Pain and Distance
A/N: Yasss 1st fanfic. Anyways I decided that I will try originals and fanfics at the same if I can haha
But this actually tackles a sensitive topic for some people so bear with the fact that this is fanfiction ok?
Pairing: FanXing
Genre: Drama
Rating: P-13 (for random shit)
Word count: 948
Yixing hates it when he is in pain.
He feels disappointment when he cannot present himself in the best shape. He doesn't like it when he can't meet the fans' or even SM's expectation. Frustration could engulf him deep.
The moment Kris turned Wufan again, everyone was shocked. Plans were a little broken but hearts were more crushed.
Yixing was frustrated and confused. He knew this was coming, but he didn't expect Wufan wanted out as much as possible. The idol life was becoming not his style anymore.
Although he expected this a little, he is still confused. Is he trying to be a grenade? Why in this crucial point of showcasing ourselves? He asked himself.
He and his remaining teammates were tired from practicing a large set of production numbers and a number of interviews. Added also that they were interrogated secretly backstage and a lot of growling fans were anticipating a truth that will suit everyone's fancy and their minds.
If he knew what breakdown is happening within the fans, what would he do now?
He pretended to be strong for the sake of SM, EXO, and for everyone involved. More people might bash him but he went with the flow of things with a newfound passion. He tried to defeat the frustration that he cannot really heal fully. With this, the concert was a success that he secretly wishes that Kris was able to participate despite all of his plans.
He knows that he deserved an explanation for all the crap Wufan did. He was his confidante after all. Despite sometimes accidentally spilling a few things, Kris opened to him more than the others. Suho was too busy caring leader stuff that are supposed to be shared, Luhan with Xiumin in tow was busy hanging out with everyone else and Tao was always whining which led Wufan into choosing him.
If he only knew the pain of being untrusted by the person who cared the most.
As weeks went by and still no sign of Wufan's return to Korea, fans may have calmed down but journalists are getting wilder, hungry for scoop. He still went with the flow and did things like he used to. But the wound that Kris left on him won't heal fast and will still leave a scar.
Years passed and everything was settled. Kris is finally free.
The pain from Wufan moving away within her reach helped Yixing cope up and be the very best Lay that he could be. But he never got the answer or message he desired. He was frustrated that he managed to talk with a few members but he did not talk to him.
One day, they were assigned to go to an event in Hongkong where apparently Wufan will also go.
Emotional pain struck him hard more than his recurring injuries.
The performance went well as usual. It still bugs them a little when eyeing Wufan sitting with the audience while performing.
It made him wander more if how he managed to keep calm in the moment.
Then as Yixing dreaded, Wufan went backstage to visit their dressing room. As he opened the door, he gave a short greeting and dragged Yixing away. Surprisingly, the others did not chase them. They knew it was only Yixing who had grudges even after years later but he never showed it out of being the kind angel he is. Even Tao moved on and matured a lot.
Yixing noticed that they were going inside a fire exit. He thought that nobody saw them going in but locking it would be safer. Thank goodness that the event ended and a lot of people left aside from a little crowd of fans waiting outside.
Then he tugged his hand out of Wufan's hand and punched him in the arm.
"That is for all the pain for all these years" he said, shedding tears.
"I'm really sorry for the pain. I thought you knew better than anyone this time was coming." Wufan said.
"Yes, I knew but, Why at that time? Why did you not say your goodbyes? Why did you drag me now while you could have just talked to me?" Yixing asked as pain made him shed more tears. He even tried to punch Wufan more.
"Look” as he stopped Yixing’s punches. “It was a good time as advised before my body gets worst and a lot more things happened that I needed to go right away and goodbyes are too long for that. And I dragged the person who was the most emotionally wrecked after Tao. That person is a primetime king." He hugged Yixing tightly after saying all of those things.
"Who says that you were only the one in pain? I lost some things too. I lost money, some confused fans, and the most important thing, my confidante despite him throwing things to ease up interviews. I am really sorry Zhang Yixing, I broke you, and this is the goodbye you had always wanted." He said as he cried.
"Apology accepted Wu Yifan, things might not go back to the way it was but I could always be your confidant and I won’t say a thing now." Yixing said as he wipes his tears as tightens the hug.
They talked a little more just like the old days. They never felt this kind of bliss, until the sign of tears had subsided.
Until they unlocked the fire exit and happily went separate ways.
Finally, the scars of pain that haunted Yixing for years were finally healed. Distance and pain might hinder them but their heart will be always connected, linked in suffering and in joy.
