08:26pm
there are some questions hanging above my head, and they're kinda intruding me, so i might just dump them here in case it helps.
- am i boring? no, it's not practical to say yes or no. in percentage, how boring i am? i know i'm plain, and not funny, and lame, and i am such a cry baby, a sad mess, someone hard to handle, not that kind who's capable of making everyone happy (i don't think i can make myself happy, though).
- do people can handle me as a burden? this is still related to question number one.
- will i ever be a first choice? someone who deserves best and not better, someone prioritized. it's hard yeah but is there a chance, perhaps?
- do i still have a chance to be completely content and happy?
- how to stop drawing your own conclusions when you're overthinking?
- how to stop overthinking?
- am i worthy? worth the fight, worth the time, worth the chance?
- will i be remembered when i'm gone?