Here I am, of all places, in the grad stacks, looking out on campus from a rather heightened perspective.  Who knew you could see so much from only the 6th floor?  I can see all of the rooftops...solitary and quite the eyesore.  I feel there is a good reason buildings arent often so high, even if to hide the solitary, unkempt, desolation that is ( Read more... )

I wonder what it would be like to climb to the top, look down, and take that last step.....would it be scary? Peaceful?  Would I regret it? Would I feel anything at all?  Would it end in simple darkness, nothingness?  Would it be better than this, with one less piece of insanity on the earth?  If I cant offer anything to the world, I dont want to ( Read more... )

So, first of all, I have decided that I would fail college without the help of our favorite stimulant: Mr. Caffeine.  Secondly, I have discovered that marvelous Mr. Caffeine, despite keeping me awake until the wee hours of the morning (which is clearly demonstrated on the time tag of this entry), is pretty much rejected by my body ( Read more... )

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Who sits on her boyfriends lap and practically makes out with him in the UGLi...in the quiet part...with two tables around them and right in front of a window to the other side of the library??? Libraries are for studying, NOT procreation ( Read more... )

So, my friend came to study with me...Then he fiddled with not having internet for about 1.5 hours...then he left ( Read more... )

So, I, ummm...just had the worst panic attack ever.  I was studying, which I really couldnt do because I kept dozing off.  Then it got to a point where I got really really dizzy, and couldnt really think clearly at all.  So I returned to my apartment, where I started to feel really hot and still dizzy and a little nauseous.   Then all of these ( Read more... )

My weekend has been crazy.  Ive been going strong since Thursday night, and I still havent found time to rest.  I have to go to work :(.  Im tired of south quad.  there are too many people that I dont like, and the job is soooooooo BORING.  I feel like I didnt sleep at all last night...I dont really even feel like I can move right now, yet I still ( Read more... )

Today, the second piece I have ever written was performed on piano by a friend of mine, and it was great!!!!! My professor said *This piece is too good to be so short*.  He loves the motives and thinks I could make an entire 10 minute piece out of it!  WOOOOOTTTT!  So, I was worried about this arrangement thing, but if I can manage to write an *A* ( Read more... )

Aww thanks, guys.  Im sorry you always have to read about my self-pity.  The sleep deprivation is really starting to affect my neurotransmitter production/reception.  So yeah, I feel bad for myself sometimes, but I swear, I dont sit around wondering why life sucks so much.  But thank you sooooooooo much for putting up with me, anyway ( Read more... )