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soemtimes i think i should give up
especially after nights like last night.. im so mad at myself right now, but im trying to get over it and see this as a new day and use my failure to push me to do well for the rest of the weekend.. knowing how i feel now can be great inspi for not eating for the weekend, cuz now i know how i feel.. disgusting, bloated, full, nasty, nauseous, fat ( Read more... ) -
oops.. .
from yesterdays post ( Read more... ) -
a new day
but i still feel fat.. sorry for tmi but i feel constipated, and i know that my body wants to release that f*in food i ate last night.. its punishing me for giving in.. thats the last time i put something in my mouth (thats what she said).. anyway i ended up with net 75 cals last night, which kinda wants to make me barf (no pun intended).. so today ( Read more... ) -
i f*in hate myself
as per the usual, i was doing fine all day, until i had those damn pieces of fruit.. by dinnertime i had only 36 cals worth of whatever.. then i ate 3 more almonds (21).. but by the end of the night i had a salad and onion rings (f*in shoot me), and skyrocketed myself up to 310 cals.. f*ck, f*ck, f*ck.. then i killed my legs and body and played DDR ( Read more... ) -
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i will only eat 3 more almonds, and a diet coke today for a total of 23 cals -
so i find myself here..
again.. well i guess not again, but always.. just back again here on LJ ( Read more... ) -
Storytime with Dad
While the street lay dark ( Read more... )