interogating...big word..is that even how u spell that...y am i asking ppl who really aren't goin to answer. god! i'm not using big words ne more. ok, so , not much to tlk about. i'm done dressin like a prep! i'm gonna be my normal emo-ish self! yay! i can listen to my music freely. and kik ass! lol. jk. so id ask wut is up. but i don't kno who i'm ( Read more... )

ok. this is the entry in which i must really thank my good friends ashton and matt! i absolutely love u guys. ok. matt. thank u so much for helpin me move on from all of the stuff thats happened in the past couple years. i'm happy like those couple days *;)*! i love u so much! and ashton. thank u so much for helpin find my identity. i went to skool ( Read more... )

so. here's my day. went to skool like totally myself. yes guys. i wore my vans sweatshirt. and so had a good day. ok. i have the stupidest science fair project to do! but we get to pik it. me and debony..(love u) are doing the male and female brains. and we have to make a of each. dude! we're making the male brain smaller than the female ( Read more... )

I think im finally starting to live my life. i don't need ne one but myself u kno. not that i don't absolutely love my friends. especially matt and ashton ;). not that i'm not still totally in the depths. cuz i'm sittin here in black eyeliner and studs. i mean. for all u skeptics. thats who i am. i would prefer black to pink neday. but. i guess ive ( Read more... )

wow. ok. lots, but not lots to tlk about. i feel so alone. but not so alone cuz i have so many friends. i think i'll just put a song in this entry ( Read more... )

depression + ice cream = nothing witha good outcome

i'm upstairs. the doorbell rings. my mother runs upstairs crying. i can hear ppl speak but i have no idea wut they are saying. i am told to stay upstairs. my grandparents come. the door shuts behind my hysterical mother and suddenly my mom, dad and brother of 16 are gone. i jumped into hysterics thinking my father had a heart attack (he was having ( Read more... )

yeah....i cannot believe myself. i like totally lead myself to believe that sean actually wanted me. no. he doesn't.others that shall remain nameless just happened to conveniently tell me that he was dumping his gf. i mean, even tho she cheats and does things that he shouldn't put up w/, he still dates her. but i'm not gonna judge him. its his ( Read more... )

Everything i know is falling apart. it's horrible. have you ever felt like you were a stranger to yourself? yeah, well, that's pretty much how i feel. like, i expect something to go one way, it gets halfway there. and then it takes a complete u turn from there. like w/ one of my best friends. BEST friends. we're two years different in age. and now ( Read more... )

so. this has been the most boooring fall break ever ( Read more... )