I don't get sick very often. But when I do, I get really sick... Such has been the case for the last 2 1/2 days. It's really wierd to feel something you almost never feel. But I think the worst part is that I can hardly talk, even worse, I can't sing!!!

So I've been able to recall my dreams lately. This is entirely uncommon for me. I just had a dream that I was in some bizarre play, (and I was riding a horse!!!) But I did a very poor job. I was reading from a scroll at one point, and of course the words were written on the scroll, but I stuttered and stammered and did just plain horrible.

Did anyone else tear-up at conference? Especially at the last talks and song? (sigh...) I feel worlds better now.

I am quite depressed right now, and I'm not sure why. I am just so tired of fighting this battle with my past, and always feeling like I'm on the losing side. I am making progress, and many great things have dawned my understanding. But, I can't help feeling down right now. I just feel like a mess of a person, not being able to do the simpleist ( Read more... )

The only way I can describe the overwhelm of emotion that so often occurs within me, is that its like a knife in the gut. When I feel like I'm going to explode from emotion, positive of not, it is painful. But it's good, if that makes any sense. I don't know quite how to word it. An example: I can but rarely hear some music that I love because ( Read more... )

I don't remember his name, but one of the members of the first quorum of the seventy presided at our stake conference. You might know him, or recognize him in the future by the fact that he is missing his right arm. I love to here the word of God through his leaders. For that I am grateful for my bishop and stake president, both men filled with ( Read more... )

For a person who claims to not dream that often, well... here's another one ( Read more... )

I was with some friends on Chad's (one of said friends) b-day, and we reminisced a little bit. I realized that there is a whole lot that I don't remember very well, or had simply forgotten about. It's weird because I remember some things very well, but those are only tiny pieces. I'm glad I'm not who I used to be, I mean I am glad that I have ( Read more... )

I wish I had a special place. A place that has been in and with me for a time, during all my past times. But I don't have one, any at all really. I just want a place were I can remember without any hurt, without that empty yet stormy feeling I feel with my memories. It's painful. But I don't think having a quite serene corner in this world ( Read more... )

Aaaaaaaagh!