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2-14-03
Today my knees were shaky, and I could barely stand {barely breathe} Nervous fingers patted foundation onto this skin I'm so embarrassed of. I tried to line my eyes deep_&_chocolate. But they ended up as messy smears. I couldn't find my keys, than couldn't drive the car. In the parking lot I clutched my heart, because I've been waiting over 700 days for this{her}. A smile my face could remember returned. And everything was magical rain. I sat for 5 hours listening to tales of Rome, the Vatican, the celestine chapel, and the coliseum. A cafe ontop of Mt. Etna. The countryside in Sicily. Walks in the underground ruins of bathhouses used for purification. &True all of this melted my dreams and left me drunk. For she was telling me a real faery tale. But none of it compare to just sit across from her.
We hugged a million times. We locked our hands together and let them dance. We laughed at the same time, and would stare out the window {happy} My special something is back, and has filled me again. But I'm so afraid none of this is real, it’s just a dream. But I can still smell the jasmine in her hair.
Today was the best valentine I've had in awhile. And we're already making plans for midnight walks downtown, and to run away and find real drag queen shows with feathers and sequins. Perhaps Miami or Orlando? I'm going to bed the happiest I've been in years, because deep inside I am still singing welcome back star sister, I've been waiting far too long...
Love m.
{& damn that applebee's waiter, who couldn't get both our faces in the picture. attention please- looking through a camera and snapping isn't that hard.}