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[myeverylastword]

As I start my journey into introducing myself to myself again, I have discovered that I am really into labels.

I don't mean Louis Vuitton, Gucci or Burberry - I'm talking about different classes of psychiatric categorization regarding myself.

I am obsessed with my newest label for myself - OCD (with a slight emphasis on the obsessive part) along

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[myeverylastword]

I completely understand everything you are talking about. As much as it is relieving to know there are other people "like me" out there, I'm sorry you deal with it too. It is not an easy obsession to deal with - especially because the more and more I try to find myself and study everything around me, the more I realize nothing is perfect. In fact, if anything, most things these days are completely fake! Which makes it even more difficult for perfectionists like us...trying to achieve something that may not even be achievable without manipulations or alterations to an already "finished" product!

Thank you for the support :) I apologize for my absence and I hope one day I can offer you the same support. I think you are spot-on with everything you said, about detachment, numbing, and how difficult these truths can be.

[hana_broom]

*hugs* I'm so with you on the thinking too much thing xxx

[myeverylastword]

It's such a curse!! There are too many thoughts going on at once!! I am so sorry you struggle with it too! *Hugs**

[bunnicula38]

I suffer from a bi-polar disorder, not OCD, but we're similar in that our thoughts can veer out of obsessive control and they can be difficult to contain. I can spend days ruminating over anything or be up all night with thoughts running through my mind like trains. I'll worry about not meeting my monthly quota at work, how I'll react to a bad evaluation. And even though I tell myself that none of this matters in the scheme of life, the mind has a life of its own. I take Depakote which really helps with rumination but I wouldn't suggest it unless you are eager to gain 50 pounds.

[myeverylastword]

I am so sorry to hear of your struggles. It is very difficult to struggle with an "invisible" illness. I honestly have never been formally diagnosed with OCD (my own research and analysis), but I really relate to a lot of what you talked about.

It's so hard to deal with - especially like when you said you try to remind yourself none of it matters - but your brain kind of does it's own thing regardless of how much you try to stop it.

You are not alone in your thoughts friend <3

[bunnicula38]

Thanks so much for your support! It's so wonderful to be able to participate in a forum where we can receive support for our mental illness without stigma.