all the best wishes were blown so blow out your candles - the year won
Death Cab For Cutie - The New Year
Cursive - Break In The New Year
Thursday - Jet Black New Year
[04:09:05 PM] **DINA**: hey alma
[04:09:11 PM] Alma // : heyy
[04:09:19 PM] Alma // : whats up?
[04:09:22 PM] **DINA**: nm nm
[04:09:25 PM] **DINA**: hey i have a ?
[04:09:29 PM] Alma // : okay
[04:10:01 PM] **DINA**: IF my dad lets me go to the sjelo tonight i wanna go with u,,would u be able to come,,cuz its gonna be soo much fun,,so many new pple to meet and stuff...but dont ask ur rents ne thing yet
[04:10:19 PM] Alma // : Youre not going though cause we're coming over there
[04:10:30 PM] **DINA**: I KNO lmao ,,but me and u go
[04:10:32 PM] **DINA**: not our rents
[04:10:40 PM] Alma // : I'm not going
[04:10:49 PM] **DINA**: y?
[04:11:01 PM] Alma // : I dont have anything to wear, plus I'd rather spend new years with family
[04:11:01 PM] **DINA**: u dont want to go?
[04:11:24 PM] **DINA**: o u wouldnt want to wear ur jeans skirt with ur moms heels and a cute shirt?
[04:11:41 PM] Alma // : i dont wear skirts in public
[04:11:49 PM] **DINA**: y lmao ,,,
[04:11:53 PM] **DINA**: u look soo fine in them
[04:12:02 PM] Alma // : I dont feel comfortable in them
[04:12:24 PM] Alma // : plus i dont know anyone at the sjelo, id rather stay home anyways. its justa party really
[04:12:29 PM] **DINA**: u dont,,,BUT ALMA U LOOK SOOO NICE OMG(DROOLS)
[04:12:38 PM] Alma // : Heh oh well
[04:12:55 PM] **DINA**: thats he point ,,i dunt kno ne one but like 2 pple,,and u get to meet so many new pple
[04:13:23 PM] **DINA**: it would be me and u havin fun,,meeting new pple,,dancing kolo(slow) lmao
[04:13:43 PM] Alma // : lol aldina you know i'm not a party person, there would be no point in me going
[04:14:09 PM] **DINA**: y?!?!?!??!?! U COU DHAVE SOO MUCH FUN,,CUZ honestly I DONT want to spend my new years on the computer
[04:14:31 PM] Alma // : why dont you go with alisa amira or dervisa or someone?
[04:14:39 PM] **DINA**: i wanna go out me and u ,,,have fun,,talk,, dance ,laugh ,,chiil
[04:14:53 PM] **DINA**: BECAUSE I AM NOT AN IGNORENT PERSON TO LEAV U AT MY HOUSE
[04:15:22 PM] Alma // : i wouldnt mind, really, and i'd rather stay than go out of pity anyways
[04:15:24 PM] **DINA**: +my parents wouldnt let me
[04:15:29 PM] Alma // : ah i see...
[04:15:49 PM] **DINA**: UR NOT GOING OUT OF PITTY,,AND I AM NOT THE KIND OF PERSON TO LEAVE A GIRL AT MY HOUSE WITHOUT ME THERE
[04:16:25 PM] Alma // : if the only reason you cant go is because of me then...really, i _am_ sorry but i cant go, my mom wouldnt let me anyways
[04:16:37 PM] **DINA**: oooh ic ic
[04:17:27 PM] **DINA** closed your conversation window.
[04:17:36 PM] * **DINA** is now Offline
"Sjelo" is a bosnian party. I feel bad that she can't go but she shouldn't suck up to me to get me to go either =/. And honestly, I don't want to go to some giant party with people I don't know.
I wish so badly that I could help everyone, to the point where it makes me sick. I hate it when I read these entries knowing I can't do anything except comfort you. And I hate it when I feel like I don't know my friends anymore. It's my fault, and it hurts when they tell me that I don't really 'know' them. I wish I talked to them more. I complain so much about them but they really are good people. (Yes, even Carla). So I wish them a great year too, and..just to realize when they're hurting people. And I wish that people didn't take so many things for granted, and that people were thankful for what they have. Nothing irritates me more than when people complain about 'needing' something more. So just..really think about it. I wish I talked to my family more and was closer to them, I wish I wasn't so scared to tell people I loved them. I wish I talked to a lot of people more.
