Is this thing on?

[vivian]

I don't know why I'm writing here. Maybe I'm hoping that someone out there will have some advice, some thoughts, some way to step back and look at the whole picture. I can't; I'm too close. I've been living it too long. I don't know what to do, and I don't know who I can turn to. Nobody here, that's for sure. Maybe nobody, period

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[aki_amano]

I'm listening!

I feel so sad for you. I don't know what it would be like to lose my family and on top of that be constantly on the run, hiding... *hugs*

[vivian]

Don't worry about me, I'll be fine. I'm always fine.

Oh, if that were true.

Running, with the wind in my hair and the solid earth under my feet! Is it possible to both love and despise something?

[aki_amano]

I wonder, is it possible to stay as a wolf and just not transform back? Then, you could go wherever you have to to escape and be able to feel the rush all the time.

[vivian]

Thank you for listening.

I see now that there are people willing to listen, willing to believe. That's all I could have asked for.

[quitepeachykeen]

I'm listening and I belive you.

[vivian]

Thank you for saying so.

[blue_meridian]

The thing about LJ is that there's always someone willing to listen if you go looking for them. But helpful? Well, that can be a different story.

You say your family moved to the U.S. at one point, but now you're back in Europe. Back in your homeland? I'm not sure if that makes your situation better or worse.

This may sound like a silly question, but the thing with wolves is that they're better adapted to living in the wild than humans, and I would assume it's the same for the loup-garou. Is there something preventing you from leaving if the situation is that dire? Kind of like moving away from home. Just for a time, until the pack leader has been forced to choose another mate or been defeated? (You'll have to forgive me. I know a little of wolves, but nothing of the pack dynamics of the loup-garou.)

It would seem a terrific advantage to run as wolf in the wild and human amidst more populated areas. Not easy, of course, but you sound... hunted.

[vivian]

I'm starting to see that, but I do wonder if I'm doing the right thing. What if I disclose too much, and bring trouble home to the pack?

Running away, if I could do such a thing, isn't as easy as that. I regret that I'm unable to tell you more right now.

I'm not hunted so much as expected to act a certain way. To respect traditions and rules. But then, I've never been above making things work in my favor.

[sherlock_nomes]

I believe you, and I want to help.