Well well, here we are at the end of another year. A time taken too look back and see the ups and downs of the lives we are living. The joys and pains of decisions made and a look ahead to the things that we so wantonly wish to change. I have personally decided to stop making useless new years resolutions because, as we all know, we never keep ( Read more... )

Well as I have been told shit rolls down hill. Back in August I lost my job at Advantage Rent A Car....1 month later I was given a job with Kids On The Block to help them out and keep them afloat. It is fun work and keeps money in my pocket. After loosing my job Jim got his job at the gas station so the rols were switched and I was home alone and ( Read more... )

I don't know why I am writing in this journal, sometimes I think it is a kind of theropy, sometimes I feel it is a good release for all the crap that is rolling around in my head and cannot let out. In any case I suppose I am using the live journal for it's intended purpose. So in about 6 hours I have to perform at a puppet show so that the company ( Read more... )

I am trying so damn hard but I don't seem able to find this "path" that everyone says I should be on. What the hell am I supposed to be doing here; I don't have the answer and I don't see that anyone else will either. Darkness is all that I see no matter how hard I look. I have no one that will share my loneliness, only those that will add to it ( Read more... )

So......here I am alone as usual on a friday night. I am so fucking sick and tired of being alone, though it has become a product of an environment I have created. I very very seldom go out and socialize, that is my biggest problem. My home is my prison, even when I have a job I only go out long enough to see those whom I work with, I make friends ( Read more... )

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this is a subject that seems to continue to arise. In one, if not my first, entries I had noted that a very attractive woman had started drawing upon me at Richards party, to which she had replied "so you think I am cute but you don't want to have sex with me" well to her I have just this to say.....my dear I would love to be able to have sex with ( Read more... )

well it finally fucking happened. Those bastards decided to wait until today to fire me from work. I took the bus all the way down there (which is about an hour ride) only to have them tell me to go back home. I am very very upset at the moment and all of this simply because I wanted to do the "right thing" and help out my fellow employee. If I had ( Read more... )

well the day has finally arrived that I was actually dreading. Because my brother is an idiot he failed to pay for the PUD and since he is terrible with his own finances someone from the PUD arrived at the door today to give us our shut off notice,I hadn't thought that they would actually kill the switch today, figured it would take a few weeks, ( Read more... )

This has been a shitty week for me, there were 2 instances where I would have lost my job and today was the clincher. My friend Moses (whom I work with) thought it a good idea to tag along while I was making a run to Seattle this evening to deliver a car. So he had me running all over the fucking city looking for a place that would get him his ( Read more... )