And I wish the hurting would stop.
I feel like one of those people in the pageants.. "...and I wish for world peace!" *feels corny*
But I mean it, no matter how...childish and 'oversaid' everything is.
I'm not making any new years resolutions, they just lead to disappointment. I'll figure everything out on the way..you know? Meh it makes sense up here *points to head*. All I know is I'm starting over, hopefully. I'll just..forget everything in 2004 (..and 2003 and 2002 for that matter), no use staying in the past. So pretty much moving on and starting over with friends.
So...after sitting with this page open for two hours, that's all I've got. Have a great 2005 everyone, I doubt I'll be on until later tonight so...have a great one #acers, Vortexers, LJers, offline people who don't know of this journal, MSNers, AIMers...erm...I think I've got it all covered. Heh. <3 you all.
And to finish it off, a survey..
Have you ever:
Had an alter ego: no
If so, what was his/her name:--
Fainted: nope
Had a crush on a teacher: I've thought teachers were hot/cute but never had a crush on one.
Had surgery: Not that I know of
Been close to death: a few times, nothing serious. Just that I could've died if something had been done differently..o_O
Been in a car accident: yeah my dad was once driving us to school and crashed buti t wasn't huge :P
Hallucinated: Probably
Said I love you and not meant it: No
Taught a little kid a cuss word: Hahah no, I don't swear ( a lot) :P
Let go of someone and wished you hadn’t: No I've never really _had_ 'someone' to let go of...erm yeah.
Liked someone way older than you: Other than celebrities? Nah
Liked someone way younger than you: Not liked, thought was cute.
Talked to yourself: Yup :D
Talked to a stuffed animal: When I was little, I'd say goodnight to all my stuffed animals and name them and stuff. And I'd decide who was friends with who.
Danced in public: Yup
Fallen for your best friend: Nope
Flashed someone: Yeah I do it all the time...wtf no.
Cried because you missed someone: Yup
Watched nick at night: Watched..who?
Done the chicken dance: Loads of times :D. Gotta love gradeschool dances.
Given a lap dance: Hahah..no
Fell off a chair: Yup
Written on a mirror: After taking a shower, yes. I draw pictures. *nerd*
If so, what did you write: Nothing memorable, just my name and stuff.
Felt like spontaniously kissing someone: Yeah :P
Pretended not to care about someone when you really do: All the time so people don't annoy me with it
Broken down in front of someone: No one outside my family
Had a food fight: Nah, nothing more than throwing popcorn at each other in theaters.
Had one of those romantic moments like you see in movies: Hahah. Good one. No
Hated yourself: Who hasn't
Last:
Song that was stuck in your head: Coney Island - Death Cab
Person you were thinking of: some guy at school
Time you cried: yesterday
Person you hugged: Oh I hate this question..=X. I dont remember the last time I hugged anyone
Person you kissed: Never?
Person you rode in a car with: Carla, clarissa, + carla's parents
Person who told you they loved you: dont remember
Time you laughed: sometime today
Jumped on a bed: last night :D
Time you where burned: no clue
Time you bled: few weeks ago
Person you dated: Hah..haha..take a wild stab at this one.
Movie you watched: Shrek 2
Do you
Think about suicide: Yes
Believe in online dating: Not for me =/. I'd want someone to be here with me, plus people are usually different off the computer.
like cleaning: Sometimes, if I have music on I can clean and get into it
like roller coasters: Of course :D
Believe in forgiveness: Yes
Believe in love: Definitely
Believe in karma: Not really
Have any bad habits: Fidgeting, cracking arms
Believe in ghosts: For fun, yes but I dont think it's true.
