Well, I lost the one I wanted to be with all of my life. The one that said she would never leave, and said that she would never hurt me. Promises are as frail as snowflakes. The first sing of ehat and they melt away. I hurt so bad right now, I don't wish this hurt upon anyone. This was my fault. I didn't trust her, and I didn't give her space, and ( Read more... )

I don't know what I'd do ( Read more... )

Ah, love. It is such a wonderful thing. I never thought I would love someone again, BUT I WAS WRONG! I am more in love now than I ever have been, and I have never been happier. Now if only she could open up her heart and let me in. I will wait, it's killing me, but I will wait. It's like christmas eve....but christmas never comes. I love her with ( Read more... )

I really miss you lauren, I know we are on break, but it feels like it is no different. I like that. I hope you have fun tonight, I know you need it, but I just don't want you to do anything bad, no drinking or any of that. I just don't want to see something happen to you. All I want is for you to be ok. That way we can be ok. I can't wait til I ( Read more... )

I LOVE YOU!!!!

Well, basically Lauren came out to my house last weekend and it was great. I took her around and took her to the OUTBACK. Which is my favorite restaurant ever! We got in a lot of fights though. Tons!, even after we agreed not to we still did. It eventually ended and and after that It was the greatest time I have ever had. I was soooo ( Read more... )

God I hate money, it seems like no matter how much of it you make, you always seem to get behind, and once you are there...you can't get ahead. I am trying though. It will all work out I think. On the bright side, Lauren is making it so I can come out and visit her this next weekend, I am so happy. I can't wait to see her. I miss her soooooo much. ( Read more... )

I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT LAUREN!!!

She Makes me so Frickin happy. We do fight, but so does everyone else. It's natural. I can't wait to see her again. It will be great, absolutely great!!!! Until I will wait and wait. My life is pretty messed up right now, but it will all work itself out I hope, anyway I have to PEE so I am gonna go, bye bye

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I am so sick of arguing with lauren. Thats all we did today, but she doesn't understand that when she is in a grumpy mood to me, it puts me in the same mood. I have tried telling her that, but she apparently doesn't listen. Then she wants me to do something, and when I say ok, she gets mad at me and starts yelling at me. I don't know what I am ( Read more... )

So yeah, Lauren is totally passed out. I can't sleep cause I slept too late today. So I guess I am gonna just sit on the computer until I get tired. I wish she was still awake, I waited 2 weeks to get to see her, and she just falls asleep. It just makes me miss her more. I want to hold her, and look in her eyes. Tell her I love her. All the stuff ( Read more... )

Live Journal, man this is the most I have updated in forever. I guess that’s because I actually have something good to talk about. So Lauren turns 17 in 2 months, I feel like a pedophile. I know I’m not, but yeah. Anyway, and I get to see her in 4 days! Friday needs to get here fast!!!! I miss her a lot. I am talking to her right now about her ( Read more... )