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it's the start of weekend tonight and to be frank i couldn't believe i made it safely (again) this week.
in my previous post, i said that these past few weeks had been very ugly. this week is not an exception. my mood has been so fluctuative and it reached its peak last tuesday/wednesday with three times breakdown in a day. i woke up crying. i started my activities holding back my tears. i ended it with another cry. i tried to not think about anything and i still cried anyway. i truly felt like this world has turned into a very bad place to live sometimes i think it's way too unbearable. i myself felt like i was in the weakest point of my life that i could only manage to cry and not doing anything else.
it is really a relief, and blissful, that i am still surrounded by kindest, most caring, sincere people around me. i am a burden and most likely i worsen that fact alone when i'm in a bad shape. if not because of their patience and love and care, this week might've turned into an awful week.
i've closed down my work tabs, mark my calendar for every plans next week, stopped scrolling whatsapp and tried to enjoy my weekend.
i've worked really hard this week. i make it. i'm so grateful.
happy weekend everyone
in my previous post, i said that these past few weeks had been very ugly. this week is not an exception. my mood has been so fluctuative and it reached its peak last tuesday/wednesday with three times breakdown in a day. i woke up crying. i started my activities holding back my tears. i ended it with another cry. i tried to not think about anything and i still cried anyway. i truly felt like this world has turned into a very bad place to live sometimes i think it's way too unbearable. i myself felt like i was in the weakest point of my life that i could only manage to cry and not doing anything else.
it is really a relief, and blissful, that i am still surrounded by kindest, most caring, sincere people around me. i am a burden and most likely i worsen that fact alone when i'm in a bad shape. if not because of their patience and love and care, this week might've turned into an awful week.
i've closed down my work tabs, mark my calendar for every plans next week, stopped scrolling whatsapp and tried to enjoy my weekend.
i've worked really hard this week. i make it. i'm so grateful.
happy weekend everyone