Believe in fate: No
Have any birthmarks: Probably
Always want what you can’t have: depends on what youre talking about
Have any allergies: No
Type really fast: Yeah
Think miss cleo is full of shit: Haha so random but yes
Prefer short talk or deep conversation: Deep conversation
Daydream: All the time, really isnt good for me
Own a piece of clothing that is pleather: no
Use big words to sound smart: I dont need big words to sound smart ;). Hah kidding, no I'm horrible with words.
See dead people: *shifty eyes*
Have a magic 8 ball: Nope
Sing in the shower: When no ones home :D
Like your life: It could be a lot worse, I'm fine with it
Get hurt easily: Yes
Do you think you could share your heart with someone completely: Yes
Why or why not? Why..? Because I think I can love someone that much..
Number of:
Scars on your body: Erm I'm not gonna count
Things in the past you regret: One
Drugs taken illegally: 4568457...and by that I mean 0.
Close friends: I cant answer this one, confuses me..
Hearts you’ve broken: Probably my moms backin 9th grade, so one?
Times you’ve had your heart broken: none
Boys you’ve kissed: 0
Girls you’ve kissed: 0
Who/what
Was the happiest time of your life: nothing that stands out
Person you wish you could see right now: no one
Your worst enemy: I dont have one
What done with your body when you die: cremated?
What is your first unhappy memory: when dad was drunk and hitting my mom way back in bosnia (im still not sure if I dreamt this or if its real but Im not asking. I know he used to get drunk a lot and I remember that but..yeah)
Is the first thing you wash in the shower: hair
Your biggest turn on: eyes :D
Biggest turn off: uh...conceitedness
What is your weakness: no clue, you tell me
What do you think about before you fall asleep: a load of stuff
Annoys you more than anything: ungratefulness, and when people are rude to other people for no reason, simply because its 'cool'
What is the highest thing you’ve ever jumped off and not hurt yourself: no clue
What is the saddest moment of your life: dunno
What confuses you most about life: everything
What is one thing you regret: i hate these questions, die
What’s the worst feeling in the world: loneliness
What movie do you watch over and over: love actually
What are you wearing? Spongebob shirt with pj pants (Yeah I know its 5:36 pm stfu)
Cursive - Break In The New Year
Thursday - Jet Black New Year
[04:09:05 PM] **DINA**: hey alma
[04:09:11 PM] Alma // : heyy
[04:09:19 PM] Alma // : whats up?
[04:09:22 PM] **DINA**: nm nm
[04:09:25 PM] **DINA**: hey i have a ?
[04:09:29 PM] Alma // : okay
[04:10:01 PM] **DINA**: IF my dad lets me go to the sjelo tonight i wanna go with u,,would u be able to come,,cuz its gonna be soo much fun,,so many new pple to meet and stuff...but dont ask ur rents ne thing yet
[04:10:19 PM] Alma // : Youre not going though cause we're coming over there
[04:10:30 PM] **DINA**: I KNO lmao ,,but me and u go
[04:10:32 PM] **DINA**: not our rents
[04:10:40 PM] Alma // : I'm not going
[04:10:49 PM] **DINA**: y?
[04:11:01 PM] Alma // : I dont have anything to wear, plus I'd rather spend new years with family
[04:11:01 PM] **DINA**: u dont want to go?
[04:11:24 PM] **DINA**: o u wouldnt want to wear ur jeans skirt with ur moms heels and a cute shirt?
[04:11:41 PM] Alma // : i dont wear skirts in public
[04:11:49 PM] **DINA**: y lmao ,,,
[04:11:53 PM] **DINA**: u look soo fine in them
[04:12:02 PM] Alma // : I dont feel comfortable in them
[04:12:24 PM] Alma // : plus i dont know anyone at the sjelo, id rather stay home anyways. its justa party really
[04:12:29 PM] **DINA**: u dont,,,BUT ALMA U LOOK SOOO NICE OMG(DROOLS)
[04:12:38 PM] Alma // : Heh oh well
[04:12:55 PM] **DINA**: thats he point ,,i dunt kno ne one but like 2 pple,,and u get to meet so many new pple
[04:13:23 PM] **DINA**: it would be me and u havin fun,,meeting new pple,,dancing kolo(slow) lmao
[04:13:43 PM] Alma // : lol aldina you know i'm not a party person, there would be no point in me going
[04:14:09 PM] **DINA**: y?!?!?!??!?! U COU DHAVE SOO MUCH FUN,,CUZ honestly I DONT want to spend my new years on the computer
[04:14:31 PM] Alma // : why dont you go with alisa amira or dervisa or someone?
