Day 152A: I saw Cherry Cordial while shopping
Mybrotherkills2 (1:17:12 AM): Kristen!
Astra Intueor (1:17:16 AM): hi!
Mybrotherkills2 (1:17:24 AM): How are you?
Astra Intueor (1:17:47 AM): good
Astra Intueor (1:17:49 AM): and you?
Mybrotherkills2 (1:18:36 AM): Um...I'm actually quite a bit...I'm EEEEEEEE (From Amy), feeling really stupid and buzzed (I had 6 pieces of chocolate at once and it turns out they had liquor centers)
Astra Intueor (1:18:55 AM): *bites lip*
Astra Intueor (1:19:03 AM): that's...brilliant in its own special way
Mybrotherkills2 (1:19:11 AM): Feel free to laugh if you want
Mybrotherkills2 (1:19:13 AM): I have already
Astra Intueor (1:19:47 AM): *grin*
Mybrotherkills2 (1:20:05 AM): Awwwwwww
Mybrotherkills2 (1:20:08 AM): She smiled
Astra Intueor (1:20:24 AM): doesn't seem to have affected you all that much
Mybrotherkills2 (1:20:50 AM): I had a 20 min conversation with Beth using "Y, *hugs* and YAY"
Astra Intueor (1:21:05 AM): again, seems fairly normal...
Mybrotherkills2 (1:21:24 AM): heh, I feel different...
Mybrotherkills2 (1:21:52 AM): but I find that amusing that I'm still pretty much normal
Astra Intueor (1:22:20 AM): heh
Mybrotherkills2 (1:22:43 AM): If I tried to have a conversation in person, I think you might be able to tell
Mybrotherkills2 (1:23:29 AM): I dislike the alcohol, it ruins my "Amy high"
Astra Intueor (1:23:36 AM): awww
Astra Intueor (1:23:38 AM): poor thing
Mybrotherkills2 (1:23:48 AM): Heh...just stupid
Mybrotherkills2 (1:24:07 AM): Love is a high no drug can top
Astra Intueor (1:24:49 AM): that gets both a "..." and an "awwwww"
Mybrotherkills2 (1:24:55 AM): heh
Mybrotherkills2 (1:24:59 AM): it evens out
Astra Intueor (1:25:04 AM): heh
Mybrotherkills2 (1:26:13 AM): Awwwww
Mybrotherkills2 (1:26:18 AM): I miss my Amy
Astra Intueor (1:26:28 AM): when was the last time you saw her?
Mybrotherkills2 (1:26:33 AM): I haven't seen her in 11 days
Mybrotherkills2 (1:27:18 AM): I at least have the luxury of seeing her once a week (which in itself isn't much in my opinion)
Mybrotherkills2 (1:27:24 AM): but not recently
Mybrotherkills2 (1:27:28 AM): And I really do miss her
Mybrotherkills2 (1:27:38 AM): I'm sorry
Mybrotherkills2 (1:27:45 AM): I'm....rambling...
Mybrotherkills2 (1:31:02 AM): I feel so lax...Grrr to this chocolate of doom
Astra Intueor (1:31:04 AM): I mean...I wish he were closer now, but he'll be back and he only lives a five minute walk away most of the year
Astra Intueor (1:31:15 AM): grrr upon laxness?
Mybrotherkills2 (1:31:54 AM): Upon alcoholic laxness
Astra Intueor (1:32:06 AM): ah
Astra Intueor (1:32:10 AM): fair enough...
Astra Intueor (1:32:15 AM): not that I have much to compare to
Astra Intueor (1:32:19 AM): but I'll believe you
Mybrotherkills2 (1:32:55 AM): Well it's just my mind is a bit disoriented
Mybrotherkills2 (1:33:23 AM): and I don't know if one can feel inhibitions
Mybrotherkills2 (1:33:28 AM): but I don't feel inhibited
Astra Intueor (1:35:21 AM): interesting
Mybrotherkills2 (1:35:52 AM): Is that so?
Astra Intueor (1:36:24 AM): yup
Mybrotherkills2 (1:37:01 AM): Why?
Astra Intueor (1:37:39 AM): never thought about feeling inhibitions before
Mybrotherkills2 (1:38:24 AM): oh?
