i want to be a physics major. fuck. i really want to study math but it's too late. i want to be a cigarette connoiseur. i want to acquire a taste for pernod. i want to sleep in without being woken up by the noon heat in a pool of my own sweat. i want to be back in naperville.

so this week i have been mostly listening to do make say think (winter hymn...) and the kinks (village green..). do make say think, i believe, are probably the best "postrock" band, more subdued than most but that makes it even better. i am also a sucker for bands with 2 drummers. the kinks remind me of turner landscapes and gilbert&sullivan ( Read more... )

the burn on my arm is fucking incredible. it blistered huge and burst on the plane. then it scabbed over. the scab was very attached and i had to pull it off with my teeth and underneath the skin was all white and smooth. i can clearly see the layers of skin that have been burned away and there is a definite centimeter deep indentation. a part of ( Read more... )

i'm on this new sleeping schedule, it's very bizarre. i'll get super tired at about 8pm, and then go to sleep. then, this is the weird part, i'll wake up naturally and feeling pretty good at around 7:30am before my alarm goes off or anything. i've had some excellent dreams as well. i kissed this girl in a dream who i had a crush on in middle ( Read more... )

mementos from the week:
an easter egg taken from sheila's bush
a piece of porcelein from a bowl jeffs mom broke
a piece of glass from a cup meredith broke
a piece of wire twisted in the form of my name
a penny flattened by a train
a friendship bracelet made from colorful strands
a burst blister from a cigarette burn
a hickey
syphilis

i just did my laundry and fucked up royally. i also laundered about 5 grams of marijuana... and now i'm drying it in my microwave.

Friday, March 17 - CLEVELAND OH(CLE) to CHICAGO-MIDWAY(MDW ( Read more... )

sitting here without pants on because it's raining very hard and they got wet so i took them off and hung them over the radiator i realize i have very knobby knees. i sort of like it.

i should be writing a bullshit paper and studying for my finals. and i will, later. i think i really want to live with someone. i want to go to the beach too. even if it is cold, it's still the beach. and the waves. at night. i particularily like waves. i like bridges too. i like walking under bridges. i like standing on bridges and watching the ( Read more... )

last night i decided to do my statistics homework. i opened my book and noticed a historical note on the side of the page, about some mathematician. i then thumbed through the entire book (over 1000 pages) looking for these historical blurbs and took notes on them. i then turned my notes in place of the assigned problems. here are some of the notes ( Read more... )