just got home ( Read more... )

i have not felt this much hatred in a long time.
never have i been this pissed off at everything for such an extended period of time.
i want a plane ticket or a gun.
both?

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i don't know what exactly is wrong with me now, but i don't feel comfortable around people anymore. i get all nervous and anxious. i think i just need to be a hermit and only leave my house when i need to work out or get food.

yeah.thats it.

so
i dont think i'll be coming out much anymore, ok.
thanks.

im done.
i was getting drunk...too often.
like wednesday nights or monday nights.thursday,friday, saturday.
hurting my best friend.

can't be doing this anymore.
really cant.
the thing is though, i have a lot of rage to let out on some people.
so be ready for the angry sober alyssa as opposed to the angry drunk alyssa.

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so pretty much...

you're all permanantly/temporarily removed from "the list." except for seriously about 3 people.

hmm.fuck you all. goodbye.

im over so many people right now.

fucking cut.

Your beauty is like the shackles around my hands and ankles
I am your prisoner
my foolish wish is to be set free
if only you knew
that your prison is where i truly want to be.

living without hope is my strategy. you all should do the same. you will never be let down by anyone if you dont have any expectations of them. always prepared for the worst to happen. as depressing as it is, its the only way to do things.

p.s.-
I AM SO GODDAMNED SICK OF THIS TOWN.

Through the days and nights
you hold a place in the back of my mind
i battle those thoughts of you

your beauty is your greatest weapon

and with the very hope that doomed me
i hold it in my heart
for the day when thoughts of you can come into the light