"She hates the words 'fruit of thy womb.'" 

My body is out to sabotage me.

and so I sow the seeds of suggestion, and set the motion in play.

Hopefully this'll pay off.

All this furious talking, scheming and speculating, but no listening.
So quick to offer our opinions and advice, naught but a sieve between the brain and the mouth.

Verbal diarrhea, all of it.

I've nothing of value to say.

"Nowadays everybody wanna talk like they got something to say
But nothin comes out when they move they lips
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I went through my Paris pictures on a whim just now, and I gotta say...

Sometimes I look back at myself and I'm amazed at some of the things I found myself capable of doing. Even if they don't seem that big or scary or important to anyone else.

But that's what life comes down to sometimes, when our vanity gets the best of us - wanting to be somebody's muse.
And not just anybody at that,  but a somebody.

I'm really liking the Ting Tings album. Andrew gave it to me (along with a shit load of other music) back in Oz, but I never really listened to the entire album until this cold spell we've been having. I like it.

www.youtube.com/watch

Jodie Holland isn't so bad either.

I posted this originally on October 13, 2005, during Freshman year...

"
since when has it come down to this?

wanting nothing but to party, kiss drunk boys and get hammered?
                                                                                                                          "

That was probably the beginning of my demise.

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I'm on a subconscious mission to destroy myself.

... and what better way to do it than self-loathing, disgust and alcohol? 

to the end you've been unable to admit it.

I'll probably never forgive you - ever.