[04:14:39 PM] **DINA**: i wanna go out me and u ,,,have fun,,talk,, dance ,laugh ,,chiil
[04:14:53 PM] **DINA**: BECAUSE I AM NOT AN IGNORENT PERSON TO LEAV U AT MY HOUSE
[04:15:22 PM] Alma // : i wouldnt mind, really, and i'd rather stay than go out of pity anyways
[04:15:24 PM] **DINA**: +my parents wouldnt let me
[04:15:29 PM] Alma // : ah i see...
[04:15:49 PM] **DINA**: UR NOT GOING OUT OF PITTY,,AND I AM NOT THE KIND OF PERSON TO LEAVE A GIRL AT MY HOUSE WITHOUT ME THERE
[04:16:25 PM] Alma // : if the only reason you cant go is because of me then...really, i _am_ sorry but i cant go, my mom wouldnt let me anyways
[04:16:37 PM] **DINA**: oooh ic ic
[04:17:27 PM] **DINA** closed your conversation window.
[04:17:36 PM] * **DINA** is now Offline
"Sjelo" is a bosnian party. I feel bad that she can't go but she shouldn't suck up to me to get me to go either =/. And honestly, I don't want to go to some giant party with people I don't know.
I wish so badly that I could help everyone, to the point where it makes me sick. I hate it when I read these entries knowing I can't do anything except comfort you. And I hate it when I feel like I don't know my friends anymore. It's my fault, and it hurts when they tell me that I don't really 'know' them. I wish I talked to them more. I complain so much about them but they really are good people. (Yes, even Carla). So I wish them a great year too, and..just to realize when they're hurting people. And I wish that people didn't take so many things for granted, and that people were thankful for what they have. Nothing irritates me more than when people complain about 'needing' something more. So just..really think about it. I wish I talked to my family more and was closer to them, I wish I wasn't so scared to tell people I loved them. I wish I talked to a lot of people more.
And I wish the hurting would stop.
I feel like one of those people in the pageants.. "...and I wish for world peace!" *feels corny*
But I mean it, no matter how...childish and 'oversaid' everything is.
I'm not making any new years resolutions, they just lead to disappointment. I'll figure everything out on the way..you know? Meh it makes sense up here *points to head*. All I know is I'm starting over, hopefully. I'll just..forget everything in 2004 (..and 2003 and 2002 for that matter), no use staying in the past. So pretty much moving on and starting over with friends.
So...after sitting with this page open for two hours, that's all I've got. Have a great 2005 everyone, I doubt I'll be on until later tonight so...have a great one #acers, Vortexers, LJers, offline people who don't know of this journal, MSNers, AIMers...erm...I think I've got it all covered. Heh. <3 you all.
And to finish it off, a survey..
Have you ever:
Had an alter ego: no
If so, what was his/her name:--
Fainted: nope
Had a crush on a teacher: I've thought teachers were hot/cute but never had a crush on one.
Had surgery: Not that I know of
Been close to death: a few times, nothing serious. Just that I could've died if something had been done differently..o_O
Been in a car accident: yeah my dad was once driving us to school and crashed buti t wasn't huge :P
Hallucinated: Probably
Said I love you and not meant it: No
Taught a little kid a cuss word: Hahah no, I don't swear ( a lot) :P
Let go of someone and wished you hadn’t: No I've never really _had_ 'someone' to let go of...erm yeah.
Liked someone way older than you: Other than celebrities? Nah
Liked someone way younger than you: Not liked, thought was cute.
Talked to yourself: Yup :D
Talked to a stuffed animal: When I was little, I'd say goodnight to all my stuffed animals and name them and stuff. And I'd decide who was friends with who.
