So What Say You...
Taken from my oh so amazing "notes" on Martin Luther and the Protestant Reformation from Friday's Humanities lecture...
"I'm a failure!
Why the hell can't I
do anything right in
this fucking class?
I hate this class.
It serves no purpose
to my education.
I want to leave this
god forsaken shit hole.
It means nothing to me
anymore. I hate everyone
that is here. I will not
miss anyone. They
are meaningless to me. I'm
going as far away as
possible and I'm
never coming back.
This world means
nothing to me at this
point. I hate it.
Please kill me now.
Seriously. I do not
need to go through
any of this bullshit.
School is way too much
for me to take. I hate
this shit. I can't do it
anymore. I'm not perfect.
I never will be. Argh.
I just want to go to
college and never look
back. New friends.
New home. No contact
w/ anyone from AZ.
They mean nothing to
me. They're not friends.
They only bring me down.
They are my problem.
You ever ask me what's
wrong? It's probably you.
I'm through with this.
Goodbye to you
and everyone that
has ever caused me pain.
And you don't care.
I know that you don't. It's
obvious. Why do you
pretend to give a shit
about me, if you
are the one that
causes all the
pain? You make
no sense. And at
this point, you're
more concerned with
yourself and your hapiness
than anyone else that's
around you. Does
it feel good to know
you're hated? To
know you've lost
all your friends.
Everyone is so sick
of it all. And
you don't care at
all. You don't. You're
wasting your life
away and you
know it, but you
don't care about
it one fucking
bit. It amazes me.
Does it worry you?
Or are you too used
to it by now?
It's so funny that
I've spent my past
4 years pretending
to be something.
Somone to please
everyone and hope
that I would be
happy. I guess I
was wrond because
everyone has turned
against me. I've
lost my best friends
one after the
other like flies.
My one solid foundation
was supposed to be my
friends. What happend
to that idea? Yeah,
I guess that idea
failed. I have no
solid foundation
in my life. It's
only me. And I'm giving
up on myself.
I'm
done.
It's.
Not.
Worth.
It.
Anymore."
Yay for mood swings. God, I feel so unstable right now...