si une fois qu'il y avait un temps pour la fin de la guerre, il est maintenant ( Read more... )

my entry is about oNe person and one alone.(save myself as this is, after all, my journal ( Read more... )

it is like i need you to stand in my street, screaming my name. it is like i need you to retreat, but not too far. give me attention but not too little and please not enough. if i were the queen of hearts you would all have no head. im always displeased with myself, dispirited and annoyed that i am not simply one whole human, but seemingly 6 or ( Read more... )

how can you even say a thing when you have no room to say it. to ask for more would be a step too much for this to be handled. for me to feel this way when you have been with another should not have been an emotion i now possess. what do i do. i dont even know what to say to you.

for she shall find us pure, and in time, i hope you forgive me and understand that i had no other option. what i have done to us will save you. for me there is no hope. for you, such a beautiful wife you will some day your husband make. i stare at these lights with the tears of death on my face, stare at her, our mother of the night sky, and know ( Read more... )

if i could take back everything i have said and done, i am no longer sure i would. perhaps i have become resigned with the facts and truth about life or perhaps i have the strength or will to lock those things i have done away from my heart or soul, allow no access to these memories to either my being or consciousness, in fact i might simply deny ( Read more... )

I'll sing it one last time for you ( Read more... )

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it comes soon now ( Read more... )

i despise this laptop as it keeps deleting everything i write, even more had i despised people for the things i have been through, and somedays you can wake up with a chip on your soul, and some days you just dont care and dont wake up at all. the past is gone, but still i forget. i wasted some years on people and some would know if they saw this, ( Read more... )