Comments | muzicmann12: once i wanted to be the greatest....

muzicmann12

once i wanted to be the greatest....

Apr 11, 2006 01:10

i'm going through a little bit of a life crisis right now. colleges didn't go my way, at all. i'm having a hard time dealing with that fact. i got rejected by nearly every school i really wnated to go to save three where i was i was waitlisted - bowdoin, carleton, and wesleyan, all of which i would absolutely LOVE to go to. so i'm going to be ( Read more... )

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kurdtkobain16 April 12 2006, 00:02:52 UTC

It's funny because I found your livejournal through an AMIGOS community (I went to Honduras last summer) where you had posted a bunch of pictures of Paraguay. Ever since then I added you a friend and have read your posts. For some reason your sporadic posts really affect me and I feel like I relate to you in many ways. In my town most people end up going to state schools and stay together in fraternities and soroties for the next four years. I did everything in my power to escape this. Most of my friends applied to the big-name east coast liberal arts colleges. My best friend got into Wesleyan, my other two close friend are going to Columbia, others to Colgate, Skidmore, Brown, blah blah blah. Every single one of my friends are leaving the state and heading to the east coast. When people talked about the colleges they were applying to I didn't even consider aiming that high. I purposely applied to schools that were unimpressive so that I wouldn't have to deal with rejection. I regret almost all of the schools that I have applied to ( ... )

muzicmann12 April 12 2006, 07:28:12 UTC

wow ( ... )

atireintheface April 12 2006, 00:06:33 UTC

don't let this setback slow you down.
i dont think you are being melodramatic cause I know how much this meant to you. just know that sometimes the universe unfolds as it should. whereever you go is where you are meant to be

muzicmann12 April 12 2006, 07:39:15 UTC

unfortunately i don't subscribe the whole "things happen because they're supposed to happen" belief. it's not me

i believe nothing happens for a reason. i don't think everyone ends up where they're "supposed" to end up. i think that entire credence has been made up to make people feel better about life - to make them feel like there is some order

i think life is all random. it's all just chance. there's no rhyme or reason. i don't think i'll necessarily end up where i'm supposed to end up, but at the very least i know i'll make the most of where i end up

stay strong, you'll make onlyth1smoment April 13 2006, 04:15:35 UTC

but then...you're not "supposed" to end up anywhere. there's no place that is destined to fit you perfectly.

and while things may not happen for a reason, the reason that people think that is because even when things seem really bad, they almost always turn out okay. maybe they could have been better or something, but honestly it just doesn't matter that much.

just keep focused on the future, don't worry about the bullshit that life throws at you that you have no control over. thinking about how awful it is and turning it over and over in your head just makes you more upset. IT REALLY WILL BE OKAY. be thankful for the important things in life...like health, happiness, friends, and family.

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im__broken April 12 2006, 04:17:50 UTC

i agree.

anonymous April 12 2006, 01:59:08 UTC

jason ( ... )

senoritaemily April 12 2006, 02:00:00 UTC

this is completely unrelated to anything, but my grandpa taught at UCSB, so my mom spent a year in SB when she was about.. 10? and she said she loved it. but then again she didn't go to UCSB.

i lurk on your lj, i added you, you haven't added me back but i still feel the need to comment because frankly, you remind me of me. i work my butt off in school and i'm so scared that i won't get into the college(s) of my dreams (U of Miami mostly) because I got a few Bs. and i'll see my friends going there or to duke or northwestern and i'll just be like "hey, what's up, greetigns from UF" because I feel that I worked harder than some state school that was my back up, regardless of how good of a school it is (a great one) or how much fun i will have there (a lot, i'm sure)

muzicmann12 April 12 2006, 07:41:32 UTC

i would say don't worry about it. it's not worth it, especially if it doesn't end up going your way

added you back

p.s. both my parents are gators

senoritaemily April 13 2006, 02:36:10 UTC

it's a good school (UF), public ivy or something like that, just not my cup of tea