I should never have been upset at Devin for trying cocaine. Maybe I was just upset because I couldn't find the balls to do it. The truth is, I do want to try cocaine. I want to destroy myself. I want to fuck anyone that I'm attacted to. I want to get drunk every weekend. I want to smoke weed in the middle of the day everyday. I just want to destroy ( Read more... )

Shoot the kids at school ( Read more... )

I'm not ever gonna grow up. I wanna dye my hair. I want Courtney Love blonde. I want purple. I want a monroe. I want tattoos. I want to wear leather jackets with studs and a huge fucking fiend skull on the back. I wanna wear tight black denim with tons of studded belts. I want to be fucking crazy. I wanna live. I wanna go insane. I'm angry. I'm ( Read more... )

You smashed up my everything ( Read more... )

20 years. I've learned many many things. Men lie. They fuck their ex-girlfriends and friends behind your back. They lie about it. They put on the "happy face". I've learned that the only thing you can count on is yourself. The only important thing to focus on is education and bettering yourself. And that there's nothing better than sex, drugs, and ( Read more... )

Everything makes sense after you come down. I was so high. High for hours. And then I came down. The air was just a little bit colder. I need to feel this. I want to feel that. I keep looking at the clock and it disappoints me. I don't want to sleep the day away but I'm going to be so tired ( Read more... )

It's so funny to me. Men. How easy it is to post "I love you so much, I can't wait to live with you" but you're still talking to your ex-girlfriend. How people can be so loving to your face and then do so many things behind your back. Everyone cheats. I have never cheated on anyone. I'm sure I have been cheated several times if it's that easy to ( Read more... )

I don't feel so well. I don't stand a chance. I should leave you alone completely. I don't need to see you. I don't need to be around you. I want to see you. I want to be around you. I wish I had never opened myself up to you. I wish you had never opened me up. I wish that I had just listened to myself. I knew it would be wrong. I'm so down. I don' ( Read more... )

I don't know when I'll have time to get myself together. I've tried it several times and failed. So maybe I used just do it my own way. Depend on myself. I don't know when I'll have the time or the mind to study. I don't know. Everything is so crazy. I want love. I want something to get my mind off of him. I can't stop it. The pictures of them ( Read more... )

Why do I care ( Read more... )