Can I Cut Away All This Pain?

[mutedtorment]

I feel so fat. So god damned fat. It makes me so disgusted with myself. Even more. How did I become this way? I never use to be this huge. In my eyes. To you all. I'm probably just fine. But to me. I'm an over weight fuck. Even if I hardly eat. But that's not my fault. It's my parentals. They. Never feed me

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:/

[colormecrimson]

parents will be the end of us all. aren't they supposed to be the encouraging, love-filled bubbles that we can run to in trying times?!
hah- that line shows cause for a good, sarcastic laugh.

I read something before- it was extremely triggering to me- about a girl carving away her flesh because she was disgusted with herself. It's so crazy how much I want to do that- just rid myself of every grotesque ounce of fat on my body. I didn't think other people thought like that but then there was this entry...*hugs* alot of things suck...

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[mutedtorment]

Yes, there are all tv shows with the perfect families, that fight about little things. And the perfect families that just happen to live next door. Nobody ever has a bad family never. It's just so unheard of... Heh.
I am deeply sorry that it was triggering. I wasn't really thinking about it at the time. And should have put it under a lj-cut, if you think I should.
Well, now you know, that you are not the only person who thinks like this... Heh, thanks -hugs-.
Aye, alot of things do suck. If only they could just vanish...

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[colormecrimson]

oh no- your entry wasn't triggering! i said I had read something before...a story somewhere about a girl who did that...it was fictional. sorry!! lol.
"If only they could just vanish..."-- I've been hoping but I guess things aren't meant to be easy :/

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[mutedtorment]

Ok just checking. I see...
Heh yeah...