In conversation...
So.. I wasn't planning on writing anything here now.. but then I pressed the wrong button and... stuff... so I thought "ah what the hell..why not... "
How are you all? I've moved back to Wales and started my second year at uni.. and life is wonderful and full of aikido! :D
there..
well, what I really want to write about is this...
the title for our current project is "In conversation" which is all well and good. it's interesting.. they want us to turn it into a book somehow... that too is fun.. learning different ways of making books.. I like books.. books are cool.
But.. after the aikido practise today on my way home I though about conversations.. and all the different conversations one can have with people.. you have the cosy conversations, the cruel ones and the flirty, the sad, the good, the pointless, the "filling the awkward silence" conversations.. probably hundreds of different conversations.. which is good..
I'm not good at conversations, I can never seem to behave/"act" normal when having one with people.. Either I'm over enthusiastic and talk/say too much or so shy I hardly open my mouth.. Ah, it's not easy.. We went to the pub after practise, and this time some of the "new" aikido people came along as well, which is good.. like Awesomely good. We need more people.. And I want new friends.. so I try to be friendly.. but..it's in a nervous way.. which makes me talk fast..and say things as they pop up in my head..which doesn't always make sense.. and then I feel like they see me as a crazy person.. and.. that's not cool.
about conversations.. there are some conversations I see as pointless.. but you have them anyway.. because it's normal.. like :
1: Hey, how was your summer?
2: Hey, it was good. had fun, worked most of it.. but it was fun..
1: ah, cool..
2: ................ how was your summer?
1: it was good...
2:good..
you have no idea of how many conversations like that I've had the last two weeks... and they don't ever change. they are just awkward and horrible.. or like:
1: hey, how are you?
2: fine, and you?
1: I'm good..
2: good.
...I wonder what would happen if 2 suddenly answered "Not good at all,*insert long speech about 2's life and stuff* "
Of course it's different when it's people you know, your friends and family.. But I.. usually feel like hitting my head with a saucepan after this kind of conversation.. It's not that I don't care about the person(s) I talk with it's just.. it feels like it's expected of 2 to answer, "fine thanks, and you?" and.. arh,. do you understand what I'm trying to write here or is it just sort of making sense in my head..?
I like talking with people.. having what my mother calls "the good conversation" I love that.. or just hanging out talking about anything.. but.. some conversations just......no.. it doesn't feel natural at all... I..don't .. like them.. I noticed it more when I moved over to UK as it seems to be more common there than back home.. (or it could be that I actually go out to see people here... 8'D) the unnecessary conversations.. let's either make them useful or drop them at all?
yep.. later~
How are you all? I've moved back to Wales and started my second year at uni.. and life is wonderful and full of aikido! :D
there..
well, what I really want to write about is this...
the title for our current project is "In conversation" which is all well and good. it's interesting.. they want us to turn it into a book somehow... that too is fun.. learning different ways of making books.. I like books.. books are cool.
But.. after the aikido practise today on my way home I though about conversations.. and all the different conversations one can have with people.. you have the cosy conversations, the cruel ones and the flirty, the sad, the good, the pointless, the "filling the awkward silence" conversations.. probably hundreds of different conversations.. which is good..
I'm not good at conversations, I can never seem to behave/"act" normal when having one with people.. Either I'm over enthusiastic and talk/say too much or so shy I hardly open my mouth.. Ah, it's not easy.. We went to the pub after practise, and this time some of the "new" aikido people came along as well, which is good.. like Awesomely good. We need more people.. And I want new friends.. so I try to be friendly.. but..it's in a nervous way.. which makes me talk fast..and say things as they pop up in my head..which doesn't always make sense.. and then I feel like they see me as a crazy person.. and.. that's not cool.
about conversations.. there are some conversations I see as pointless.. but you have them anyway.. because it's normal.. like :
1: Hey, how was your summer?
2: Hey, it was good. had fun, worked most of it.. but it was fun..
1: ah, cool..
2: ................ how was your summer?
1: it was good...
2:good..
you have no idea of how many conversations like that I've had the last two weeks... and they don't ever change. they are just awkward and horrible.. or like:
1: hey, how are you?
2: fine, and you?
1: I'm good..
2: good.
...I wonder what would happen if 2 suddenly answered "Not good at all,*insert long speech about 2's life and stuff* "
Of course it's different when it's people you know, your friends and family.. But I.. usually feel like hitting my head with a saucepan after this kind of conversation.. It's not that I don't care about the person(s) I talk with it's just.. it feels like it's expected of 2 to answer, "fine thanks, and you?" and.. arh,. do you understand what I'm trying to write here or is it just sort of making sense in my head..?
I like talking with people.. having what my mother calls "the good conversation" I love that.. or just hanging out talking about anything.. but.. some conversations just......no.. it doesn't feel natural at all... I..don't .. like them.. I noticed it more when I moved over to UK as it seems to be more common there than back home.. (or it could be that I actually go out to see people here... 8'D) the unnecessary conversations.. let's either make them useful or drop them at all?
yep.. later~