Danced in public: Yup
Fallen for your best friend: Nope
Flashed someone: Yeah I do it all the time...wtf no.
Cried because you missed someone: Yup
Watched nick at night: Watched..who?
Done the chicken dance: Loads of times :D. Gotta love gradeschool dances.
Given a lap dance: Hahah..no
Fell off a chair: Yup
Written on a mirror: After taking a shower, yes. I draw pictures. *nerd*
If so, what did you write: Nothing memorable, just my name and stuff.
Felt like spontaniously kissing someone: Yeah :P
Pretended not to care about someone when you really do: All the time so people don't annoy me with it
Broken down in front of someone: No one outside my family
Had a food fight: Nah, nothing more than throwing popcorn at each other in theaters.
Had one of those romantic moments like you see in movies: Hahah. Good one. No
Hated yourself: Who hasn't
Last:
Song that was stuck in your head: Coney Island - Death Cab
Person you were thinking of: some guy at school
Time you cried: yesterday
Person you hugged: Oh I hate this question..=X. I dont remember the last time I hugged anyone
Person you kissed: Never?
Person you rode in a car with: Carla, clarissa, + carla's parents
Person who told you they loved you: dont remember
Time you laughed: sometime today
Jumped on a bed: last night :D
Time you where burned: no clue
Time you bled: few weeks ago
Person you dated: Hah..haha..take a wild stab at this one.
Movie you watched: Shrek 2
Do you
Think about suicide: Yes
Believe in online dating: Not for me =/. I'd want someone to be here with me, plus people are usually different off the computer.
like cleaning: Sometimes, if I have music on I can clean and get into it
like roller coasters: Of course :D
Believe in forgiveness: Yes
Believe in love: Definitely
Believe in karma: Not really
Have any bad habits: Fidgeting, cracking arms
Believe in ghosts: For fun, yes but I dont think it's true.
Believe in fate: No
Have any birthmarks: Probably
Always want what you can’t have: depends on what youre talking about
Have any allergies: No
Type really fast: Yeah
Think miss cleo is full of shit: Haha so random but yes
Prefer short talk or deep conversation: Deep conversation
Daydream: All the time, really isnt good for me
Own a piece of clothing that is pleather: no
Use big words to sound smart: I dont need big words to sound smart ;). Hah kidding, no I'm horrible with words.
See dead people: *shifty eyes*
Have a magic 8 ball: Nope
Sing in the shower: When no ones home :D
Like your life: It could be a lot worse, I'm fine with it
Get hurt easily: Yes
Do you think you could share your heart with someone completely: Yes
Why or why not? Why..? Because I think I can love someone that much..
Number of:
Scars on your body: Erm I'm not gonna count
Things in the past you regret: One
Drugs taken illegally: 4568457...and by that I mean 0.
Close friends: I cant answer this one, confuses me..
Hearts you’ve broken: Probably my moms backin 9th grade, so one?
Times you’ve had your heart broken: none
Boys you’ve kissed: 0
Girls you’ve kissed: 0
Who/what
Was the happiest time of your life: nothing that stands out
Person you wish you could see right now: no one
Your worst enemy: I dont have one
What done with your body when you die: cremated?
What is your first unhappy memory: when dad was drunk and hitting my mom way back in bosnia (im still not sure if I dreamt this or if its real but Im not asking. I know he used to get drunk a lot and I remember that but..yeah)
Is the first thing you wash in the shower: hair
Your biggest turn on: eyes :D
Biggest turn off: uh...conceitedness
What is your weakness: no clue, you tell me
What do you think about before you fall asleep: a load of stuff
Annoys you more than anything: ungratefulness, and when people are rude to other people for no reason, simply because its 'cool'
What is the highest thing you’ve ever jumped off and not hurt yourself: no clue
What is the saddest moment of your life: dunno
What confuses you most about life: everything
What is one thing you regret: i hate these questions, die
What’s the worst feeling in the world: loneliness
What movie do you watch over and over: love actually
What are you wearing? Spongebob shirt with pj pants (Yeah I know its 5:36 pm stfu)