I'm completely fucking shattered. I'm broken into a million pieces. It's been obvious that Graham didn't know what love was so I tried to gear him into the light. Well, he realized what I already knew... that he didn't love me yet and he might not ever get there. Unfortunately, I'm already 90% there. He won't know that until he reads this ( Read more... )

Well, my first University audition is over. York. It went awesome! I played so well and the guy who I was auditioning for loved me. He kept saying "Hope to see you next year!" I'm so excited! I think I just got into my first choice. But I'm not gonna get my hopes up because if I don't get in then it'll hurt. All I can do is hope for the ( Read more... )

I often times wonder what the hell is wrong with my decision making skills ( Read more... )

How can something so completely new and different captivate me so completely? Because it's new a different. My head is spinning. Falling hard for someone is scary. I've done it too many times and been hurt so badly. He's different. That's what I told myself before. I don't want to push him away. I feel this connection. AHHHH! So confused ( Read more... )

Well.. this weekend was one of the best weekends ever! Graham and I went downtown so that I could get my clarinet fixed and we ended up perusing through almost all the coolest stores on Queen. I was in absolute heaven. My man at my side... and anything Gothic. Can it get any better? I think not... except for Valentine's day sleepovers... LOL ( Read more... )

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I ____ Heather.
Heather is ____.
If I were alone in a room with Heather, I would _______.
I think Heather should _____.
Heather needs ______.
I want to ____________ Heather.
I think Heather's weakest point would be ________.

one word or long fragment, it doesnt matter

I can't write. Everytime I try it ends up sounding like contrived bull shit. I always feel like a poser. The world is a majorly fake place and I have no way to fit in. Fads are beyond me. They don't suit me. Nothing suits me. Except the person who understands me. The person who is exactly like me. There's a connexion. Something so weird ( Read more... )

Wow a lot can happen in a week! Someone who i wanted to notice me actually did! I now have a new boyfriend and it's really exciting. Graham is so awesome and incredibly good looking. I wish the whole world could meet him because then they would fall in love with him... wait maybe I don't want the whole world to meet him. He's mine! LOL ( Read more... )

Sometimes I just wish I could be noticed by exactly who I want to be noticed by. I guess if that happened to everyone no one would get married to the wrong people and everything would be right with the world. Fat chance of that happening. The girls I want to notice me don't and the guys are coming around ( Read more... )