--END--
But this actually tackles a sensitive topic for some people so bear with the fact that this is fanfiction ok?
Pairing: FanXing
Genre: Drama
Rating: P-13 (for random shit)
Word count: 948
Yixing hates it when he is in pain.
He feels disappointment when he cannot present himself in the best shape. He doesn't like it when he can't meet the fans' or even SM's expectation. Frustration could engulf him deep.
The moment Kris turned Wufan again, everyone was shocked. Plans were a little broken but hearts were more crushed.
Yixing was frustrated and confused. He knew this was coming, but he didn't expect Wufan wanted out as much as possible. The idol life was becoming not his style anymore.
Although he expected this a little, he is still confused. Is he trying to be a grenade? Why in this crucial point of showcasing ourselves? He asked himself.
He and his remaining teammates were tired from practicing a large set of production numbers and a number of interviews. Added also that they were interrogated secretly backstage and a lot of growling fans were anticipating a truth that will suit everyone's fancy and their minds.
If he knew what breakdown is happening within the fans, what would he do now?
He pretended to be strong for the sake of SM, EXO, and for everyone involved. More people might bash him but he went with the flow of things with a newfound passion. He tried to defeat the frustration that he cannot really heal fully. With this, the concert was a success that he secretly wishes that Kris was able to participate despite all of his plans.
He knows that he deserved an explanation for all the crap Wufan did. He was his confidante after all. Despite sometimes accidentally spilling a few things, Kris opened to him more than the others. Suho was too busy caring leader stuff that are supposed to be shared, Luhan with Xiumin in tow was busy hanging out with everyone else and Tao was always whining which led Wufan into choosing him.
If he only knew the pain of being untrusted by the person who cared the most.
As weeks went by and still no sign of Wufan's return to Korea, fans may have calmed down but journalists are getting wilder, hungry for scoop. He still went with the flow and did things like he used to. But the wound that Kris left on him won't heal fast and will still leave a scar.
Years passed and everything was settled. Kris is finally free.
The pain from Wufan moving away within her reach helped Yixing cope up and be the very best Lay that he could be. But he never got the answer or message he desired. He was frustrated that he managed to talk with a few members but he did not talk to him.
One day, they were assigned to go to an event in Hongkong where apparently Wufan will also go.
Emotional pain struck him hard more than his recurring injuries.
The performance went well as usual. It still bugs them a little when eyeing Wufan sitting with the audience while performing.
It made him wander more if how he managed to keep calm in the moment.
Then as Yixing dreaded, Wufan went backstage to visit their dressing room. As he opened the door, he gave a short greeting and dragged Yixing away. Surprisingly, the others did not chase them. They knew it was only Yixing who had grudges even after years later but he never showed it out of being the kind angel he is. Even Tao moved on and matured a lot.
Yixing noticed that they were going inside a fire exit. He thought that nobody saw them going in but locking it would be safer. Thank goodness that the event ended and a lot of people left aside from a little crowd of fans waiting outside.
Then he tugged his hand out of Wufan's hand and punched him in the arm.
"That is for all the pain for all these years" he said, shedding tears.
"I'm really sorry for the pain. I thought you knew better than anyone this time was coming." Wufan said.
"Yes, I knew but, Why at that time? Why did you not say your goodbyes? Why did you drag me now while you could have just talked to me?" Yixing asked as pain made him shed more tears. He even tried to punch Wufan more.
"Look” as he stopped Yixing’s punches. “It was a good time as advised before my body gets worst and a lot more things happened that I needed to go right away and goodbyes are too long for that. And I dragged the person who was the most emotionally wrecked after Tao. That person is a primetime king." He hugged Yixing tightly after saying all of those things.
"Who says that you were only the one in pain? I lost some things too. I lost money, some confused fans, and the most important thing, my confidante despite him throwing things to ease up interviews. I am really sorry Zhang Yixing, I broke you, and this is the goodbye you had always wanted." He said as he cried.
"Apology accepted Wu Yifan, things might not go back to the way it was but I could always be your confidant and I won’t say a thing now." Yixing said as he wipes his tears as tightens the hug.
They talked a little more just like the old days. They never felt this kind of bliss, until the sign of tears had subsided.
Until they unlocked the fire exit and happily went separate ways.
Finally, the scars of pain that haunted Yixing for years were finally healed. Distance and pain might hinder them but their heart will be always connected, linked in suffering and in joy.
--END--