to end but he didn’t know how and that was the hardest part. He hit his head in the door frame repeatedly as he sobbed louder, he felt so helpless.
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Yunho lazily stacked the papers he just finished on reviewing and signing. It became a habit of him to took home his work and finished it so that he can be free during weekends and bond with his wife. He never realized that spending time together with the younger man can make him happy and contented with the relationship they have now. He knew that Jaejoong was forcing himself to be close to him so that he will not get hurt but he can’t let the other hurt himself only to make him happy so he chose to distant himself from the beautiful man. He already prepared himself of the long way that he have to face before gaining Jaejoong’s trust and love and he is willing to wait for the only man that he loves.. he slowly stretched his aching back and arm when he heard something fell on the direction of his ex-wife’s room. He hastily run towards its room and turned the door knob slowly despite the fast beating of his heart to not scare the other..
“Jaejoong are you okay?”.. he asked the moment he pushed the door open. When the smaller man didn’t answer, Yunho slowly walked inside the room and he stopped when he saw him slumped on the cold floor, body trembling as he tried to muffle his choking sobs.. the sight made the older man hurt, he can feel his heart being squeezed inside his chest, for he knew so well even if Jaejoong kept on denying that he is the reason of the pain and the nightmares that the smaller man is experiencing.. it is not the first time he saw the latter having the same nightmare, every night he check to see if his wife is sleeping well so he knew so damn well what that nightmare was, he even slept beside him so that he will stop from sobbing and begging in his sleep. Every word that escaped his lips pierced the older man’s heart repeatedly but he didn’t care, if this is his retribution from all the pain he cause to the man he loves, he is willing to take it wholeheartedly until Jaejoong can’t feel anything but his love..
Slowly he approached the small frame and hugged it from behind as he sat on the cold floor, behind the smaller man. The latter froze at the sudden contact and wiped his tears in haste, not wanting Yunho to see him crying..
“just let it all out, Jaejoong”.. Yunho said, voice shaking as he fight his urge to cry.. he hugged him tightly as the smaller man pressed his back to him. Jaejoong’s body felt so cold and the older man slowly rubbed his hands to the other’s bare arms keeping him warm as he silently cried.
After a few minutes, the smaller already stopped and Yunho had his arms wrapped around his thin waist, his face buried on the younger man’s neck.
“aren’t you sleepy?”.. the younger man suddenly asked and the other shook his head gently..
“you have work tomorrow, it’s already late. I’m okay now”.. he said while gently removing the other’s strong arms around then he turned to straddle the older man, wrapping his legs on Yunho’s waist then he loosely place his both arms around its neck. the older man instantly held him on his waist..
The younger man smiled weakly at the man he love so much before he kiss him on his forehead, nose, both cheeks and peck on its bow-shaped lips repeatedly until Yunho smiled at his cute and loving action. He pressed their forehead together as he gaze at the older man’s dark brown orbs, he can see how soft and calm it was, and there is no hate and disgust in them like what he saw in his dream.. he slowly closed his eyes and pressed his body closer to the other, making it moan when their hot bodies pressed together.
“i love you”.. the older man said in a whisper that made the smaller man open his eyes and they stared at each other before the beautiful man pressed their lips together into a loving kiss.. they pulled away both panting and breathing deeply..
“you should sleep now”.. the taller man said, as he brushed the black, silky locks covering the other’s eye that he love to stare at..
“sleep with me”.. the shorter man stated, nuzzling his nose on the other’s left cheek. Yunho nodded and they both stood up and walked towards the bed. the older man asked the younger man to lie first then he followed and the moment his back hit the soft bed, Jaejoong instantly hugged him, burying his face on the older man’s chest and Yunho can only smile as he let his silent tears fall from his almond shape eyes..
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Jaejoong woke up the next morning with an empty space beside him, he felt sad for Yunho didn’t even woke him up before he go to work and at the same time happy for sleeping that long. He entered the bathroom to took a shower and attend his personal needs..
He walked downstairs clad in a simple plain baby pink shirt, black skinny jeans and black converse sneakers that his ex-husband gave to him just a few weeks ago.
“hello ahjumma”.. the beautiful man greeted the old woman cleaning inside the kitchen he just entered.
“hello Jaejoong. You just woke up?”.. she asked and the young man nodded as he sat on ths chair and rest his head above the table..
“Yunho called many times today asking about you”.. she said, washing her hands under the running tap water..
“did he said something?”.. the feminine looking boy asked, still not moving from his position..
The ahjumma walked towards the man he had been taking care of since he was just a child. “he said that the moment you wake up, i should tell you to come by the office so that you can eat together”..
With that sentence Jaejoong lifted his head and sat up straight.. “us? Eat together?”.. he asked with an arched left eyebrow then he looked at the clock hanging on the wall across him..
“but it’s already quarter to 2. Don’t tell me he di -“..
“he just called fifteen minutes ago. So go now you didn’t want him to starve right?”.. the old woman cut him off and Jaejoong could only smile before he bid goodbye and left to see his Yunho..
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It took him 30 minutes to reach the company and he was immediately greeted by the employees’ non-stop. When he got into Yunho’s office floor, he slowly walked towards his husband’s office and when he was just few feet away from the room, he heard a voice of a girl inside shouting and he is sure that the voice came from Yuri.. he furrowed his eyebrows..
‘what is she doing here? Dad assigned him to the company in Gwangju’.. he asked himself. He walked towards the door and was about to grab its handle only to stop half way when he heard Yunho’s voice started to speak..
then his whole body froze when he heard him said;
“i don’t love him, i’m just using him for his money”..