Comments | mydarkestsecret: side by side they go down the road, it's my road, once more alone

vivian in mydarkestsecret

side by side they go down the road, it's my road, once more alone

Jan 13, 2007 20:24

And the thing is, there have been stories about loup-garoux who have fallen in love with humans before. They don't end happily. Everyone winds up dead, or there's a horrible tragedy, or the human realizes they're terrified or the loup-garou realizes they miss the pack and the next thing you know: rocks fall, everyone dies, bang, another lesson ( Read more... )

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crazyprogrammer January 14 2007, 03:35:37 UTC

You're definitely not crazy. Rather, you might be if you weren't confused, even scared, by all the different factors that are pulling on you.

For now, perhaps it would be best to keep your options open, befriend Aiden as much as possible, and still stay with the pack. Only choose when you are forced, when one forces you to give up the other. At the very least it will afford you more time to think. Or, perhaps to gather more advice from those of us here.

vivian January 14 2007, 06:39:29 UTC

I wouldn't want him to get hurt, so it's best that we keep our distance. At least for now.

I have been listening to your advice, but those moments to breathe are few and far between.

aki_amano January 14 2007, 04:19:32 UTC

I believe you.

But I'd be VERY careful when it comes to Aiden. What if he freaks out and tells people and then... bad things.

You aren't crazy, Vivian. You're just scared.

vivian January 14 2007, 06:43:01 UTC

Scared, even though I'm not sure what I fear the most here. Do I fear Aiden's rejection, or do I fear a lifetime with Gabriel. Both are terrifying.

firemantis January 14 2007, 04:23:01 UTC

Not crazy. Just confused.

vivian January 14 2007, 06:56:18 UTC

I think I'd give anything right now for some clarity.

firemantis January 14 2007, 06:57:46 UTC

Just take a deep breath, close your eyes, and pray to the moon you're making the right decision... aint much else you can do, sweetie.

vivian January 14 2007, 07:08:07 UTC

Thank you for talking with me.

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deadwringer January 14 2007, 04:56:42 UTC

I don't think you're crazy.

vivian January 14 2007, 06:56:46 UTC

Thank you for saying so.

deadwringer January 14 2007, 07:20:15 UTC

I would be wary of telling Aiden just because it could pose a threat to both him and you. Take your time with telling him. Use your time with him as a time to breathe and escape from a world that you hate.

camomiletea January 14 2007, 05:55:14 UTC

No, you sound quite sane actually. If you were mad, you'd think you were perfectly sane. The fact that you doubt it proves you're sane. If you ask me whether I believe you: no, I don't. I'm too sane for that. But really, you do not seem crazy, and you might convince Aiden, who already believes the stories of the loup-garoux.

vivian January 14 2007, 07:00:49 UTC

I've never really thought of it like that. Oh, mother moon, I don't know what to do about Aiden.

I don't think I'd believe this if I were you. What's your name?

camomiletea January 14 2007, 18:05:12 UTC

I don't know the reasons why Aiden believes the loup-garoux stories: maybe he's made extensive research that I haven't, and found evidence, I don't know. On one hand I want to believe in "fairy tale", but on the other I've seen no evidence... This is kind of odd to talk this way, because I'm religious, and believe in God, and yet, I've seen no evidence for that either. It's simply the fact that I don't want to live in a world without God. And I suppose I could well live without werewolves in the world. ;)

Online I usually go by Constance. It's not my real name, because like you I don't feel safe to give some private information online, but it's one I identify with: it's calm, it's "constant", it's clear. Even if I myself am not always calm, and rarely constant, and don't see my future clear... I suppose that's why I picked it: because those are the things I want.