There's a lot going on. Im just not sure what to write about it all.

Im really happy right now. I mean, its lovely. I'll be even happier in four months (well, I hope,) but I'm really content.

for the first time in a couple of months I feel genuinely excited about the future.

I like this.

So tonight I feel this relief ( Read more... )

I wish that I had the soundness of mind to tell him how much I respect him when he makes a decision that I don't necessarily like, but that I know is best. I wish that I could stop the moment of silent rebellion and tell him how wonderful he is and that he shouldn't worry about any of this, because I think he's really great ( Read more... )

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These are my best friends. I couldn't live without them.

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SO I know what I want and what I need... and those things go against what feels good and what is the most fun. For instance, I NEED and WANT to finish these next five months and let the Lord do some major healing and transforming in my heart. I need this because I am broken and still hurting from past relationships and let-downs and lies. I need ( Read more... )

i feel almost silly... all I want to do is spend time with him and make him laugh.

how am I going to last 5 more months?

go faster time! GO FASTER!!!!!

sometimes I think that I would like to see into my future. Not skip ahead all the way to the end of my story, just a few chapters. Sometimes everything feels bleak and lonely and I wonder how much longer will I have to wait until I get to the good parts. And yet, this should be the good part. Right now. Today ( Read more... )

i want to do something fun and interesting tomorrow.

what I will probably end up doing is getting my oil changed.

not very fun OR interesting. oh well.

Oh how I LOOOVE this weather ( Read more... )