Astra Intueor (1:38:30 AM): but from what you say, it feels a lot like being awake for forty-eight hours straight
Mybrotherkills2 (1:38:40 AM): Heh, I've had a few of those
Astra Intueor (1:38:44 AM): yeah
Mybrotherkills2 (1:38:57 AM): Don't tell me you've thought that inhibitions are just subconscious
Astra Intueor (1:39:08 AM): I don't really think about them much
Astra Intueor (1:39:10 AM): they're...there
Astra Intueor (1:39:16 AM): rather very much a part of me
Mybrotherkills2 (1:39:33 AM): Aye
Mybrotherkills2 (1:40:02 AM): For example, my inhibitions became a part of me by my own design
Astra Intueor (1:40:39 AM): oh
Astra Intueor (1:40:49 AM): I was...raised with mine
Astra Intueor (1:41:01 AM): if that makes sense
Mybrotherkills2 (1:41:08 AM): It does
Mybrotherkills2 (1:41:33 AM): Most people usually are...or at least i believe so
Mybrotherkills2 (1:41:47 AM): I, frankly, wasn't
Mybrotherkills2 (1:42:11 AM): I have my inhibitions because I felt I needed them...they never were a part of me, I doubt they ever will be
Astra Intueor (1:42:59 AM): surely you have some innate inhibitions...
Astra Intueor (1:43:45 AM): the fact that you feel the need to create more rather suggests it
Mybrotherkills2 (1:43:59 AM): Possibly, but how would you know which inhibitions were innate and which were man-made
Astra Intueor (1:44:43 AM): mmm...I'd say a lot of your vocal inhibitions and the ones relating to your behavior in public are more man made
Astra Intueor (1:44:58 AM): the ones having to do with how much of yourself you reveal of yourself to others seem more innate
Mybrotherkills2 (1:45:19 AM): That sounds about right
Mybrotherkills2 (1:45:21 AM): Nicely done
Mybrotherkills2 (1:45:24 AM): *applauds*
Astra Intueor (1:45:34 AM): and the ones about the way you treat other people at a very basic level (repect for their wishes and they're absolute boundaries) and such seem innate as well
Astra Intueor (1:45:42 AM): *their
Mybrotherkills2 (1:45:57 AM): Correct again, Miss James
Astra Intueor (1:46:08 AM): yay!
Astra Intueor (1:46:25 AM): so, to answer your question...I have no idea how to tell the difference, but I guess it can be done
Mybrotherkills2 (1:46:33 AM): Bravo
Astra Intueor (1:47:00 AM): *bows*
Astra Intueor (1:47:10 AM): ...I seem to do that a lot when I'm talking to you
Astra Intueor (1:47:12 AM): how strange
Mybrotherkills2 (1:47:21 AM): Heh, both "buzzed" and "sober"
Astra Intueor (1:47:27 AM): ?
Mybrotherkills2 (1:47:41 AM): Well I'm not exactly in the clearest of thoughts
Astra Intueor (1:48:22 AM): no, not really
Mybrotherkills2 (1:49:00 AM): Does that mean you're agreeing with me?
Mybrotherkills2 (1:49:06 AM): Just to double-check
Astra Intueor (1:49:14 AM): that you're not in the best of "thoughts"?
Astra Intueor (1:49:19 AM): yes, I agree with that
Mybrotherkills2 (1:49:25 AM): Thanks
Mybrotherkills2 (1:49:31 AM): I needed a bit of clarification
Astra Intueor (1:49:36 AM): your mental state might be a little iffy, too
Mybrotherkills2 (1:49:56 AM): Is that so?
Mybrotherkills2 (1:50:01 AM): Can I ask why?
Astra Intueor (1:50:37 AM): you're phrasing things in ways you don't normally...I can't really give examples, you just - are
Mybrotherkills2 (1:51:10 AM): Hmmm...is that a bad thing?
