Comments | mustardnketchup: fuck. this is hard.

mustardnketchup

fuck. this is hard.

Sep 08, 2003 18:11

i wish you would just stop talking to me ( Read more... )

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afteraugust September 8 2003, 15:32:17 UTC

i know. i did lie. i want it, and at the same time i want to stop. i know what i've lost to it, i know what i'm going to lose.. it's hard to understand why i can't, but i know when i say i will stop that i won't. i don't have to do so much, i don't have to do it at all, there are lots of options. i don't know why i chose the ones i did, and i realize all that i've lost, i've hurt.. i don't lie when i say i'm sorry, i don't lie when i say i miss you, or that it hurts me to know i hurt you. i don't like talking about it because i feel like i should know better, and i do.. but, i guess it's more then that, i don't know.. you don't have to talk to me if it will be easier, i won't want to just lie to you anymore. we can talk about this elsewhere though.

mustardnketchup September 8 2003, 15:37:58 UTC

dont tell me your sorry rachael.
if you miss what youve lost then prove it.

dont say youre sorry anymore. because it just hurts me even more when i have to turn my back.

lilcheerios45 September 8 2003, 15:35:25 UTC

im sorry. i know it hurts so much when onw of your friends changes right in front of you & you just see them slip away further & further. it really hurts. ive gone throught that. im here for ya

ps.
[me standing right in front of you in the morning]
"uhh i hope thats livia. i cant see anything today."

mustardnketchup September 8 2003, 15:40:36 UTC

yeah man. im like...blind. i need emo glasses like you =)

lilcheerios45 September 8 2003, 15:43:42 UTC

yeah i like styling in my so called emo glasses. but i love it i got them before they became the new thing. damn bastards for getting them. but mine have 2 dots on the sides so their not completly emo. haha but yeah im emo. some days

nullaby September 8 2003, 16:24:04 UTC

haha you freak, you called yourself emo

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vikil06 September 8 2003, 18:25:21 UTC

i dont wanna step on any toes here, but youre right nicole. heh i was really glad to see you on saturday. call me soon.

im right there with you nicole bluefairytale September 8 2003, 18:38:42 UTC

except im not going to waste an entire journal entry on a bunch of fucked up bullshit... and friendships that will never ever be the same again..
and i definatly know im not missing out on anything because my friends are better than ever right now!
.. and its honestly not worth getting hurt over and over again. thats lame