Well i went and got fuicked up so i dident have to deal with life does it get any better then this i hope so life is really rough for me right now i hate life but i make what i can of it and well that aint much seens how i aint got much for me i got less then 3 months to be in this flippion town i hate it here i ahve no reason to be here now my ex ( Read more... )

Well it has been about 4 months sence me and the love of my life have not been togather and i am lost in my feelings about her i hate her in a way for breaking my heart and i love her the same for showing me that i can love and can be loved..i dont know if me loveing her is the best thing i still am deppely in love with her but the feeling aint the ( Read more... )

Today we started moving to the new house i hate it me and my cuzin are the only ones doing anything and well i get to put school on hold so i can get a job before i am homeless which right now i cant handle i one have a few more months left to be in this fucking hell hole and the day i leave will be the last day anyone in this house sees me i am ( Read more... )

Does life ever get easer i miss the one that i care so much about she was my life she was so good to me i cant stand being so far away from her its been nothing but hell sence she left my life is no longer wortrh living..it seems that the only one here for family for me is my brtoher and he means alot to me and then the one who means alot to me ( Read more... )

well it has been 4 days sence i ahve been back i dont like being here this town gives me a head acke i got in to a fight today with my uncle i want to get my GED and he wants me to get a job i am only one fucking person i cnat do everything at once i wish i could...i talked to my ex today it made everything ok.. i miss my gram so much she told me ( Read more... )

Today is just another day,another day to feel unwanted,another day to be the one to do everything wrong,another day to think about death..i feel unwanted by my sorrondings and this is the way i fealt before i left to go to Florida when i was in florida i meant something to someone well alot of people people i dident even know or dident know me ( Read more... )

Well i have been back sence yesterday im not doing to well i miss my gram so much life just seems to get harder every time i see her im not gonna be here for long ill be in berlin for 3 months then i am moving down there with her to help her and make sure things are ok i had lots of fun down there i seen my aunt and my cuzins that i ahve not seen ( Read more... )

Well it is the 18th and i am back i dont like it much i want to be back in Florida i cryed for 4hours i did not want to leave my gram i got it made down there i got everything i needed no qustions asked i spent about 2,000 dollors down there me and my gram did everything togather it was so nice not to have someone always bitching at me my gram ( Read more... )

ITs now 1030 an di am out of here in less then 5mins i wont have internet so this will be the last time i write in my journal for 2 weeks unless i stay down there and it will be the last well i got to go talk to you later....maybe

i sit and cry..i wake up with out your sweet face looking at me everyday....i miss the words I LOVE YOU come from your mouth...you said you loved me and would never leave,well you lied to me and everyone else that has ever said it lied......will i ever see you again?? will i ever hold you......will i ever kiss the lips that gave me a life worth ( Read more... )