Astra Intueor (1:52:23 AM): not really
Astra Intueor (1:52:33 AM): just a sign that you're not in your normal frame of mind
Mybrotherkills2 (1:52:41 AM): My apologizes, Miss James
Mybrotherkills2 (1:52:57 AM): But for obvious reasons, I'm a bit in disorder
Astra Intueor (1:53:56 AM): oh, don't worry about it at all
Mybrotherkills2 (1:54:13 AM): Alright
Astra Intueor (1:54:14 AM): it's not like you went out and got sloshed at a party just because you felt like it
Astra Intueor (1:54:19 AM): you just ate chocolate
Mybrotherkills2 (1:55:13 AM): Heh, I've resisted the "temptation" of getting drunk, doing stupid and immature things and waking up to a morning of sickness and regret for months...no reason to start now
Mybrotherkills2 (1:55:56 AM): Besides, nothing is more enthralling than the feeling I get at the slightest thought of my Amy
Astra Intueor (1:56:18 AM): awwwww
Mybrotherkills2 (1:56:51 AM): Although, I do despise the rumor that is going around...not so much for my sake, but for Amy's...
Astra Intueor (1:57:01 AM): ...there's a rumor?
Mybrotherkills2 (1:57:39 AM): Apparently...someone's been spreading a nasty rumor that I cheated on Crystal with Amy...
Astra Intueor (1:57:48 AM): what the heck?
Astra Intueor (1:57:56 AM): the timeline's not even close...
Mybrotherkills2 (1:58:17 AM): I know, but it still gets to me
Mybrotherkills2 (1:58:19 AM): it still stings
Astra Intueor (1:58:20 AM): guh! why must people create drama where none is needed?
Mybrotherkills2 (1:58:26 AM): it still brings a tear to my eye
Mybrotherkills2 (1:58:29 AM): I don't know
Mybrotherkills2 (1:58:39 AM): Why are people so cruel?
Astra Intueor (1:59:17 AM): *sigh* I have no idea
Mybrotherkills2 (1:59:52 AM): I thought I could trust these 'friends' of mine...some of them will still come up to me with a smile and offer a gentle hug and yet believe this rumor like it's the Word of God
Astra Intueor (2:00:11 AM): is this from Edison?
Mybrotherkills2 (2:00:15 AM): Apparently
Astra Intueor (2:00:38 AM): I guess, in some ways, that's the price
Mybrotherkills2 (2:00:40 AM): a few friends that my brother Jackson and I share believe in this rumor (Obviously, my brother doesn't)
Mybrotherkills2 (2:00:44 AM): The price?
Astra Intueor (2:00:54 AM): everything has a price, somewhere, somehow
Mybrotherkills2 (2:01:03 AM): Too true, Miss James...
Mybrotherkills2 (2:01:06 AM): Too true...
Astra Intueor (2:01:06 AM): sometimes you hardly notice, sometimes it's ridiculoud
Astra Intueor (2:01:07 AM): s
Astra Intueor (2:01:10 AM): ridiculous
Astra Intueor (2:01:18 AM): ..this is a horrid angle to type at
Mybrotherkills2 (2:01:28 AM): Are you typing upside down as well?
Astra Intueor (2:01:58 AM): and, for Amy, since she's still in high school, you get the high school drama and immaturity that surround her (not that she's immature or overly dramatic)
Astra Intueor (2:02:05 AM): um...sort of upside down
Mybrotherkills2 (2:02:08 AM): Ah
Astra Intueor (2:02:13 AM): more of from under the keyboard
Mybrotherkills2 (2:02:16 AM): Ah
Mybrotherkills2 (2:02:26 AM): Yes, that I do
Astra Intueor (2:02:38 AM): I'm guessing she's worth it?
Mybrotherkills2 (2:02:50 AM): Yep
Mybrotherkills2 (2:02:59 AM): She's helped me more than anyone will ever know
Astra Intueor (2:03:02 AM): ^_^
Astra Intueor (2:03:07 AM): I'm glad
Mybrotherkills2 (2:03:18 AM): Thank you kindly, Miss James
Astra Intueor (2:03:19 AM): everyone needs someone like that in their lives
Astra Intueor (2:03:28 AM): and you deserve it more than most
Mybrotherkills2 (2:03:34 AM): Awwwww...I disagree
Astra Intueor (2:03:39 AM): I know you do
Mybrotherkills2 (2:03:41 AM): but it's still touching nonetheless
Astra Intueor (2:03:43 AM): but I stand by it
Mybrotherkills2 (2:03:56 AM): Who am I to challenge your beliefs?
Astra Intueor (2:04:09 AM): heh
Part two is on the next post