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myaxe

Crap in, Crap out …

Nov 29, 2004 17:40

Hi all,

In an attempt to provide, at the very least, a somewhat entertaining BLOG entry, I have attempted to document my thoughts periodically throughout the day. Probably didn't turn out well - probably don't care :)

( Enjoy )

Comments 11

scrubbedpotato November 30 2004, 00:47:41 UTC

I think people are afraid to admit how much they think about death, and as a result, people feel that even thinking about the death of their loved ones is some kind of betrayal or mark of cold-heartedness. In reality, it is both a mark of the depth of feeling and an important exercise in preparation for the worst so that when the worst happens, as it often does, we DON'T just curl up under the porch and die.

Actually ... myaxe November 30 2004, 01:00:19 UTC

My family likes to poke fun at my macabre thoughts. I feel that I am being realistic, they feel I am overly dramatic. As I said to you during your visit, I've read all the material. I've done the research. I know what is to be expected - even death, which happens in a good number of these sorts of pregnancies.

I only feel it wise to, at the very least, mention this possibility. I don't do it every second and I do hope for the best - as I'm certain I would have been done with this a lot sooner had I not wanted them - but I feel it fool hearty not to mention the very real possibility, and perhaps guilt, of such a thing happening.

That and I'm tired of being made to feel that, if these children die, it is somehow my fault. Fucking Christ - I have no control over what goes on in there. As if I could change anything of any real consequence at this point.

Sorry, I didn't mean to bog you down with such ridiculous spittle as comes from my mouth, but I just felt like maybe you wouldn't mind.

Luv & all that,

Hollie

Re: Actually ... scrubbedpotato November 30 2004, 19:43:37 UTC

I hope no one would blame you if you miscarried- but people who are hurting can be small and spitefull. As long as YOU know that these things are pretty much out of your control...

I happen to quite thouroughly enjoy ridiculous spittle, in fact it is my favorite kind of spittle, next to spittle Skittles that is. Taste the rainbow!

beer_snob November 30 2004, 02:42:20 UTC

anyone that would even consider suggesting that if something bad happens its your fault should just go to hell dammit! There are circumstances out of our control. I don't necessarily have any great advice or revelation to share with you other than the fact that the load you perceive to be too heavy for your friends can be evenly distributed among us. There is not a person in our circle for sure that would have you bear this burden alone. whatever we can do for you we will. that, my dear, is why we are here. so, voice your fears and vent your frustrations. besides, this is your blog and you can do what you want. and we are your friends and we will be here for you however we can. I love you and think of you often
sarah lynn

recycling November 30 2004, 15:10:32 UTC

I don't know what the hell happened to you at 1:50 pm, but it certainly sounds interesting..at the very least. I miss me some volcanic ash somethin' fierce.

Good to see you posting, though! And that you were (or potentially still are) chipper!

:) myaxe November 30 2004, 17:07:35 UTC

I could've said snow, but it seemed so fucking trite! Besides - I think, deep down inside, we all miss our volcanic ash, even just a little.

;) ~H

jasonanonymous November 30 2004, 15:48:01 UTC

If we ever get to the UK, I'm gonna moon the Queen, I swear to God.

~Jason

myaxe November 30 2004, 17:04:00 UTC

The scary part is that I'm sure you will, dear. I'm sure you'll be waving your arms around hollering and spreading your ass cheeks in her general direction right up until the point when you're arrested. Hell you might even hoot a few more times as they shove you in the paddy.

~H

jasonanonymous November 30 2004, 23:25:06 UTC

THE QUEEN MUST SEE MY ANUS.

~Jason

kenopolis December 2 2004, 21:43:21 UTC

British paddy wagons are cool.

kenopolis December 2 2004, 21:49:41 UTC

Try to remember just 2 things.

1. The key to happiness is simply doing what makes you happy.

2. um... okay, just one thing.

Seriously though, If you find yourself getting down, to something that makes you happy.

Maybe you could do something to help the community.
Steal some of those ugly magnetic "ribbons" that are popping up everywhere. You will be doing some community service by removing a pop culture blight on our society. And you will be helping charity by forcing the idiot who bought it in the first place, to have to buy an new one to replace it. (I'm assuming that a portion of the procedes to to charity) Thus they donate to charity again! It's a win win situation!!!