Can you take me off your friends list? Half a year ago you were doing well, you had hope, you had moved on, and you were starting to feel worth something. Somewhere along the way you went backwards. I know i can't help you go foward again. I imagine even if i could you wouldn't want my help. and i'm cool with that. I don't want to be able to read this anymore, and feel the urge to try to help, especially when it's at my own expense. So take me off your list. I don't want to want to help anymore. it's breaks my heart to feel the betrayal when it all goes backwards again, and you give up and/or give in.
I'd like to personally talk to you about this message,i don't know which way you'd like to talk,honestly it's up to you-aim,phone,or in person-Not only do i promise i'm no threat at all (i don't have anything against you nor do i hate you at all) and it will only be me you'll be talking to...and honestly i'm hurt to think that you have pretty much elected to forget me and even possibly resent me when i never did the same to you no matter what everyone said.All i know is i never personally offended you which is why i'd simply like to talk to get straight what was said- maybe it's only fair to hear me out since i always did the same for you- you don't have to help- just be there for me. I wouldn't ask more from a friend. Carmen.
So, ii tried calling twice, and got no answer. You are the one that wanted to talk about it. I'd rather not. If we are going to talk about it, it will be on the phone. I won't discuss through AIM, and i'm not driving to everett. If you don't call me tonight, just think i'm a bitch or a horrible friend or whatever makes you feel best, because i am unwilling to discuss this after tonight. i want to be off your friends list. i don't want access to your LJ anymore
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I realize I haven't seen you in months, but I seriously hope your ok. Life has it's disappointments & failures, you'll find your way. As long as your happy, shouldn't that count? Make some goals for yourself, what do you want for a future. How much do you weight now?! Holy crap.
i weigh like 130 and i know life does have disappointments and faliures it's just like i'm stuck and i'm just having a hard time deciding what the first step to make things right again is. /sigh I'll figure it out
It's very hard to believe that you were over 200lbs. I thought you weren't a pound over 170lbs. I have faith in you, you've survived things that other people couldn't go through. You'll find your way, just lay off the weed--it just slows you down...literally.
Tell me about it. I've never exactly looked my weight but i'll tell you i let myself go big time and even though im much better now- yeah i have been smoking a lot less- and i constantly do stay active i just need something to put all my time and energy into.
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maybe it's only fair to hear me out since i always did the same for you-
you don't have to help-
just be there for me.
I wouldn't ask more from a friend.
Carmen.
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If the conversation comes back to me through other sources, i will be really disappointed.
i'm assuming you have the same number. if i haven't called by 4 30, go ahead and call me.
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and i know life does have disappointments and faliures it's just like
i'm stuck and i'm just having a hard time deciding what the first step to make things right again is.
/sigh
I'll figure it out
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I've never exactly looked my weight
but i'll tell you
i let myself go big time
and even though im much better now-
yeah i have been smoking a lot less-
and i constantly do stay active
i just need something to put all my time and energy into.
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