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music_by_night

Welcome to my Life, a one part mini-series.

Jan 12, 2006 13:38

I break my own heart. it never fails. whenever I am looking forward to doing something new, something exciting, something worthwhile that I know I'll be glad I attempted, I back down - I don't go - I walk past the door without stopping and throw out the flyer. It'll never stop and so I'll probably never be able to get what I want ( Read more... )

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kariney_baby January 13 2006, 02:43:27 UTC

oh tyler,
how i sympathize with you. some days i just feel the exact same way, and yes ranting on livejournal does help.
just keep your head up
-KARINE

86themaddy January 13 2006, 04:12:16 UTC

tyler it was so nice to see you

i dont mean to be depressing but i think we break our hearts so theres some reason to feel something other than boredom. often when we're not doing things we want to be doing we'll do almost anything to escape that feeling. most of them self destructive.

music_by_night January 13 2006, 21:26:53 UTC

yes, you may be right maddy dear.

this has become a post of my own... cherriesparks January 13 2006, 04:39:45 UTC

Hey Tyler, life is full of heartbreak. You just have to buck up and deal with it as best you can because lord knows it would be a hell of a lot easier to just crumble, however probably not as satisfying in the end. My heart hurts--sometimes its in the form of an ache, and sometimes its tragically sharp. Everyday I realize on different levels, how much I have to try now. Its hard not to cry and be bitter about having lost connections or having been seperated from those who provide me with the most gracious comfort. It's hard to feel anything but sorry for myself at being so alone in a city so vibrant and so populated with music. Oftentimes I don't understand this feeling of alienation, of isolation. I question myself, my self worth, my intelligence, my attractiveness, my social skills. I miss knowing that I am important, and that what I have to say is relevant. I miss not having to cut people off in order to enter a conversation. I miss knowing that there were other intelligent, thoughtful, trusting people who actually knew me. I'm ( ... )

liveonthefloor January 15 2006, 20:46:13 UTC

Oh geez Tyler, well dont worry you're not alone. Lots of people feel the same sorta way I think, but maybe to varying degrees. But dont worry, seriously its just a step youve gotta take and if you're so disatisfied right now, well then you'll change. You're not going to conciously STAY unhappy. I mean even knowing that right here isnt where you want to be is still a step in a better direction. Its okay to think and think and think about stuff before you actually make a move. You're bored and unhappy, thats cool! (well not really) Dont lose hope, just now go on and dont take anymore shit, or mediocraty... just do or think about what you want.

music_by_night January 17 2006, 17:17:59 UTC

thanks for the words of encouragement, Jas!

liveonthefloor January 19 2006, 06:31:38 UTC

any time mofo

hey... mmacdonald95 February 18 2006, 23:38:05 UTC

I know exactly what you’re saying... I just thought you should know that you're not alone... keep persevering and you'll make it... It's all worth it in the end... even the low times... and more so, the great times
Mel

Re: hey... music_by_night February 20 2006, 15:31:12 UTC

thanks Mel~!